Ndoey's

2004-05-31T01:16:00.000-07:00

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Tertanda,

Eka Bahari a.k.a Ndoey

2004-03-22T05:13:00.000-08:00

Cerita Baru

Udah lama yah gw ga posting. sekarang gw lagi belajar adaptasi sama yang suasana kantor gw yang baru. Emang banget, walaupun kerjanya sama aja, tapi tetep suasana kerjanya beda banget. di bne dulu gw kerja dalam suasana training, di sini i have to do everything on my own. dulu di sana, kebanyakan agents nya adalah ibu2 yang sudah berkeluarga, walaupun kata chris kebanyakan agents ibu2 di sana adalah perempuan yang sudah bercerai dan benci yang namanya laki2. sedangkan di sini kebanyakan perempuan2 muda yang masih berumur pertengahan 20an dan cantik2. di sana dulu, jumlah laki2 nya gak banyak, bisa diitung sebelah tangan, plus, itupun gak semuanya straight, banyak juga yang gay, sedang di sini banyak banget agents laki2 nya dari yang udah punya anak sampe yang masih cari pasangan. di sana kompie nya canggih, cepet kerjanya dengan layar monitor yang lega jadi enak dilihat, disini kayaknya kompie yang rakitan, monitor bekas dengan ukuran yang kecil banget. di sana line telponnya bagus, di sini line telponnya minta ampun makan ati yang akhirnya bikin penelpon stress dan banyak tanya soal lokasi call centre kami, yang jelas2 merupakan rahasia yang gak boleh sama sekali diinformasiin ke penelpon. walhasil, makin sering lagi deh agents di sini terima makian2 yang bernada rasis dari penelpon yang emang kayaknya kurang makan bangku sekolahan. *getok mereka rame2!!* kerja di sana rosternya gak aneh2 banget, soalnya emang sesuai dengan jam kerja di sana, jadi dulu gw mulai jam 8.30 pagi dan pulang jam 4.30 sore. di sini, jam kerja nya dibuat sesuai dengan jam kerja ostrali yang walhasil bikin jam roster pagi dimulai dari jam 5 pagi *dijemput mobil kantor jam 3.45 pagi* dan pulang jam 1 siang, atau jam 1 siang pulang jam 9 malem. bisa juga in between. gak ngaruh, sabtu minggu atau tanggal merah tetep aja masuk kalo emang rosternya ada. untungnya weekend boleh pake baju bebas dan sepatu keds, kebayang kan kalo mesti pake baju formal, kesannya saltum banget. seneng sih masuk ke komunitas baru, anak2 kantor gw enak2, masih muda dan seneng becanda. cuma suasana kerja yang kadang perasaan gak bikin tenang. gimana enggak, demi mempertahankan standar mutu perusahaan, ada yang namanya ujian2 dan evaluasi2 yang berkala tiap beberapa bulan. semua, dari mulai tes inggris, ngetik, standard operation procedures, semuanya deh. kami diharapkan untuk selalu punya performa sempurna, kalo gak bisa dipindah divisi yang kayaknya kerjanya lebih makan ati. udah banyak kok contohnya. 2 temen gw yang dipulangin duluan karna masalah aksen dulu, sekarang ngerjain administrasi yang nota bene termasuk belanja dan nyupirin bule ostrali yang kebetulan lagi dateng untuk monitor kerja kami di sini. kurang ajar kan? Terus juga ga ada yang namanya keanggotaan di jamsostek, padahal kan itu penting. kata mereka yang ngakunya management tingkat atas di sini sih kami ini masih pegawai kontrak, tapi eh, di JIS dulu gw dapet jamsostek pula walaupun kontrak setahun. di sini kan kontraknya dua tahun. ga ada juga asuransi kesehatan. gitu deh.

Bottom line is, am trying to adjust with everything here. jadi mohon maaf banget kalo yang belum sempet gw hubungin karena juga gw langsung kerja begitu sampe sini *lirik Vanya*. Gw sendiri belum sempet hubungin temen2 teater gw yang kabarnya lagi persiapan buat pementasan selanjutnya. ntah gw bisa nonton atau nggak. pengennya sih bisa bantu, at least make up seperti biasa.

ketemunya gw sama alfa juga susah banget. kami berdua kerja sama2 pake shift. gw yang liburnya tergantung roster dan alfa yang liburnya lima hari sekali. jadi kalo ketemu juga sebentar2, soalnya kadang jam kerja gw pas pagi ketika dia lagi libur. kangen banget deh jadinya. gw rada kaget juga sih baca postingan dia yang terakhir, emang sih, tadinya itu cuma sekedar dare yang gw ga sangka bakal dia kerjain bener2. seneng sih, tapi kan jadi malu.. *tersipu-sipu walau kelihatannya gak pantes*. however gw seneng bacanya, dan moga2 emang terlaksana, amin..

ceritanya gw baru beli handphone baru, soalnya yang lama mo dipake nyokap yang ceritanya mulai merasa perlu pake hp. baru aja gw beli semalem di roxy bareng alfa, nyokap dan adek gw yang paling kecil. tadi waktu ke toilet, hp itu gw taro di kantong gw. pas di toilet entah gimana caranya tu hp jatoh dan kecemplung di bak airnya. langsung tenggelam dengan sempurna deh. panik, gw angkat buru2 dan gw lap pake tissue. kelap kelip sebentar langsung mati. abis gw ditolol tololin temen2 kerja gw. dipanasin di dryer tangan sebentar, gw nyalahin lagi. masih kelap kelip dan langsung gw matiin. lagi2 gw di tolol2 in temen gw. katanya kalo blum bener2 kering jangan dinyalahin dulu. tau deh gimana nasib tu hp. moga2 bisa beres tanpa harus dibawa ke tukang service. masalahnya gw ga punya duit dan males banget bawa itu barang ke tempat service nya. doain aja deh.

udah ah, gw mo siap2 pulang. bentar lagi gw dijemput alfa yang terus monitor perkembangan gw tanpa rokok. beraaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttt banget. hiks.. seandainya gw mulai ga ngeroko sejak dulu, sekarang kan ga bakal seberat ini.. *iya mpi.. lu bener..* sigh.. tekad ndoey, tekad!!

2004-03-06T06:23:00.000-08:00

Im home!!

Gat tau mo bilang apa, yang jelas gw seneng akhirnya gw udah pulang dan ketemu temen2 yang gw kangenin selama ini *walau gw ga bilang kalo temen2 gw itu kangen sama gw* thanks to cipi, ijal, rudy, setyo, dody, egi for being there when I got home. Thanks chris for the lift to the airport when everybody left me coz I lost my ticket home *Ndoey banget sih lu?* and for being our man there. We’ll take care of lia here for you chris! thanks lani and tiomai to come to the airport and gave me some farewell gifts. Thanks for all the nice agents there with their helps and welcome while we were there. Thanks a lot for dienda with the kopi dangdut cd and for coming to our farewell party in the valley, and also for coming to say good bye and helped me finding my stupid ticket. *kalo udah pulang bilang2 ya mak!* thanks for everybody deh including udhien yang udah banyak bantu gw dari jauh selama gw di sana, dan semua komunitas blog yang udah nemenin hari2 sepi gw di sana lewat chat di Y!M atawa sms. Thank you!

Thank so much for Alfa for picking me up and for the lovely stay we had together. Thanks for calling me all the time and for companying me from hundreds miles away. I love you mpi. Now that we’re together, I never want to be apart from you ever again! Love you babe!

Am home, life and kicking! God, am glad to be here again!

2004-02-25T00:02:00.000-08:00

Counting Down!!

4 more days to go! I’m coming home soon, can’t hardly wait. Finally everything’s done. Hard work is waiting back home, but hell I care, I just want to go back home.

Capek banget gw, pokoknya gw cuma mo pulang, balik ke kamar gw yang kabarnya udah diinvasi ma sepupu gw, saatnya ambil alih komputer yang udah dipindah kamarkan ke kamar adek gw, saatnya makan makanan yang bergizi dan penuh vitamin *iya, gw emang gemukan, tapi itu kan gara2 keseringan makan mi instant, maklum anak kost*, saatnya makan makanan yang pedes murni dari cabe, bukan dari saus atawa dari cabe kering yang rasanya kadang ga jelas. Saatnya ketemu mak dan bokap gw yang centil-centilan bikin acara wedding vow renewal. Lah, piye, anaknya kan jadi iri.. *gossip nya mo pake kebaya segala loh, walah..*. Saatnya ninggalin panasnya ostrali yang bertanggung jawab atas itemnya gw sekarang, saatnya ngebuktiin kata2 nya alfa yang gak cukup2 bilang kangen gw.

Gw malah dapet temen baru di sini yang ternyata setelah ngobrol panjang lebar baru ketauan kalo kami berdua itu sekampung di jati asih, bekasi. Dienda. Buset, gaya banget deh, ketemunya di Brisbane, ga nyangka banget. Gak jauh, tinggalnya di Toowong, cuma 15 menit naik kereta dari suburb gw. Dia juga mo pulang bentar lagi, gak mau sih sebenernya, Cuma disuruh aja ma orang tua nya, kalo gak sih gak bakalan mau tu anak. Tau deh kenapa di suruh pulang, adek2 nya protes kali dia gak kebagian tugas cuci piring di rumahnya selama tujuh taun ini. Seru juga sih, gw jadi sering telpon2 an kalo malem, rada telat juga sih, walhasil telpon di unit gw bisa juga kepake. Tu telpon kan dibayarin kantor, jarang banget kepake soalnya Cuma bisa dipake buat telp lokal. Lah, temen gw kan gak banyak di sini, ga banyak2 banget, ya adanya temen2 kantor juga. Gak banyak gunanya. Sekarang ada, minimal kemaren gw bisa dengerin lagu kopi dangdut lewat telpon semalem. Thanks banget ya bu! Sempet nginep juga semaleman gara2 storm dan manfaatin aircon yang bisa bikin adem sedikit dari panas di luar sana yang sempet sampe 42 derajat celcius.

Sekarang itu saatnya siap2 packing dan puas2 in berenang di kolam kompleks apt gw, di Jakarta kan berenang bayar, makanya mesti gw puas2 in berenang di sini. Gw sendiri sekarang lagi struggling buat berenti ngeroko. Janji gw sama alfa dan sama gw sendiri kalo gw akan berenti ngeroko dengan deadline bulan maret. Stengah mati juga sih. Sekarang ini gw ngeroko bisa Cuma sebatang sehari. Not bad banget kan. Pokoknya Insya Allah, bulan maret gw udah bebas rokok. Ada yang bantuin doa?

Eh, gw udah pernah cerita blum sih kalo nama gw di sini jadi Courtney? Itu nama inggris gw. Gw kan mesti pura2 kalo gw ini native, padahal sih jelas banget kalo aksen gw itu keras banget. Baru aja tadi siang ada penelpon yang langsung nuduh, “are you Indonesian?” lah, hebat banget tu bule, dia bilang kalo dia bisa tebak aksen gw. Pinter..pinter..
Udah ah, gw mesti pulang. Malem ini dapet shift sore, jadi baru pulang jam 6 sore. Besok masuk pagi, jam 7 harus udah mulai kerja. Ntar malem mo latian nyanyi buat farewell party sama coach2 hari jumat nanti. Selama ini kalo farewell party dari group2 sebelum group gw selalu nyanyi lagu sedih, kami malah nyanyi lagu Kopi Dangdut. Biar aja, biar tu bule2 juga kenal dangdut. *thanks dienda for that*

Mpi.. 4 more days to go!! Yipeee!!

2004-02-08T23:03:00.000-08:00

Hiks.. Hiks..

Baru aja tadi pagi gw sempet2 in dateng pagi cuma buat nyebar kebahagiaan ke semua kalian semua lewat postingan di sini. Tanggal pulang yang udah di depan mata bikin gw semangat lagi. Paling gak, biar emang beberapa kali diundur yang penting mulai kelihatan ada harapan. Kalo sebelumnya gw ngerasa gw ada di dalam tunnel yang gelap dan panjang tanpa kelihatan ujungnya, ketika gw denger departure date buat kepulangan gw udah set gw ngerasa kayak mulai kelihatan setitik cahaya di ujung sana *tsaaahh bahasanya* Jelas tambah semangat dong gw! Tapi ternyata, semuanya runtuh ketika hari ini gw dapet kabar dari big boss di sini yang baru aja balik dari Jakarta hari minggu kemaren. Ternyata, they decided to extend our stay here again until exactly the end of feb. Piye toh, rasanya nasib gw di naik turunin terus. Sebel banget. Emang sih, gw tau banget kalo gw agak berlebihan, masak gw udah 4 bulan di sini nunggu 3 minggu lagi gak bisa, tapi emang gw sebel aja deh. udah pangen banget ketemu keluarga, pengen ketemu temen2 gw *ya elu2 itu!*, pengen lepas dari training, pengen ketemu alfa tentunya, dan pengen banget makan bakso, bakso yang enak, yang pedes, yang panas..

Weekend kemaren gw ma temen2 segrup gw nyempetin diri ke Gold Coast. Tujuannya ya karna takut tiba2 kami diminta pulang ma management Jakarta. Nyewa mobil *gaya banget deh!* Mazda Tribute, lumayan lah, patungan seorang $45 bisa dari jumat sore sampe minggu sore, udah sekalian ama bensin. Lumayan mahal sih, soalnya kami emang cuma pengen pergi segrup aja. Sebelumnya sempet nyewa Toyota Hiace *bener gak sih spellingnya?* 12 seaters buat ke Sunshine Coast 2 minggu yang lalu. Bareng anak2 grup yang baru, abisnya cuma $16 per orang. lumayan murah kan? Gw sampe sekeling2 nya karna selalu berenang di pantai. Abis, kapan lagi gw bisa ke sini? Jadi ya dimanfaatkan sebaik mungkin lah.

Rencana sebelumnya cuma mo ke Gold Coast, mo cari penginapan yang murah meriah *yang bisa masuk 5 orang sekaligus sih maksudnya* kurang lebih dari unit gw sekitar 1.5 jam perjalanan deh kalo pake mobil. Tapi ditengah jalan jadi pengen bandel. Banyak yang bilang dari dulu kalo Byron Bay itu indah banget. Byron Bay itu titik mainland paling timur di Ostrali. Sialnya, letaknya itu udah masuk New South Wales, dan kami itu gak boleh keluar state. Tapi hell lah, gak ada yang tau ini. Berbekal peta, berangkat deh ke Byron Bay. Ampun, keren banget tu tempat. Sampe sana jam 11 malem, ubek2an cari motel murah, tapi emang udah disumpahin kali ye sama Ann Parker boss gw di sini, gak ada satu kamarpun yang bisa disewa. Walhasil, setelah muter2 tiada hasil, kami semua tidur di mobil di parking lot yang gratisan. Lumayan sih jadi gak modal, tapi pegel banget! Tapi ya worthed banget. Mercu suar dan Sunrise nya keren banget. beruntung gw sempet ambil beberapa foto sunrise, walau di foto2 itu mata gw bengep banget karna tidurnya gak beres. Bodo ah!

Sekalian mo ucapin terima kasih buat Udhien yang udah benerin Comment board gw, buat Empi yang udah repot2 nyariin Udhien buat gw, buat Killy yang udah repot2 ngutak atik walaw gak berhasil *thx for the effort my man!*, buat Gembel yang gw mintain tolong juga tapi kayaknya keburu dibenerin ma Udhien. Makasih deh buat semuanya.

Satu lagi deh, gw kan gak punya koper gede, waktu mo berangkat ke sini gw itu pinjem koper sahabat gw si Egi. Semalem *waktu gw masih yakin kalo gw bakal pulang weekend ini, huh!* gw mo mulai packing, siap2 biar nanti ga repot. Ternyata, gw lupa no kombinasi kunci buat buka koper itu. Top banget kan? Udah beberapa kali gw sms, temen gw yang kabarnya mo nikah tahun ini itu *empiii.. jadiannya kan duluan kita, kok dia nyerobot siiihh??* kok belum bales2 juga. Padahal emang gw juga udah seharusnya mulai packing. Tau deh gimana nantinya biar gw bisa pulang.

Tau ah, gw masih sebel sekarang soal jadwal pulang.. ayo dong!! Hibur gw dong!!

2004-02-08T13:59:00.000-08:00

BENTAR LAGI GW PULAAAANG!!
senangnya hatikuh..

2004-01-21T03:42:00.000-08:00

KONFIRMASI DOANG!

Gw cuma konfirmasi doang. Beberapa waktu yang lalu gw liat komen gw di sini, salah satunya dari An, dia refer Alfa sebagai Mpapi. Trus kira2 dua minggu yang lalu gw sempet chat sama Bryan, di situ dia refer Alfa juga sebagai Papi. Gw sempet bingung kok banyak yang refer dia sebagai papi nya gw. it rang the bell, dulu juga si Dipa pernah sangka gw manggil Alfa sebagai papi nya gw. Lah, kenapa jadi begitu? Selidik punya selidik, ternyata karna gw sering refer si Alfa sebagai Mpi. Aduh, FYI deh temen teman, kalo gw manggil Mpi itu singkatan dari Empi yang diambil dari nama Humpie, nama kecilnya si Alfa dari dia bayi dulu. Kata dia sih Humpie itu dari bahasa Belanda. Artinya anak laki2 kecil gitu deh *kayaknya udah gak pantes banget deh lu kalo dianggap kecil mpi! Badan lu segede bagong gitu!* Macam Otong deh kalo bahasa Betawi. Jadi Mpi itu bukan dari papi. Bukan banget. Lah, jadinya aneh banget deh kalo gw manggil dia papi *kesannya sugardad banget yah?*, kecuali kalo dia udah bisa beliin gw jaguar atu aja, gw panggil papi deh! heuheuheue..

Nah, sekalian, gw posting aja deh. Bentar lagi, salah satu temen deket gw di sini, Nouska *satu lagi Manado yang deket sama gw* harus pulang ke Jakarta. Sabtu ini rencananya gw ma temen2 segroup di sini mo nganter dia ke bandara. Sedih banget deh, soalnya Gw, dia dan Nadia *temen dari group yang baru* udah lumayan deket banget. Udah setahun dia di sini, posisinya emang lebih tinggi dari gw, nanti di jakarta, dia yang bakal ngatur roster kerja gw dan temen2 gw. Yang tambah sedih lagi, gw mulai harus jalan ke warnet lagi. Soalnya, dia pulang, ni kompie bakal diangkat. Gak ada lagi deh nge net gratis atawa chatting malem gratisan... huhuhu.. hilang deh akses gratisan gw.. huhuhu *lah, lu sedih karna dia pulang atau karena ga bisa gratisan lagi ndoey?* Yah, sedih karena sia pulang lah. Berkurang deh temen deket gw di sini, siapa lagi yang bakal ngajarin gw main gitar di sini kalo bukan dia..?? huhuhu.. tapi hasilanya, gw malah dikasih gitar sama dia.. huehueh.. lumayan, dia repot pulang bawa gitar yang dia beli di sini, walhasil gitar nya dikasih ke gw dan gw gak perlu beli lagi deh! Mpi, gitar lu boleh lu bawa pulang tuh yang di rumah.. heuheuhe *congkaknya gw ini!*

Satu lagi, hari ini, tepat 6 bulan yang lalu, gw dan Mpi memutuskan untuk pacaran. Gak sangka, udah 6 bulan. Lama juga yah? Padahal sih, kalo mo diitung, 3 bulan yang beneran bareng2 di jkt dan 3 bulan lagi misah karena gw nya di sini. Dan nanti, Insya Allah, kalo kami masih sama2, bulan depan jadinya selama kami pacaran justru lamaan kami misahnya daripada bareng2 nya. huhuhu.. kangen banget mpi! Seneng banget sih, dulu padahal gw pernah yang hesitate gitu, gimana gak, gw ma Alfa kan beda banget. Semua juga tau deh kalo kami ini bak dua kutub magnet yang beda, utara ma selatan yang somehow malah jadi tarik tarikan *sebenernya sih gw yang ditarik tarik ;p* Seneng baget tapi juga sedih karena gw masih ada di sini dan pisah jauh banget dari dia. But i'll survive, we'll survive.. just wish us luck deh!

Mpi..
Makasih banget yah buat segala yang udah lu kasih ke gw selama ini. Gw seneng banget dan gw ngerasa kalo gw bener2 bisa jadi diri sendiri. 6 bulan kita udah sama2, kita udah ngerasain senengnya bisa habisin waktu bersama, sedihnya misah jauh, ngobrol yang gak pernah ada abis2 nya, nangis2 karena ribut besar.. banyak deh. We share a lot of things babe, and hopefully, we'll keep on sharing everything for good. 6 months is still nothing, we still have to work hard to make it works and to reach our dreams together, but somehow, i just have to let u know, that i've been so very happy since we're together. Thanks for everything Mpi, for ur support, for ur understanding, for ur trust, for the moment that we share, for the love that u show and give me. Thanks for everything. I love u so much, just keep ur faith in me, i'll return home soon, return to u. I love u!

2004-01-11T07:26:00.000-08:00

Campur Campur

Bingung mo posting. Banyak banget yang terjadi belakangan ini. Dari yang bikin gw seneng terus ketawa ketawa sampe yang bikin gw sedih setengah mati, campur campur deh. dimulai dari yang sedih dulu kali ye. senin kemaren grup kami di sini dapet berita yang ngagetin banget. dua anggota grup kami di sini dapet kabar yang nyakitin banget. dipanggilnya mereka berdua oleh si Murtad dan Anne, bos kami di sini. Mereka diputuskan untuk pulang lebih cepat dan gak bisa ikutan program training lagi. mereka dianggap tidak kompeten untuk posisi sebagai agent. mereka dianggap tidak memenuhi standar yang sudah ditetapkan, "can't reach the benchmark" itu yang mereka bilang. shocking banget. gimana enggak, baru 2minggu yang lalu kami diputuskan untuk mengikuti program tambahan yang artinya tinggal di sini lebih lama dari schedule sebenarnya. Tapi tiba2, out of the blue, managent memutuskan untuk kirim mereka pulang. Mereka berdua sempet ngomong langsung dengan manager kami di jakarta, itu tu.. bos gw yang pernah gw ceritain dulu, yang keukeuh banget ngajak gw jalan. manis banget deh, dia bilang, "kita lihat hari senin minggu depan, kalau masih ada posisi untuk kalian di sini *bukan posisi call ctr agent spt posisi kami sekarang* kalian akan mungkin akan dipekerjakan, tapi kalau tidak ada, yah,, kita salaman aja deh". Enak banget, setelah kerja keras mereka selama ini, setelah ngikutin training yang banyak makan hati ini. padahal kan, seperti kami semua di sini, punya harapan besar untuk punya kerjaan for at least 2 years seperti yang tertera di kontrak. Parahnya, keputusan itu dibuat tanpa adanya warning sama sekali. Padahal, dari kontrak yang kami tanda tangan dulu ada pasal yang bunyinya kalo perusahaan punya hak untuk memutuskan hubungan kerja dengan pemberitahuan paling sedikit 14 hari sebelum pemberhentian, juga dengan surat peringatan paling sedikit satu kali. Lah, ini dengan tiba2 aja, mereka diputuskan untuk pulang 5 hari sebelum hari pemberangkatan dan tanpa warning sekali pun. Sedih banget kan. Kami semua tau banget kalo mereka berdua udah kerja keras banget. Malah, salah satu dari mereka kadang2 terlalu rajin. Disaat kami semua asik cengkrama sambil nonton tv, dia malah belajar di kamar dan nenteng2 kamus kemanapun dia pergi. Salah satu alesan dari management sini adalah bahwa aksen mereka terlalu kental. Lah, kalo gitu sih, kenapa dari dulu diterima kerja, aksen itu kan gak bisa ilang, kecuali kalo sesorang udah tinggal tahunan di negara orang. Guru inggris gw di sini juga bilang begitu kok. Sebel banget gw, perusahaan internasional yang udah segini besar pun masih norak begini. Sayang banget effort dan pengorbanan yang udah dijalanin mereka berdua di sini. Menyayangkan banget, seandainya aja sudah ada warning sebelumnya kan mereka berdua mungkin bisa berusaha lagi. Tapi kalo tiba2 gini kan, mereka gak punya kesempatan untuk buktiin diri sama sekali. Kalo udah ada warning tapi mereka masih gak bisa itu lain urusan. Bukan keputusannya yang gw sayangkan, tapi proses nya yang gw anggap salah dan gak adil itu yang bikin kesel. setelah denger soal itu minggu lalu, gw dan temen2 langsung nuntut meeting sama si murtad, menuntut penjelasan walau saat itu kami tau bener kalo keputusan gak bakal bisa berubah. Dia jelasin hal2 yang jadi alasan mereka. Dan ternyata, si murtad itu yang kasih rekomendasi ke pusat *jakarta* untuk mulangin mereka berdua. Dan dia buat rekomendasi itu sebelum natal, kan udah lama banget. Kenapa dia gak bilang2? waktu gw tanya soal itu, dia cuma bilang.."yes, i know that, next time i will approach better" lah.. enak aja, itu kan next time, lah yang dua ini gimana? walhasil semua anggota grup gw benci setengah mati sama si murtad. malah kelihatannya kami yang lebih terpukul dibanding mereka berdua yang kelihatannya pasrah banget. dia sadar banget kalo dia sangat tidak populer saat ini diantara kami, yang ada dia skg suka baik2in kami banget. Males lah kami. Jadilah, sabtu kemaren kami semua antar mereka berdua ke bandara. Gw rasanya pengen sneak in aja biar bisa ikut pulang. Sedih banget di bandara, karena however, kami semua di sini seperti keluarga. Jadi semua ikut ngerasain. Sedih banget deh. Walhasil performa kerja kami semua sempet turun, stress banget. Kalo ini kejadian sama mereka brarti bisa kejadian sama kami juga dong. Emang sih, sedikit banyak jadi cambuk buat kami semua, tapi tetep aja stres banget.

Enough for the sad part. Gw berdoa aja semoga mereka bisa sukses walau gak kerja di Quantum lagi. Amin. Terus.. weekend ini, gw Nouska dan Nadia iseng2 ke city buat belanja. Nadia sih yang belanja. Tapi ujung2 nya gw malah beli sendal ma kalung2 an. Setelah hunting barang, kami ke Coles buat belanja mingguan. Pulangnya naik taksi. Supirnya bule yang udah lumayan tua. Di jalan, kami bertiga sibuk berbahasa indo, ngomongin soal kantor plus ngeledekin nuska yang emang lagi sakit perut mo ke toilet. Pas sampe di depan apt, supirnya bilang:
"lima dolar 60 sen"
melongo semelongo melongonya "ha? bisa bahasa indo pak?"
"bisa, saya lama di jawa timur"
"jadi.. dari tadi bapak ngerti kami ngomong apa aja??"
"Ngerti!"
Turun dari taksi kami semua ngakak2. Berarti dia ngerti kalo si Nuska lagi pengen banget ke toilet. Nah, sampe unit, barulah gw sadar, ternyata belanjaan gw gak ada. selidik punya selidik, ternyata ketinggalan di coles. Buset, kesel banget gw. Clumsy banget yah, kan lumayan tuh. Untung aja pas ditelpon ke Coles masih ada, jadi bisa diambil besok pulang kerja. Toror banget yah.

Perasaan gw bahas inggris gw gak tambah bagus tapi bahasa indo gw malah jadi berantakan juga selama gw di sini. Selama kami di sini, kami semua malah kesannya nyiptain bahasa baru. Kadang udah eneg pake inggris. Contohnya..
"Who knows?" = hidung siapa?
"Up to you" = atas kepadamu
"Bare with me for a minute" = beruang bersama saya sejenak
"I have no idea" = tidak punya gagasan
"No way!" = tidak jalan
diartiin karena punya pronunciation yang sama dengan beberapa kata lain yang artinya sama sekali beda. Norak banget deh.

Satu lagi yang bikin gw kesel, sekarang di kantor gw, entah kenapa, semua blogspot di banned. Jadi gw gak bisa buka blog gw sendiri. Sial, tetep aja mesti ke warnet atawa pake kompienya nuska yang keterlaluan lelet nya. Apa salah gw coba?? tega banget sih ni perusahaan, padahal 2 bulan sebelumnya baik2 aja. Huh!
Udah ah, udah malem banget, gw mesti tidur. Besok mesti kerja.

Peluk tidur gw yah Mpi..

2003-12-27T02:24:00.000-08:00

Long Weekend!!

Libur 4 hari!!! wuhuyyyy!!! Long weekend, senangya hatikuh.. Gimana gak seneng, gw udah bosen banget sama suasana call ctr tempat gw kerja. sebenernya gak juga sih, tapi gimana yah, program coaching yang baru berjalan 2 minggu ternyata gak berjalan lancar karena bos gw, si murtad itu emang baru nyoba program pelatihan baru. grup gw ini lah yang dijadiin kambing percobaan *bukannya tikus percobaan ndoey?* yang ada kamis kemaren dia ngumpulin kami semua berikut coaches kami dan buka meeting kasih kepastian kalo stay kami bakal di extend. gak lama sih, paling gak februari dah pulang walau lagi2 kapannya masih belum jelas. BT juga sih, gara2 mereka iseng2 coba program baru, telat deh gw pulang. Terus, di program baru ini mereka nempatin gw sama coach yang namanya Vicky Plakias, campuran Yunani. Buset, perfeksionist banget. paling muda tapi paling nyebelin, bukan gw aja, tapi hampir semua trainees yang udah pulang pun benci sama dia. hobinya nyalahin orang dan ga bisa sama skali diajak becanda. Padahal lumayan cantik, masih muda, langsing dan rambutnya panjang. tapi.. bauuuuuu!! Gw kasih julukan dia si PKI, walhasil sekarang anak2 kalo ngomongin dia pake nama PKI itu. Sialnya gw kebagian sama dia terus. sial banget deh.. tapi ada bagusnya juga sih, gw jadi termotivasi banget buat gak ngasih kesempatan buat dia buat kritik gw, hasilnya gw termasuk dari 3 orang trainees yang dilepas duluan, artinya kami bertiga dikasih kepercayaan oleh managemen untuk ngerjain tugas tanpa banyak pengawasan dari coaches kami. gitu..

Natalan di sini keren banget. banyak rumah2 yang dihias, terus ada show kembang api tiap malem selama 5 hari. Keren banget deh, yah.. hiburan gratisan. Tapi gw mesti jalan selama kurang lebih 30 sampe 45 menit menuju ke southbank demi liat itu kembang api. tapi worthed banget deh, cantik banget!! Tapi sedih juga sih, gw cuma mikir seandainya keluarga gw bisa ikutan liat itu kembang api. Gw juga sempet seguk segukan sendirian karena tiba2 abis liat shownya gw kangen sama alfa. coba dia ada di sana.. bagus banget sih.. suasananya juga bagus banget. sungai brisbane emang indah banget deh. Nah, gw lagi nungguin taun baru, bakal ada konser musik lokal plus pesta kembang api lagi. biasa.. gratisann!!

Nah.. demi taun baru yang meriah walaw gratisan.. gw niatan beli baju baru.. sekali lah.. kan gw juga pengen cantik walau sama sekali gak cantik.. *gw kan cakep*. gw beli gaun warna item, bagus banget, cuma masalahnya gw rada bingung kalo nanti di jakarta mo gw pake ke mana tu baju. abis rada seksi sih.. kata Novi, flatmate gw sih, gw mesti ngurusin badan dulu baru tu baju bagus gw pake. sial, udah gw beli gitu mo diapain lagi. rasanya sih gak mungkin gw bisa sukses ngurusin badan, gw kan makan mi instant ma makanan jepang mulu di sini, gimana bisa gw kurus?? Terus, iseng2 gw beli sepatu yang pake hak. gw kan gak pernah pake, abis trauma, gw pernah jatoh dulu, jadi males banget. Maksudnya beli itu sepatu biar matching ma bajunya, taunya pas gw pake di rumah kok jadi tinggi banget. buset, 7 centi, haknya kecil pula, beneran aja, pas gw pake kok jalannya aneh, kayaknya miring2 gitu. Padahal waktu dipake sama novi dan tini, mereka jalannya lurus2 aja. Lah, ada yang salah sama gw?

Mo cerita apa lagi yah?? Cerita soal gw ga punya duit aja kali ye?? hihi.. gw heran gimana caranya temen2 gw bisa save money di sini. Kok gw gak bisa yah? Mereka bisa beli ini itu, bisa kirim duit ke keluarganya walau gak banyak2 banget trus masih punya duit simpenan selama di sini. Kok gw ga bisa yah? emang gw itu mesti banget belajar caranya manage duit sendiri. Gw kok barang yang dibeli gak ada, tapi duitnya juga gak ada. Lah? walhasil sekarang merana, makan mi instant *untung masih ada indomi dan supermi di toko Yuen* dan frozen food ampir tiap hari. Duit buat taun baru tinggal $100, buset, mampus gw! Doain gw selamat deh!

Oh iya, satu lagi.. mampus.. di sini panaaaaaaaassssssss banget. yang namanya summer serius banget, ga boongan summernya. Bisa ampe 40 derajat loh. Gerah, perih kulit gw. Nanti gw pulang gendut dan item deh. Ke mana2 gw mesti bawa sunglasses, soalnya nyakitin mata banget panasnya. Sialnya, emang dasar turunannya begitu, idung gw yang flat ini *mo bilang pesek tapi kok kayaknya ekstreem banget gitu yah?* gak bisa diajak kompromi. Berhubung di Brisbane itu jalannya up and down the hills, itu sunnies *slangnya sunglasses ozy bilang* tu kaca mata item turun mulu dari idung gw. Apalagi kalo idung gw udah keringetan, buset deh, gak mau stay! Begok kan??

Udah ah, gara2 sambil chat sama Udhien, Inna, Maryn, dan yang lainnya, ni postingan jadi gak kelar2. Gw mo ngurusin cucian dulu. sigh.. weekend kok nyuci..

Eh, sampe lupa.. Buat yang merayakan.. terutama Aee, Vanya, dan Kesih, juga yang lainnya.. Selamat Natal yah!! sorry telat. hihi..

Mpi.. pengen pulang..

2003-12-07T23:57:00.000-08:00

Gw Mo Update Dong!!

"Kalo mo liat poto2, liat di sini, cuma ini yang bisa gw kerjain, abisnya sempetnya segini doang! Enjoy deh!"

Akhirnya gw punya waktu juga sedikit buat update blog gw ini. Berasa banget. bener2 ga ada waktu. Udah Lebaran gw masuk stengah hari, solat Ied di mesjid yang minta ampun kecilnya *perempuan dalam Islam tetep aja ngerasain yang namanya diskriminasi, tempat ce solat kecilnya minta ampun*, trus terpaksa makan masakan Jepang *lebaran tuh ndoey?* krn kt ga sempet nyiapin makan buat paginya, tapi tetep had fun karena kami di sini undang temen2 bule kami buat ngerayain lebaran sama2. Walhasil dengan berbekal bumbu masak bungkusan model indofood, masaklah gw sekenanya. Ternyata fun juga loh! Yah, dari pada gak kan, yang penting bisa ngerasaain maknanya walau jauh dari keluarga.

Basi ah kalo cerita soal lebaran, telat banget gw. yang jelas gw tetep utang Minal Aidzin Wal Faidzin ma seluruh temen2 tercinta gw, mohon maap kalo ada salah2 kata yah, yang gw sengaja ataupun gak. Trus as always, gw minta doa deh selama gw di sini.. dah mo mati nih kangen ma jakarta.

Minggu lalu gw ma 2 temen gw Taury dan Rio ngabisin waktu seharian di Dreamworld. Mak, bagus banget. Modelnya kayak Dufan, tapi permainannya gila2. Thrilling abis deh. Trus banyak show binatangnya, dari mulai Macan *yang mana ternyata macan sumatera juga*, buaya *amit2 gedenya tuh buaya*, sampe kangguru dan koala *liat fotonya deh, cute nya gw ma koala gak jauh beda deh.. *. Pokoknya seru banget, emang rada mahal abisnya sekali jalan, naik kereta sejaman deh, trus bis dari stasiun. tapi gak rugi banget keluar duit, pokoknya kalo ada yang sampe ke Ostrali, gw rekomendasiin deh The Dreamworld, terutama permainan Wipe Out, Tower of Teror, dan Giant Drop *liat foto nya-red*. Pokoknya seru deh!

Trus gw mo ceita banyak lagi, tapi waktunya sempit banget, Gw mesti balik, ini aja udah ditinggal ma temen2 gw. Walhasil jalan pulang sendirian deh. Cuma emang ada sedikit kabar buruk *kayaknya cuma buat si Alfa doang deh!*. seminggu yang lalu trainer *itu tu.. si murtad!*gw tanya ma temen gw, "gimana kalo stay kalian diperpanjang ampe 6 bulan?" Buset, stress banget gw dengernya. gw mo pulang, dah gak betah, gatel2 gw di sini, kangen ma pacar terus, gak kuat. pengen pulang. makanya kalian raising fund dong buat gw, cuma 50 juta doang kok, buat bayar penalty kalo gw mo hengkang dari kontrak. Ayo dong, bantuin gw, sumbang berapa2 kek lu, besar kecil tetep gw hargai kok!kalo ga, yah, bikin konser cari dana gitu, apa aja deh, yang penting kekumpul 50 juta buat gw pulang. mau kan?? Alfa .. gw mo pulang!!!

2003-11-13T00:08:00.000-08:00

Am feeling so blue..
What the hell am I supposed to do..

...
just hold me tight..
and let me cry through the night..

2003-11-05T23:35:00.000-08:00

Mo Pulang!!

Buset.. lama banget yah gw gak posting? Pada nungguin ya? *percaya diri banget lu ndoey!* bukan begitu.. tapi emang training gw di sini makan ati banget. Banyak banget PR nya, seakan gw balik lagi ke jaman gw masih kuliah di tingkat satu an *lah, kan elu emang punya status masih kuliah ndoey?* Tiap hari kayaknya gw belajar hal baru, dari mulai ngulang materi bahasa Inggris, belajar system teknologinya, sampe yang belajar slang dan kultur sini *emang ada?* Capek deh, kayaknya gw itu cuma nungguin yang namanya weekend, lumayan gak ketemu si MURTAD, paling gak gw ngaso dikit deh, walaw tetep aja gw mesti ngutak ngatik buku ma module buat ngerjain PR. *biasanya sih gw kerjain minggu malem pulang jalan2, kalo ga sempet, bilang aja PR nya ketinggalan, selasa nya baru di bawa, emang goblok si MURTAD yang begituan dipercaya ;p.*

Bener deh kata orang dulu waktu gw baru mo berangkat ke sini, kalo ostralian itu emang banyak yang rasis. belum tiga minggu gw di sini gw dah ngalamin 4kali yang namanya pelecehan rasis hanya karena gw orang asia. bukan cuma orang indo, tapi emang yg mukanya rada oriental deh. Dari mulai yang diteriakin di pinggir jalan sama pengemudi mabok *biasanya anak muda berandalan*, sampe yg disuruh pulang. Baru aja kemaren sore pas pulang kerja gw ngerasain lagi. Di sini kan pengemudi mobil kebanyakan disiplin banget, termasuk pedestarian, kalo mo nyebrang jalan mesti mencet tombol dulu di tiang lampu merah, terus kalo ada signal baru boleh nyebrang, gak peduli sekalipun jalanan kosong ataw macet. Gw lagi nunggu nyebrang bareng temen2 training gw yang semuanya Indonesian ya kan flat kita semua 1 kompleks, cuma ada satu bule barengan kita, Chris, yg jg pegawai sini. Terus tau2 ada dua bule nyerobot ke depan. Ya kita sih cuek aja. Kita orang sih asyik aja becanda ketawa ketiwi sambil nunggu signal. Terus salah satu dari mereka balik badan, buka sunglasses nya, looked me straight in the eyes, terus bilang..

"Guess what, *wink wink* I understand every word u said!"
balik badan lagi setelah nyengir serem banget.. terus.. dia balik badan lagi setelah semenitan dan..
"And guess again, *wink wink* I don't care!!!* sambil teriak keras2
"Go Home!!!!"

walah, dia mo gantiin penalty kalo gw ampe pulang sekarang? gw kan terikat kontrak ma kantor gw.. Gw sendiri cuma bisa bengong dan pura2 gak denger, bodo amat, tampang nya uneducated gitu sih, males banget ngeladeninnya.

Kalo weekend gw sering jalan ke South Bank, deket situ ada yang namanya Eagle Pear Harbour. Kalo malem bagus banget. Pinggir sungai Brisbane, emang sih ga bersih2 amat, tetep aja terpolusi, tapi paling gak bagus banget dan gak ada baunya. Indah banget deh, gw sih seringnya ke pinggir Brisbane Botanical Garden pas pinggir sungai, *suka di buat dating point tuh!* sama temen gw si Radi. Bagus banget. nongkrong aja di situ sambil ngobrol. Paling gw sambil dengerin Mp3 di player hasil rampasan dari Ijal *maap nih bang!*

Puasa gw berantakan abis di sini. Gila, panas sih panas, tapi di kelas AC nya gila2 an. tangan gw ampe kaku susah banget buat ngetik. Keluar panas banget, walaw tetep aja anginnya dingin banget. Krn skg masih dingin padahal udah masuk summer dari spring, katanya nanti pertengahan summer panas nya bisa gila2 an. sekitar 40 derajat gitu deh. *sunblock everybody!* Nah, karena dingin itu udaranya jadi kering banget. Tenggorokan sakit. Apalagi suara gw yang ilang sejak gw mentas kemaren ampe skg blum balik juga, tambah dingin gw ga sembuh2. Gw coba puasa walhasil gw gak bisa ngomong properly, padahal kan gw mesti terima telpon. Terpaksa puasa gw postpone dulu ampe nanti balik ke jkt. Insya Allah.

Weekend lalu gw ketemu Irene. Manis banget tu anak, walhasil gw ditraktir minum di kedai kopi di City. makasih yah mak, sayangnya dia malah mo pindah ke Sydney, udah pindah malah sabtu kemaren. Good luck yah mak! See ya next month kalo lu ke sini lagi!

Hihi.. cerita soal si MURTAD ah, dia emang ganteng, nanti kapan2 *baca kalo ada yg mo ditumpangin hostingan* gw posting deh potonya, ternyata dia itu... GAY! mwaahauhua.. temen sekamar gw ampe patah hati gak ketulungan, karena ternyata selama ini dia naksir beneran sama si om muda ini. Padahal usahanya udah mulai kenceng tuh, setiap di kelas, selalu aja ni anak ngajak ngobrol si om ini. Kesian yah!

paan lagi yah? Udah kebanyakan sebenernya, tapi kapan lagi gw bisa posting begini, soalnya kalo mo pake kompie mesti jam kerja, ini aja gw dah ditinggal pulang ma temen2 gw. umm.. Gw mau ga mau ngurangin banget yang namanya rokok. *pas banget tuh Fa, lu kan emang maunya begitu.* Kemaren waktu temen gw yang dulunya sakit sampe harus ditunda keberangktannya ke sini dateng, gw minta titip sampurna menthol se slop, sekarang tinggal bbrp bungkus doang. Gw iseng2 cari tu rokok di Valley, eh ada! cek harganya.. buset.. AUS $10.20 se pak nya. Kalo dirupiahin kan ampir 60ribu. Percaya gw gw ma Za yang bilang malboro kalo dirupiahin di inggris bisa 70ribuan. Bisa mampus gw. Sedang roko lainnya yang rasanya mirip malboro ya sekitar $9.00an. Tetep aja makan ati belinya. Warnet apalagi. Kangennya gw pengen ceting. Palagi dulu gw sering banget ceting ma Alfa dan Ucupz, sekarang boro2, mo keliling blog aja ga sempet. Makanya mohon maap kalo gw jarang ninggalin jejak. Waktunya ga ada. Di kantor cuma bisa browsing, itu juga banyak yg di banned. Contohnya gw cuma mo buka comment boardnya Erly gak bisa, di banned. Padahalkan biasanya komen2nya menarik. Cara yang terbaik ya ke warnet, tapi mak, sejamannya paling gak keluar $4.00an. bisa brapa jam tuh di jkt? Gak kuat gw. Walhasil kangen terus deh ma Alfa, kesiksa banget kalo inget susah nya kita komunikasi. Spt dia bilang dulu di blognya, dasar hub kita ya komunikasi, jadi kalo tiba2 macet, berasa banget ada gangguan. Walhasil duit gw kepake buat beli pulsa mulu. belom tiga minggu gw udah abisin 3 voucher pulsa, dan 2 calling card. Tolol banget yah, mana bisa gw ngumpulin duit kalo gitu.. tapi gw kangen.. yah ma mak gw, ma babe gw, ma adek2 gw.. ma Alfa.. susah deh.

Ngomong2 soal Alfa, dia baru aja keterima buat training di Garuda Call Centre. Sesuai deh ma background pendidikannya. Kalo lulus training, probation 3 bulan di garuda, kalo lulus baru keterima kerja. Best of luck for u yah babe, moga2 lancar trainingya. Biar kita berdua sama2 lagi training, dan begitu kelar training, kita berdua sama2 kerja di call centre *sumpah norak banget!* Gw kangen banget sama lu. Kita sama2 ngedoain yah, moga2 kita berdua bisa lancar di training kita. Amin. Gw gak sabar pengen pulang dan ketemu elu Pi!

Udah ah.. capek.. pulang dulu yah! Sampe flat berenang gak yah? Gak ah.. dingin!! Dahhh!!

2003-10-21T19:57:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!

Hey.. Here I am in Brisbane already. It's summer here, pretty hot during the day. Terik, tapi windy banget. Macam puncak deh, kalo siang terik, tapi udaranya tetep dingin. Hari pertama sampe sini gw sempet had trouble, soalnya gw ko jadi ga tahan dingin, mungkin karena badan gw capek banget dan kurang tidur.

Sampe sini sekitar jam 6 pagi, tapi matahari udah tinggi walau dinggin ma ujan gerimis. Seharusnya kami dapet istirahat seharian sebelum mulai ytraining the next day, tapi karena hari itu akan ada kunjungan dari Parlemen DRPD Jawa Tengah, terpaksa kami harus masuk dan pura2 udah mulai training. Pura2 ada aktifitas, padahal begitu kunjungan selesai kami dikasih pulang. Sukur deh, tidur juga akhirnya gw.

Banyak banget orang kita di sini, emang sih ga sebanyak Sydney yang modelnya kayak kloning kota jakarta, tapi banyak bulenya. Tapi lumayan lah, banyak denger bahasa Indonesia sekali2. Makan yang susah, makkk.. semuanya mahal banget. Ga ada yang dibawah 5 dollaran. Padahal kan gw di sini mo cari duit, bukan mo buang2 duit. Walhasil, gw ditunjuk sebagai tukan masak buat gelombang gw. Belanja di China Town, urunan duit buat belanja seminggu, trus dimasak buat makan malem dan sisanya diangetin buat makan siang the next day nya. lumayan lah, saving beberapa dollar seminggunya.

Apartemen gw enak banget. Fully furnished, jadi dah lengkap. Yah, kesampean juga tinggal di apartemen bagus, maklum, gak kuat nyewa sekamar di jakarta, di sini kan gw dibayarin. heuheuhe..
Instructur gw di sini ganteng banget. Namanya P. Murtagh, temen2 gw di sini julukin dia si MURTAD, abis namanya mirip banget. Tini, salah satu anggota kelompok kami udah siap2 nyerbu, abis selain ganteng, umurnya baru 29 taun pula. Karena anggota kelompok gw cuma 2 ceweknya, dan satu orang lagi baru bakal nyusul minggu depan, kami berdua lah yang jadi tukang urus2 anggota lainnya. Emang gaptek semuanya kali ye, pake ini itu masih banyak nanya dan coba2.

Beli no SIM card sini, 30 dollar, lumayan, bisa buat sms an, abis mentari gak kaya simpati yang bisa dipake di sini. Sinyal aja gak dapet sama sekali. Bisa lah sms Alfa sekali2, kangen sih. Telpon ke rumah sebentar, ngomong ma bokap nyokap gw yang katanya kangen ma gw. Bokap gw ampe nangis lagi di telepon, mikirin gw terus katanya. Tenang Pah, Ndoey baik2 aja kok di sini.

Dapet mail dari Alfa, katanya Teater gw juara 1 GKJ Award yang kemaren itu. Seneng banget. Dirayain dengan manggung di Jogja, sial, gw ga ikutan lagi. Abis deh bagian gw.. *buset, perhitungan banget lu ndoey! Seneng banget, soalnya kami latihan emang kayak kuda, maklum, semuanya serba dadakan.

Gw kangen banget sama Alfa, moga2 dia di sana tetep mikirin gw, soalnya gw mikirin dia terus. *ampun deh!

2003-10-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

Just would like to thank Alfa, Udhien, Ako, Maryn, Ucup yang pendiam, dan Dody Nasgorkam yg udah nyempetin nonton pertunjukan teater gw ma ciphie. Also thanks for everybody who sent us their luck. thanks guys! Btw, ampir gw lupa... UDHIENNNN... gw butuh suplemen!!

2003-10-14T05:52:00.000-07:00

What is it with me and the oldies?

About a week ago I went to my new office in Pondok Indah to fill the Visa Application and briefing for our leave to Brisbane. There I met new nice friends and off course, my boss. After that, my friends and I went to have the medical check up at MMC Hospital. Then, lunch all together. When I got home my mom told me that someone from my new office gave me a call. Checked my cell phone, had 3 misscalls from a new number.

The next day, I was in the bath room when the phone rang. Mom picked it up and told me that someone from my office called again. A bit weird actually, the office always called to my cell phone, never really to my home. Picked it up and guess who was it? My new boss. Confused? Yes, coz usually, his secretary was the one who makes the phone calls. He told me that he’s been trying to reach me thru my cell phone ever since yesterday. So, that was his number. Confirmed me again about my phone number and apologizing for not picking the phone up. Then he said that we would better talk over my cell phone. Asked him why, his answer was simply, “we can talk more personally over the cell phone”, loh?

It happened again. An old guy, enough to be my father, asked me out to have a dinner or something. Well, it might not be a problem if he wasn’t my new boss. He told me that he had so much fun interviewing me couple months ago, intended to ask me out that time but he’s been so busy to forget it. Yeah, I remember, he interviewed me for over than 2.5 hours. Talked more about personal stuff rather than job. He said that he liked talking to me so he wanted to have some more this time. I told him that I would love to, but I’ve been so busy with my drama rehearsals. Would be free after date 15. I didn’t want to go with him, still don’t want to. Alfa was a bit mad at me coz he said I should’ve never said I would no matter what. It’s not that I was ke GR an or what so ever, but come on, I don’t feel comfortable to go out with him. But it was such a dilemma since he’s my boss. I was trying to be nice to him but he might ask for more, rite?

Couple days ago he called me again to ask me if I could escape of my rehearsals. I said I couldn’t, even if I could, I wouldn’t want to go out with him. Too spooky! Then he asked me what time I would be off from my rehearsal that day. Told him about 10 to 11 pm. “what about after the rehearsal? I can pick u up from ur place” gee.. more spooky! That’s too late, wasn’t it? Before he asked me that question I was about to chance my mind, well, he probably just wanna have nice conversation or something. But by insisting to go out after the rehearsal, spooked me up! What do u think? Did he ask me out just because he liked talking to me or because he was attracted by me? I really don’t know.

What is it with me and those oldies? This guy has many pictures of his wife and children all over his desk! From the way he talks to his employees, I can tell that he’s a nice boss, I like him actually, and nice person to talk to, but he freaks me out! I don’t want to hate him after this. I like him, as a boss. This thing just keeps on happening to me from time to time. If u ever read my web blog, u might read about this kind of things before. Why do I always attract oldies? What is it with me? Why don’t I attract youngsters? I want the youngsters, not the oldies please.. He might call me again after the performance.. what am I going to do? What should I tell him? Should I go out with him? Should I bring a friend with? Should I tell him that I would bring a friend along? What am I going to do? Help me please..

2003-10-03T03:21:00.000-07:00

AM BACK

Am back Jakarta! Senengnya balik lagi ke rumah. Udah tiga hari sih gw balik ke rumah. Itu pun gw langsung sibuk mulai proses latihan teater yang bakal mentas tanggal 15 oktober ini. Waktu gw masih di Bali, Manatak, sutradara gw sms dengan manisnya bahwa proses latihan akan berlangsung selama 15 hari aja. Dia gila kali ya? Kadang gw ngerasa kalo teater gw itu pantesnya nyandang nama Teater Belagu. Abis gaya banget, seneng banget ama yang namanya dadakan, buru2, dll. Makanya, gw minta doa aja deh buat teater kami, biar bisa mentas dengan baik di Festival Teater Alternativ yang bakal digelar di Gedung Kesenian Jakarta, Pasar Baru ini. Moga2 aja bisa menang walaw dengan persiapan yang cukup gila2an. Rencananya pementasan akan dimulai tanggal 15 oktober jam 21.00 wib dengan durasi sekitar 47 menit. Tiketnya gak mahal2 banget, sekitar Rp. 15.000 sampai Rp. 20.000 per seat. Karena namanya juga udah gaya alternativ, maka gaya yang ditampilkan juga bukan seperti pementasan teater biasanya. Di sini kami lebih banyak bawain gerak dan tari dan sedikit dialog. Nah, berhubung sutradara gw juga model manusia yang udah gila, maka tema yang kami bawain kali ini juga gak jauh2 dari urusan ranjang atau selangkangan, yang sebenernya dengan sedikit mengerahkan otak, bias dari adegan2 itu bisa dilihat di kehidupan kita sehari2. aduh, udah deh, nonton aja! Nonton yah? Kalo ada yang mo beli tiket bisa hubungin gw atau Ciphie yah! Thanks!

Seneng banget gw di Bali. Cuma seminggu tapi pergi sama sahabat gw *again, Jal, thanks!*, ketemu temen2 baik gw *wia and Sandra, thanks for being great host!*, liat banyak hal, kenal banyak orang baru, pergi ke parties, banyak banget deh, dan yang paling penting, gw dapet sertifikat penyelesaian PKL dari hotel tempat gw training dulu *puas pi?*. Bali emang gak ada matinya!
Tapi ada satu hal, kali ini adalah untuk yang pertama kalinya gw ada di Bali dan pengen pulang. Rasanya ada tertinggal di Jakarta sampe gw kok distracted banget. Especially setelah gw tau kalo gw udah melanggar perjanjian, udah melanggar kepercayaan dengan seseorang yang artinya penting banget buat gw. Gw minum sebotol bir di sana. Mungkin kedengaran sangat remeh buat sebagian orang, tapi buat gw yang bener2 lagi nyoba untuk berenti dan gak minum lagi, penting banget. Temen2 di sekitar gw saat itu mungkin gak notice, kalo gw ngerasa bersalah, tau lah, gw kan kadang2 emang pain in the ass, gak mau ketauan kalo gw buat salah dan gw sadar kalo gw emang salah. Tapi saat gw sendirian gw mulai ketakutan dan malu banget ma diri gw sendiri. I’m a fake sometimes! Sigh.. Sedarinya gw mau simpen semuanya sendiri, gw gak mau ngaku salah, toh dia udah percaya gw, tapi kok sampe di Jakarta, gak bisa yah? Tetep aja gw ngaku kalo gw buat salah. Terima deh ceramah2 panjang dan disappointed look upon his face. Am so sorry pi, I let u down again this time, am working on it; it’s hard, but am trying. Don’t give up on me!

Selama di Bali gw ngerasa kangen banget sama Alfa, aneh banget sih, having fun with my friends but all I could think of was him. *but didn’t stop u to break the deal Ndoey! Yeah, am only human, again, sorry, okey?* sepertinya ada bagian dari diri gw yang ilang dan gak pada tempat seharusnya. *gruk gruk* kok gw jadi sok romatis begini yah? Tapi emang kangen itu ganggu bgt. Perasaan gw jadi sering kacau dan gw pengen pulang. Pertama kali dalam hidup gw, berada di Bali dan gw pengen pulang. Besar banget yah pengaruh yang dibuat seseorang terhadap diri kita, disengaja ataupun ga.

Senengnya waktu akhirnya gw ketemu. Bukan gw bilang gw gak seneng di Bali, gw seneng banget. Tapi ketemu Alfa juga bikin gw seneng banget. Hehe, rekor kami, seminggu penuh gak ketemu sama sekali. Biasanya sih sering banget ketemu, maklum, masih blum dapet kerja. Baru dua hari gw di rumah, ternyata ada kabar baru dari kantor gw yang baru. Kalo gw harus medical check up dan isi form aplikasi visa sekaligus briefing di kantor baru kami di Pondok Indah. Lah, ada apa ini? Datanglah gw pagi itu diantar Alfa *lagi? Gak bosen lu Ndoey? Gak tuh!*. Di sana gw dapet kabar kalo schedule pemberangkatan gw udah keluar. Sesuai jadwal, semoga gak ada masalah dari kedutaan, kami akan diberangkatkan tanggal 18 oktober ini. Dadakan banget sih bilangnya? Gak tau deh, yang jelas bagitu sesuai jadwal. Seneng? Seneng banget! Soalnya kan gw udah kelamaan nganggur, status sih karyawan, tapi kerja blum dimulai juga, stress nih! Nah, kali ini gw akan berangkat untuk job training trus pulang balik ke Jakarta untuk langsung nempatin kantor cabang Pondok Indah. Tapi kok, suddenly jadi terrifying yah? Tiga bulan. Tiga bulan gw akan jauh dari orang2 yang gw sayang. Dari sahabat2 gw, dari keluarga gw, dari co gw… kerasa, seminggu kemaren aja gw udah sakaw banget pengen ketemu apalagi ini yang tiga bulan? Mo telepon mahal pula. Waks! Ya itu yang namanya hidup. Am expecting colorful life, expecting many things in my life. And this is a great chance for me to explore life more, have more experiences, meet new friends, and improve more skills and so on. Beside, it’s only going to be 3 months! We’ll survive *kalimat penghiburan diri banget ga sih?*. So, as long as u have faith in me, as long as we love each other, nothing bad is going to happen with us, just wish me luck babe, and I’ll think of u along the time! Wish me luck guys! Hwaaa… Alfa, ikut yuk..!! *lah?*

2003-09-26T02:12:00.000-07:00

Long Distance Relationship?

Do u believe in Long Distance Relationship? Does it work? Many things came a cross my mind. Couple days ago a friend of mine and I had this conversation about LDR. He doesn't believe in one and I can say very clearly that I do believe in LDR. I've got so many examples around me. Yeah, some worked some didn't.

"nope, I don't believe in LDR, it doesn't work!"
"hey, it does work! Some friends of mine can still love each other no matter how far they are."
"maybe, but it's going to be so hard to be done, it's easy for u to say, coz u're not having one!"
"I may not having now, but I am expecting so many things in my life and I guess if someday there's a great opportunity for me to have a job or whatever it will be, far away from my love one, I might take it."
"u just take it? Not even considering about how ur love one feels?"
"no silly! I would have to put so many thoughts about it. But if it's really worthy and seemed like a chance in a life time, why not? A great chance only knocks on ur door once, u know, unless if God loves u so much!"
"I don't know, if my girlfriend suddenly had that kind of chance, I wouldn't know if we could continue having the relationship."
"why? Don't u want something great happens to ur love one? If by taking that chance she would have better chance in her carrier, great experiences and would do something better for her life, why not? Don't u love her? I believe if u love someone so much u wouldn't be so selfish ha? What if she really wanted that? What if u're the one who had the chance? Don't u want something good for ur life?"
"I know, chances like that might come to my life. I wouldn't know what to do about that. U see, I want to have communication as the base of my every relationship, how can we work on that if we live far apart?"
"yeah, come on, technology can do that! It's not like we're living in the old ages or something. There's internet, phone calls, sms, so many things! U can work on that!"
"but the meet is important too. I believe in the quality of every meeting we have, but the quantity of the meeting is also important."
"sure, it's hard to work on the quantity but think about the meet after long time no see, u would miss her so much so whenever u met her the quantity of the meeting would be so great, don't u think so?"
"yeah, that's true, but I don't know."
"is this the matter of trust? Don't u trust ur love one? Or maybe, u don't trust ur self about it? Trusting each other is really important."
"it's hard to tell ndoey, I do trust my girlfriend, but somehow, it wouldn't work on me!"
"u know what, love works in a very miraculous way, a very weird way. When u love someone so much u would want to do anything to make her happy. Beside, having a LDR might be one perfect way to test both of ur feelings for each other. If it turned out to be working, then u would know that ur relationship was strong, and if it wasn't, then u would know that u're wasting ur time!"
"yeah, but better to prevent then to cure, right?"
"sure, it's more like placing a bet in gambling, but for me, better to know the truth even if it hurts! It's so worthy."
"maybe."
"u know, distance separates bodies, not hearts, that's for sure."
"I don't know, maybe. So far, that's how I feel about LDR. It hasn't happened to me yet, but if it happens, I still don't know what to do."
"yeah, maybe.."
...

Then I had to go. So, it got me thinking, does LDR really work, or not? Does it?

Anyway, finally am here back in Bali again! Ijal, my best friend, gave me an offer I couldn't refuse.*ndoey, u were whining like hell, that's why!* Jakarta-Bali Bali-Jakarta. Pure vacation! Ya sekalian juga sih ngurus surat PKL gw di hotel tempat gw PKL dulu di Ubud. Seneng banget yah punya sahabat baik kaya Ijal ini, di mana lagi lu bisa nemuin orang model dia. *Thanks a lot Jal, it meant a lot to me!* For a week only but so many things to see, so many parties to attend *I heard u Fa, no more drinking, just partying, that's all!*.

While am here, so hard to keep my thoughts away from my friends back in Jakarta and other cities. So many nice friends that I wish I could spend the wonderful days here in Bali with. Wish u guys could be here, it rocks! Also, wish that Alfa could be here with me now, but he's so busy looking for a job back in Jakarta. Like u said, maybe in our honeymoon someday *siapa yg mo kawin ndoey? ;p* So from far away here, am saying a pray wishing that the moment comes to him. Good luck ya Pi, sending u all my luck from here! Miss u like hell here, but no worries mate, we'll see each other again very shortly! Wait for me!

2003-09-16T00:42:00.000-07:00

PMS ya Pak?

Hola! Mengucapkan selamat sukses buat Za yang mo nerusin studi psikologinya di Inggris. Ati2 ya bu, jangan lupa kalo ketemu co2 ganteng di sana, kabarin mereka kalo banyak cewek cantik di sini yang nganggur. Jangan lupa oleh2 kalo nanti pulang, wokeh?

Kira2 seminggu yg lalu gw dipanggil interview yang applicationnya gw kirim iseng2 menghormati temen gw Dody Babiku yang udah baik banget ngasih gw info. Datenglah gw ke Gedung Bimantara di Kebon Sirih, Mobile 8 Telecom nama perusahannya, dengan dianter C4ble 6uy temen baik gw *makasih Jal!*. Buat posisi costumer service katanya. Datanglah bagian gw untuk interview. Sialnya hal yang gak gw sangka terjadi. Gak tau si bapak yang interview gw itu lagi PMS atau gimana, yang jelas sikapnya ngeselin banget. Nanya2 gw dengan arogannya, pake bahasa inggris. Pengen ketawa sebenernya, karena inggris si bapak ini ternyata banyak yang ngaco. Gw sebagai penggemar gramer rasanya pengen banget ngambil kertas ma pulpen trus nerangin ma dia gimana seharusnya bikin kalimat berikut pronunciation yang bener. Emang sih, gw tau, inggris gw juga ga bagus, tapi gatel kalo liat orang yang mestinya jago tapi ternyata dudul. Setelah gw jawab, dia balik baca cv gw, trus nanyain hal yang paling sensi buat gw. Dia nanya soal kuliah gw yang blum kelar. Complain, malah bawa2 qualification list yang nunjukin gelar S1 buat pelamar. Lah, gw kan ga pernah boong, dari pertama gw tulis cv gw juga dah gw jelasin kalo gw masih skripsi *skripsi yang mana Ndoey?*. Kalo mang ga sesuai dgn qualifikasinya kenapa gw dipanggil buat interview? lah.. tau2 dia ngancem, kalo gw gak diterima gara2 blum punya nya gw ijasah gimana. Ya udah, berhubung dia nanyanya udah ga enak, gw jawab aja dengan kalemnya, kalo ga diterima ya gpp. Kalo emang gw gak sesuai dgn qualifikasi yang ada ya gpp. Ko kliatannya malah nambah arogan aja ni orang. Gak ngerti deh kenapa. Nanya pake gaya bluff gitu. Akhirnya gw kesel, gw jawab aja..

“sebenernya saya udah diterima kerja pak, di Quantum,, bapak pernah denger?”
“Wah, di Quantum yah?” kaget dia.
“iya pak, sekarang sih lagi tunggu job trainingnya aja, di luar negeri lo pak trainingnya”
“iya, saya tau, lah kalo gitu ngapain kamu ngelamar di sini?” tampang begoknya mulai nongol.
“iseng aja pak, nambahin pengalaman interview. Okeh pak, terima kasih. Selamat siang.”

Langsung aja gw ajak salaman trus gw jalan lenggang keluar. Ih, abis dia sombong banget sih. Jadi jahat deh gw. Baru sekali gw nemu interviewer yang model gini, pengen banget di getok pake high heels yg gw pake, huh!

Pulangnya gw kenalan ma 3 orang co yang juga abis interview. Sigit, Andri dan pak Adi *bukan bokap gw!* Karena deket gondangdia, kami mutusin untuk naik kereta, pengalaman pertama naik kereta dalam kota. Nunggu kereta di stasiun ternyata orang2nya asyik banget. Sampe kita lupa ngelewatin beberapa kereta yang udah lewat. Saking enaknya ngobrol, timbulah ide gila kami buat ngabisin hari di rumah Andri di Bogor. Beli tiket lagi lah kami, berangkatlah kami ke Bogor, kecuali Pak Adi yang mesti pulang. Seharian di Ciapus Bogor bareng orang2 yang baru gw kenal, co semua pula, gila kah gw? Kayaknya emang sedikit gila yah, untung aja orangnya baik2 semua, kalo gak, mampus gw. Emang gw ini suka bikin rush decision yang gak gak. Perlu dilatih kali ye! Pulang ke rumah naik kereta lagi. Bareng Sigit yang tinggal di Depok. Turun di Depok, gw puny ide lagi buat ngunjungun mantan anak Blogbugs yang jaga warnet di Margonda, Aziz. Telepon dia, trus nyusul ke warnet nya. Niat mau ol murah mumpung di Depok malah gak jadi karena ternyata mati lampu. Sial. Ternyata ngobrol ma Aziz ini seru juga, makasih ya Ziz! Nice to finally meet u!

Pulang ke rumah terpaksa boong. Karena pergi seharian lebih dari 12 jam dgn interview yg gak menghasilkan, gw terpaksa boong kalo gw dah ikut 3 kali interview trus disuru tunggu kabar. Gw certain kejadian interview dgn bapak PMS itu sbg interview ketiga. Hihi.. percaya aja ya nyokap gw. "Maap mah! Ampun!"

Nyesel *lagi* gak bisa ikutan farewell partynya Za, abis lagi kebanyakan keluar gara2 kegiatan teater. Untung masih bisa mampir ke rumahnya bareng Ciphie dgn dalih mo say good bye, padahal mo makan karena lapar seharian di bulungan. Makasih bu dermanya!

Gak ngerti, sekarang sering banget ya mati lampu? tapi ko matinya pas Alfa dateng ke rumah mulu. 2 minggu lalu waktu Alfa ke rumah subuh2 keadaanya mati lampu. trus senin ini waktu Alfa mampir juga pas mati lampu. lucu juga sih, di kamar gw diterangin nyala sebatang lilin ko kesannya jadi romantis banget. Hihi.. lumayan, gak usah candlelight dinner. Semalem itu pas banget lilin di rumah gw abis, dan semua males beli lilin ke warung deket rumah. Lilin yang gw pake buat kamar gw kan lama2 abis. Pas tu lilin abis, sambil asyiknya ngobrol, tau2 nyokap gw nongol bak hansip nyorotin lampu senter ke muka kami berdua. “hayo lagi ngapain?” kata nyokap gw yang gak tau pake masang ekspresi puas di muka nya. Ih, berasa mo ditangkep kawin ma hansip kampung. Trus dengan manis nya bilang.. “wah Alfa, kamu sengaja ya, kalo dateng ke sini pas mati lampu mulu?” mwahaha.. Alfa dengan muka merahnya cuma bisa nyengir. Sabar ya Mpi! Lah, mati lampu kan bukan kami sengaja, emang dari PLN nya, walaw bisa dibilang jadi berkah buat kami berdua.. hihi.. romantis dipaksain kali ye! Makasih PLN!! Kekhkekhkekhkekh..

2003-09-09T04:38:00.000-07:00

Posting lagi ahhh..

Since no body stood by my side about the bald thing, I made a decision to call it off. Hey, am not letting anyone interfere with my decision, but thinking that u guys are right, however, performance is as much as important as being comfort. Yeah, I guess am stucked with hair band everywhere I go then. Thanks anyway guys!

Buset, dah lama banget yah gw gak posting? Emang lagi kere, jadi gak pernah online, emang sih, warnet langganan kesayangan gw biar boleh ngutang tetep aja gw malu kalo kebanyakan utang. Karena udah kelamaan sakaw online gw paksaain juga muncul di situ dengan label utang lima belas ribu perak. "Sabar ya Ko Rudy, ntaran lagi gw bayar! Lu tau rumah gw kan, kalo ga sabar samperin aja ke rumah, ntar gw tuker ma Lohan.. Hihihi…"

Weekend ini acara gw penuh ma urusan billiard. Ga tau, ada aja yang ngajak. Setelah pacar pulang ngapel sabtu malem, gw ma temen gw langsung nyamber undangan Mas Win, temennya temen gw itu, nyusul ke JC Satria Mandala. Sebenernya gw pengen banget ikutan acaranya Blogbugs di Bale Aer, emang dah siap jalan ko, Ciphie juga dah telp gw buat titip film buat foto2, tapi ternyata ujan turun lumayan deres, males deh akhirnya. Pas ujan reda dan kami siap berangkat, eh, ciphie sms bilang anak2 pindah ke Hanggar, Alfa langsung pasang muka tersiksa setengah memelas. Dia kan paling gak demen hang out di tempat billiard, gak tahan asap rokok katanya. Tapi emang cinta kali ye, mau juga dia akhirnya, padahal gw bilang gak ke sana juga ga papa. Mungkin karena tu anak emang juga perhitungan, dia bilang jalan aja soalnya sayang ma make up yang udah gw pake. Ga taunya acaranya pindah lagi, kali ini sms bilang acara pindah ke PS, males lah gw akhirnya, jauh banget dari rumah gw. Sayang banget sih sebenernya, gw dah janji ma Dipa mo ambil cd Mp3 yg mo dipinjemin ke gw. Sialnya, malemnya dia telp kalo cd itu akhirnya ilang di jalan, jatuh mungkin. Susah deh, emang gak jodoh kali ye? Padahal file nya langka banget tuh. Dari JC kami terus ke Jimbani, niatnya mo denger live music, taunya sepi banget, nyesel, kenapa gw gak ke Barbados aja yg diliat dari parkirannya rame bgt. Naik taxi sih, jadi repot bolak balik.

Minggu dan senin gw ma temen2 gw juga ke Hanggar, main bareng ampe tengah malem. Gratisan tuh. Lumayan. Temen gw si C4ble 6uy itu emang baik banget, ngasih oleh2 bandeng presto dari semarang, ngirimin gw pulsa buat hadiah ulang taun, trus ngajak billiard dua hari berturut2. Makasih ya Jal, ntar kalo gw dah mulai kerja, gantian deh gw yg traktir. Makanya doain aja yah! Ngomongin soal billiard, gw kok ga bisa2 yah? Perasaan sering main tapi tetep aja gak bisa jago model Ciphie ma Za yg kemampuannya di atas rata2. Kalo mukul sih kena bolanya, tapi jarang sesuai keinginan. Sampe2 setiap bola tinggal dikit dan kali itu bagian gw mukul, Rudi dan Egie yang selalu jadi lawan gw selalu bilang sambil nyengir gak pake dosa.. “untung Ndoey yg mukul!” Huh, mesti banyak belajar kali ye, makanya, kalo ada yg iseng mau main, sini, gw temenin!

Pernah gak sih ada yang ngapel atau ngapelin dari mulai jam stengah lima subuh? Iseng2 gw nantangin Alfa ngapelin gw jam 5 subuh, cuma iseng aja sih, taunya dia beneran nongol, stengah jam lebih awal pula. Buset, tidur aja belom gw. Yg ada sekitar tengah hari gw tinggal tidur dia, gak kuat, ngantuk bgt. Walhasil dapatlah dia kehormatan besar denger suara ngorok gw yg menurut nyokap gw kedengeran ampe dapur *merdu gak Mpi?*. tidurnya sih gak lama, cuma sejam stengah, tapi katanya sih berisik banget. Bodo! Ntar, kalo gw dah brenti ngeroko dan mulai rajin jogging, trus insomnia gw dah sembuh, moga2 aja tu ngorok juga ikutan ilang. Kalo mo baca cerita lengkapnya liat aja deh di sini. Yang pasti ini baru kali ini gw alamin. Dari jam stengah 5 subuh ampe stengah 10 malem. Pasti pada nanya.. “ngapain aja tuh Ndoey?” umm, ngapain yah..?? “Ada deeehh..!” eheiehihei..

Btw, gw ko kangen banget yah ma Aee, Vanya dan Cassie? Ke mana aja sih lu pada? Atau gw nya yg ke mana aja? Gak tau deh, yang jelas, I miss u gals!

2003-08-29T03:10:00.000-07:00

Bald! Yes? No?

Some people say that a woman’s crown is her hair. Well, at least here in Indonesia. I’ve heard all about that ever since I was in middle school since so many people told me that a lot. U see, from the age 11 until about 18 years old I always had short hair cut, a boy’s hair cut and I liked it a lot. Actually, I still do like it. It felt so fresh, so energetic, so simple and so easy *right Ciph?*. I didn’t have to put a lot of care for my hair and all I had to do was just to comb them with my fingers and I was ready to do anything. Didn’t have to bring comb everywhere I went *actually I still never bring one till now*, didn’t have to bring any hair band *that I lost everywhere I go now since am so clumsy*, didn’t have to care a lot about latest hairstyle since mine was so simple, and so on. Bottom line, hair was never any subject of trouble at that time. But yes, so many people complained a lot. Especially my mom and my teachers. Some of my friends even referred me a boy back there, since I was so tomboy myself. I was really chubby that time *ehm.. still pretty chubby myself nowadays ;p* so I looked more like a walking balloon to my friends, at least that’s what they called me back then and that was how I got the name Ndoey. There was this teacher once; he was a history teacher back in high school kept on complaining and telling me all about “woman’s crown” in the classroom in front of everybody almost every time he was in my class. Maybe because I was more like a rebellion or something, it made me even more to debate him rather than doing what he asked me, then cut them even shorter. *Sorry Pak Yusrin.. btw, are u still alive?*

Now I have long hair style. Pretty troubling for sure, need extra care, hair band everywhere, and with the heat of Jakarta, all I can say is, God, please save me! Not just that, I cannot even call my hair healthy coz they’re not. All broken and I have grey hair all over that runs in the entire member of my family, and they keep on falling off everyday. Been thinking about cutting them off, but so many people said no. especially again, my mom. I have to admit it, no matter what, I look nicer when I have long hairstyle the way I have now, but the trouble, think about that! I like the way I look now. I realize that being comfort is important for me but performance is also an issue. Such a dilemma.

Just yesterday an idea just crossed my mind. How if I had a bald head? Then when I thought about that, I kinda liked the idea so much. Hey, the last time I was bald was when I was still a baby! The more I thought about that, the more I liked the idea. Then I talked about that with my mom and my boyfriend who happened to be sitting next to me. They all said NO! But I really like the idea and I want that so much. Look at the bright side, I will have no more trouble with my hair, I might have a better and healthier hair growing again, no need any comb for the next couple of months and all I need is a hat, and also, I might look interesting. Will I? Seriously guys, what do u think? Should I just go for it and skin it off or should I keep my long hairstyle? Seriously, what do u think? Help me out will ya!

2003-08-21T01:54:00.000-07:00

Gak ada Judul

Here I am again! Bahas apa ya sekarang? Selain kelakuan nyokap gw yang selalu ada2 aja, ga terlalu banyak yang terjadi dalam hidup gw seminggu ini. Would like to thank everybody who greet me happy birthday for the past week, thanks guys! Hope all the wishes will all come true, amen!

Apa lagi kelakuan nyokap gw belakangan ini? Gak banyak, tapi sempet bikin orang geleng2 kepala. Hampir tiap malam minggu pacar gw ngapel ke rumah, karena udah akrab sama seluruh keluarga, including my wacky mom, dia suka hang out sampe tengah malem *maaf tante mamanya Alfa, anaknya saya culik terus, bukannya saya yang maksa, tapi anaknya aja yang gak bisa tahan pesona saya, jadi dia gak mau pulang2 juga..;p*, biasanya selain ngobrol2, ketika semua anggota keluarga gw balik dari acaranya masing2, nyokap gw, adek2 gw, juga T, temen gw yang pernah gw ceritain dulu, Alfa dan gw suka main kartu bareng2. Yang kalah terus dicoret mukanya pake lipstik *itu sekalian menjelaskan kenapa pernah ada foto Alfa dan gw yang mirip badut*. Minggu lalu juga begitu, setelah Alfa pulang sekitar tengah malem nyokap gw dan T temen gw yang kebetulan nginep di rumah kok ketawa ketiwi terus. Gw tanya tapi mereka berdua gak mau jawab. Ya udah, karna ga mau jawab ya gw pasrah aja. Beberapa hari setelah itu, out of the blue, nyokap gw tanya ke gw..

“ka, tas yang dipake Alfa kemarin itu tas nya siapa?”
“Tas dia, kenapa ma?”
“Tas dia apa tas adeknya?”
“Tas dia kok, kenapa sih?”
“ohh, gak papa kok!” sumpah, saat itu gw bener2 ga ngerti kenapa beliau nanya begitu, tapi lagi2 gw ga ambil pusing.

Esok paginya, bangun dari tidur gw terus cek handphone gw, eh, ada sms, dari Alfa, isinya.. “ketika gw cek tas gw pagi ini, ternyata ada foto lo bareng mantan lo di tas gw, kebawa yah?” :o. Otak gw langsung conect, sikap aneh nyokap pas alfa pulang + pertanyaan aneh sebelumnya = mencurigakan. Karuan gw langsung bangun dan teriak, “MAMAAAAA!!!!!!!!! Mama masukin foto eka ke tas alfa ya??” nyokap gw langsung nyangkal, masang muka gak bersalah, kelihatan tersinggung dituduh begitu, tapi setengah mati nahan ketawa. Bener aja akhirnya beliau ngaku kalau beliau, T dan adek gw yang masukin foto itu ke tas Alfa waktu gw lagi di luar kamar bantu bersihin lipstik di muka alfa *sumpah, dari main kartu, bukan dari bibir gw ;p*

Setelah interogasi adek2 gw, juga T sebagai tersangka sekaligus saksi, diambil kesimpulan bahwa T dan Gode *adek gw* berlaku sebagai eksekutor kejahatan yaitu masukin tu foto itu ke dalem tas, Iyo *adek gw juga* bertugas sebagai pengintai aman tidaknya eksekusi dilakasanakan, dan seperti gw duga sebelumnya, otak kejahatan tidak lain dari nyokap gw sendiri. Huh! Konspirasi banget gak sih? Gw sendiri gak pernah tau apa sih motivasi nya, tapi yang jelas kalau yang kenal gimana nyokap gw itu pasti percaya kalo nyokap gw bisa jahil begitu *tanya ciphie deh*. Nyokap sendiri waktu gw tanya jawabnya cuma karena iseng, ih, simple banget, tapi jahil banget. Yang parah, foto itu bergambar mantan gw lagi cium pipi gw. Emang sih, alfa juga dah liat foto itu sebelumnya, tapi gak lucu kan kalo dia nemu foto itu di tas nya. Untung aja pas gw jelasin semuanya dia cuma nyengir doang. Udah mulai kenal ma kelakuan nyokap, jadi dia gak segitu kaget lagi. *sabar ya Fa!*

Selain itu apa lagi yah? Seperti gw bilang di atas, gak banyak. Gw masih kebat kebit nunggu konfirmasi keberangkatan gw buat job training dari kerjaan gw yang baru. Rencananya sih pertengahan sepetember, tapi gak tau deh kalo ada apa2. gw dah bosen nganggur, masak sih, status sih karyawan, tapi setiap hari masih nongkrong di rumah? Moga2 aja deh gak ada delay, gw dah gak sabar buat kerja, otak gw gak produktif kalo gw kelaman nganggur. Doain yah! Thanks!

Seneng banget weekend kemaren ketemuan ma anak2 di Bale Aer, ada Inna, Tamtam, Cassie, Blub, Ucup, Udjo, Za, Ciphie, dan beberapa anak dari channel caratikus. Juga Sonny gembel, tapi dia dah pulang duluan, kabarnya sih ngantuk abis begadang, hayo abis ngapain son? Gw sendiri dateng ma Alfa. Salah naik bis, turun di jalan yang menuju ke Tendean, trus nerusin naik taksi dari situ, eh, ternyata deket banget yah, jadi gak enak ma drivernya. Abis Alfa payah, mestinya kan dia ngerti jalan, soalnya kan dia Batak *hubungannya? Batak dan metro mini ada hubungannya gak? ;p joke say!*. Sayang banget gak banyak yang dateng, mungkin pada sibuk siapin fisik buat ikutan panjat pinang besoknya, padahal kan gw kangen banget.. Aee, vay, miss u gals so much! Seneng sih, apalagi minggu sebelumnya gw sempet ketemuan ma Panda, Itha, Tyaw, Ciphie, Sonny Gembel, juga temennya itha.

Semalem gw nonton teater di Bulungan, sama Ciphie, Alfa, dan temen2 teater gw yang lain. Adek2 teater gw yang main, dari Teater Apel *alumni SMU Hutama* dan Atela *alumni smu 3*. Ditengah2 break pergantian pertunjukan, tiba2 Alfa ngajakin gw ke rumahnya yang gak jauh dari bulungan untuk kenalan ma keluarganya. Glek, gak pede banget gw. Emang sih dia dah sering ngajak gw, tapi gw nya belum mau. Gak tau kenapa, gw itu termasuk orang yang punya pede berlebihan, tapi kalo ketemu ma orang tua pacar, gw cenderung nervous. Habis dipaksa2, gw mau juga setelah sebelumnya minta restu dari temen2 teater gw *kesannya mo perang banget lu ndoey!*, tapi di tengah jalan gw minta balik ke bulungan, untung aja ditenangin ma alfa, gw maju lagi. Bukan apa2, gw dah seharian di bulungan, tampang gw dah berantakan *berantakan loh, kalo cakep sih tetep*, gak pede aja rasanya. Ternyata penerimaan beliau2 baik sekali. Mama nya cantik banget, adek2 nya juga, seneng juga deh akhirnya kenal ma keluarga nya dia. *Makasih ‘mpi, love ya!*.

Udah ah, panjang banget postingan gw. Pay pay!!

2003-08-13T05:02:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Myself!!

That’s how I greet myself this morning when I just opened my eyes. Said a little pray to God, asking for blessing and thanking God for all the bless that God has given me all my life. Geez, am 25 years old now, what a number, a quarter of century. I’ve been thinking about all the things that I’ve done all my life, including all the bads and the wrongs. God, there were so many of them. Facing a new year of my life, trying to be a better person and delete all the bads I have inside of me. It’s going to be really hard but I have to make it somehow. For a start, quit drinking I mean really quit, including drought beer *wink to Panda, Ciphie, Dipa, and Vanya* and reducing cigarettes from now till really clean 7 months from now *really? Grin, yeah sure*

Then, I started to think about the bless that God has given me. Look at me now, with all the things I have, not trying to be arrogant just being grateful. Strict but loving parents *ehm, funky mom too I may say*, crazy brothers, the education that I have so far *inget skripsi lu Ndoey! Huh!*, terrific friends I have here and all around the world, my experiences I have with jobs I’ve done, my colorful life, and so many more. Something to celebrate.

Above all the things that God has given to me, God just sent me something so special as an early present for my birthday. Someone so nice and wonderful to be by my side. Someone who’s going to help me to be a better person. Not to change me, just to explore the good potentials I have inside of me. Sounds serious, well, maybe I am, thinking that am old enough to start thinking serious about my life, right? So grateful to God that He sent me this someone so gentle, caring, wonderful, understanding, supporting, and many more *have I float u up, babe?*, to guide me thru my life now. Well, no matter what will happen between us two in our life someday, something good will come out of me, creating me to be someone I will be someday. Everybody in my life always give something good in me, no matter who they are, were they in my past, present or in my future, give me the color of my life. Hey, other things to be grateful about, right?

Pretty funny thinking how we met. For this one, I thanked Udhien and the Blogbugs Community so much. Udhien introduced us about 8 months ago thru Y!M, didn’t talk a lot coz I was still busy working with my previous job. After I quit my job, I had more time to chat with him, since he was jobless too at that time. Found him as a very nice friend to talk to *bet not so many ppl agree with me on this hehe..*, so we started to talk over the phone and sent sms to each other about 4 months ago. Less than a month ago, we decided to meet personally. And after that, we found that we liked each other and our conversation in person was always fun. Met the other Blogbugs friends at Agus’s Gultik afterwards then spilt out. Went for movie couple days afterwards and found out that we were in love. So be it. Pretty crazy thinking that I just broke up with Bry *who’s turning out to be a really great friend now*, but it just happened. We both realized how connected we were, maybe coz we’ve been online friends and been sharing things that happened in our life for so long. But we realized something else, despite of how connected we were, we had a really big gap of differences between us *no wonder some friends didn’t believe us when we told them about this.. lirik Iqbal, Aee, Vanya, Apri*. Talked about that, and decided to give it a shot, try hard and try to understand each other. Completing each other. Nothing more to say than, wish us both luck guys! Thanks!

So many things to be grateful about, many things to face in the future. Wish me luck, wish me a happy birthday, wishing to have a glorious experiences no matter what will they be in the future. Thank you God, for everything, thank you guys, for the lovely friendship u give me all this time, thank u babe, for being by my side. HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY NDOEY!! Enjoy the day!

2003-08-10T03:23:00.000-07:00

Guess!!

Guess what are these?? hauhauhuahauha...

2003-08-07T04:01:00.000-07:00

PINOKIO?

Kenapa sih ibu-ibu itu suka salah omong? Hmm, lagi-lagi deh gw cerita soal nyokap gw disini. Memang gw sering banget notice mak gw yang sering salah nyebut sesuatu. Tapi baru aja gw tau kalo mak nya temen-temen gw juga ga jauh berbeda. Mungkin bawaan mak-mak kali ye? Maksudnya jelas, mo nyebut sesuatu nama, istilah atau yang lain sebagainya, tapi sering kali kata yang keluar dari mulutnya beda dengan yang dipikirkan, walau sedikit mirip dengan pelafalannya. Walhasil.. lucu! Berikut contoh-contoh percakapan yang kadang masih bikin gw sakit perut karna ketawa.

Nyokap gw ngobrol dengan salah satu tante gw yang lagi berkunjung, ngomongin soal handphone. Tante gw Tanya,
"Mbak, handphone nya si Gode *adek gw yang gede* mereknya apaan sih?”
"aduh, apaan yah mereknya? Kalo gak salah, itu.. PINOKIO!”
"ha.. ?" :o
karuan gw yang duduk gak jauh dari situ ngakak abis-abisan, karena gw ngerti banget kalo yang dimaksud nyokap gw itu ya NOKIA. Gak jauh-jauh amat sih, tapi, pengertiannya kan jadi jauh banget. Setelah ngerti maksud nyokap gw, tante gw ikutan ketawa.

Pernah sekali nyokap gw minta diajarin kirim sms, tapi beliau bilang ke gw, “ka, ajarin mama mencet-mencet es-es-em-es-es dong, mama kan mau sekali kali kirim iseng-iseng". FYI, nyokap gw itu gak demen yang pake teknologi tinggi, males belajarnya katanya. Tapi kalo soal perangkat rumah tangga, soal berkebun, soal reparasi peralatan rumah tangga termasuk perangkat listrik, sampe bikin lemari yang lumayan gede, nyokap gw jago banget. Tapi sampe ini hari, mo masang VCD aja masih teriak-teriak manggil anaknya untuk minta dipasangin. Lah, itu VCD kan dah tahunan ada di rumah. Terutama Handphone. Yang satu ini nyokap gw anti banget bawa-bawa. “kayak kerbau di cucuk hidungnya” alesan nyokap. Soalnya nyokap gw demen banget jalan, jadi gak mau acara jalannya terganggu dering telpon yang biasanya dari bokap gw minta nyokap pulang. Giling kan?

Gak jauh dari soal handphone, kali ini nyokap Tanya gw,
"Ka, kamu masih ada pulsa ga?"
"masih ada sedikit ma, mo kirim sms ma?"
"gak, tolong smack down in Iyo *adek gw yang kecilan* aja, biar dia telpon ke rumah.”
"smack down ma? Paan tuh?"
"itu, masak ga tau, yang kamu telpon trus langsung dimatiin, asal Iyo tau aja kalo kamu
yang nelpon."
Ternyata maksudnya Misscall, walah, jauh banget yah?

Nyokapnya temen gw gak jauh beda, waktu gw lagi hang out di sana, nyokap nya temen gw ini mangill anaknya dari ruang tv,
Mega, tolong bikinin mama teh manis anget di gelas gele dong!”
lah, mama mo nge ganja? hihi, Mega Cuma nyengir kegelian ngeliat rona keheranan di muka gw, ternyata yang dimaksud itu bukan gelas gele, tapi gelas Gede. Lah..

Yang parah sepupu gw, padahal umurnya masih muda belia, sweet and young, only 17, nilai sekolahnya bagus-bagus banget, seorang jenius akademik, kalo seorang temen deket gw bilang, tapi kalo ngomong sering banget salah ucap. Salah satunya yang sering kali dibuat bahan celaan buat dia adalah, kata transparan. Suatu hari pulang dari undangan ulang tahun di sebuah restoran,
"Wah, makanannya enak-enak loh mbak, dah gitu bentuknya bukan paketan, tapi transparan!”
"transparan gimana? Gak kelihatan gitu?" gw dah ngerti maksud dia, tapi biar dia sadar sendiri.
"transparan, yang kayak pesta kawinan, makannya ambil sendiri, udah ditata di meja.”
"bener itu namanya transparan?"
"eh.." nyadar, lalu nyengir :D.

Setiap kali diprotes ma anak-anaknya, nyokap gw selalu punya kilah, “udah lah, mama udah tua ini, kamu semua kan ngerti maksudnya, ya udah, diem aja!” tapi denger ucapan salah kayak yang di atas, mana mungkin gw bisa diem aja, pastinya selalu ngakak. Sebenarnya masih banyak banget kejadian salah ucap kayak gini, tapi kalo mesti gw tulis semua, bisa panjang banget postingannya. Jadi, ini aja deh yang gw ceritain.

Anyway, my days have been great. Met so many new friends and had so much new things to learn and new experiences, especially about people’s characters. One of a special friend’s been giving me a lot of things for me to think about. My self and the future and helps me to be a better person, put me back on the right track. Not to change me *coz I already had good stuff in me, that’s what he said* but to make a better me, a better person of me. Well, looking forward for better days tomorrow and on. Wish me luck! Thanks!

2003-07-30T05:55:00.000-07:00

SEKUEL!

Gw mo cerita terusan yg kemaren. Ternyata ada banyak alasan kenapa T bisa kek gitu. Sekarang gw bisa ngerti kenapa. Salah satunya adalah kenyataan kalo dia itu pernah abis2 an disakitin co, makanya dia jadi rada punya dendam ma co. Gw bisa ngerti, ternyata masa lalu T emang bener2 bisa dibilang tragis. Gw ga bisa bahas di sini, cuma preview dikit aja kali ye. T pernah abis2 an jatuh cinta ma co yang emang meyakinkan dia kalo tu co bener2 cinta mati ma T. Tapi ternyata abis2 an juga disakitin ma co ini. Co ini adalah salah satu co yang tergolong ganteng abis juga tajir abis. menuhin segala kebutuhan material T dan kebutuhan batin T pada awalnya. Tapi setelah jalan beberapa saat, umm.. bisa dibilang lama deh, baru ketahuan "sakit" nya ni co. Co ini banyak buat penderitaan mental maupun fisik ma T. Makanya sekarang T jadi traumatis dan punya sikap dan pandangan yang agak konyol ma co. Kalo ada co yang kliatan berduit bilang suka ma dia, dia cenderung untuk mainin tu co dan buat tu co kabur karena takut diporotin ma dia. Istilahnya, dia mo bikin kapok tu co2 idung belang, bikin co2 itu ninggalin dia tapi sebelumnya dia pake dulu duitnya. Takut disakitin lagi katanya, medingan dia nyakitin tu co dulu. gituh.. sayangnya, banyak banget laki2 goblok di jakarta ini, biar dah digituin malah tambah penasaran dan ngejar2, padahal cuman diporotin doang. Goblok kan? mereka aja yang mau, kilah T. Emang sih, gw perhatiin, kalo jalan ma co2 macam beginian dia ga pernah sendirian, selalu ajak adiknya, atau sama gw, yang belakangan deket ma dia. Malah, belakangan ini pernah ajak si Ijal segala, temen baik gw. Ga pernah sendirian. Takut dan emang ga pernah punya niatan mau di apa2in ma mereka itu. gituh..

Gw banyak ngobrol ma dia. Banyak denger kisah hidupnya yang mampu buat gw netesin air mata simpati. Tapi apa boleh buat, semua dah lewat. Gw cuma bisa bilang, peristiwa traumatis gitu cuma menghasilkan tiga option dalam masa depannya.
1. Jadi trauma abis dan menutup diri ma lingkungannya
2. Jadi gila, pake alasan itu buat bales dendam ma semua co di dunia, yg mungkin salah satunya bisa jadi co bener2.
3. Menjadikan pengalaman hidup itu buat bahan pemikirian, tambahan kazanah kehidupan dan menyongsong hari yang lebih baik lagi di masa depan. Setelah banyak diskusi, dia bengong. Mikir kali ye, trus bilang kalo dia mo nyongsong hari yg lebih baik buat masa depannya. Cita2 nya masih banyak, umurnya masih muda, potensi yang ada di dirinya masih banyak yang bisa di explore buat hidup di masa depannya. Gw bangga ma temen gw ini. Banyak ngajarin gw tentang kehidupan dan segala problematikanya. Jadi kami ada saling ngedukung satu sama lain. gituh..

Sayang dia keberatan kalo gw posting kisah hidupnya di sini, soalnya emang personal bgt. Jadi ya gw pasrah dgn preview ini. Moga2 aja lu semua juga bisa ambil sedikit dari pengalaman hidup temen gw. Paling ga, dia punya niatan besar untuk rubah hidup nya. Jadi lebih baik. gitu..

Paan sih gw gitu gitu mulu?? uda ah, serius banget postingan gw kali ini.. misi...

2003-07-25T22:15:00.000-07:00

MATRE

Wah.. lama juga yah gw ga nulis di blog gw tercinta ini. Well, not that long, tapi postingan terakhir gw lebih bersifat pribadi, buat seseorang, bukan untuk semua seperti yang biasa gw tulis. Baru aja balik dari dinner and a pool game. Just realized something, that a person can be so mean to someone else just because of the matter of money. Hu uh, soal duit.

Sudah lama gw sadarin kalau uang bisa buat mata hati seseorang tertutup dan mungkin menimbulkan kecenderungan seseorang untuk menjadi serakah. Am not denying myself, sometimes I feel that way too, when it comes to money, I always want to have more, it's just human, I guess. Banyak la yah contohnya, dari mulai yang maling, nge-garong, nyopet, nipu, bahkan ngebunuh dan lain sebagainya. Ada satu lagi yang kelihatannya agak sering gw temuin di lingkungan sekitar pergaulan anak muda *ih, mang masih muda yah?*, yaitu kecenderungan buat jadi matre! Kasus ini barusan aja gw temuin lagi. Kejadian yang bikin gw nyesel setengah mati sekaligus sedikit malu jadi perempuan dan terhadap diri gw sendiri. Ceritanya begini *bukan kismis mode*

Beberapa hari sebelum weekend adek gw tercinta bilang ma gw kalau dia mau ngajak anak bosnya yang juga rekan kerja adek gw, co berumur 31 tahun tapi belum juga punya pengalaman pacaran untuk makan malam di restoran deket rumah gw. Rencananya dia mo ngajak T *inisial aja yah?*, cewek cantik *inget, cantik, bukan cakep, yg cakep itu Cuma gw seorang* berumur 25 tahun yang sering hang out bareng kami sekeluarga plus gw, ceritanya double date, tapi gw yang berpasangan dengan adek gw itu. Tadinya kami berpikir kalau ngajak T ini, maka kami berdua bisa ngasih chance buat R *anak bos adek gw itu* buat sekedar kenalan, dan sukur-sukur kalo ampe jodoh. Setelah penuh dengan pengaturan jadwal, jadilah kami semua ketemu di resto deket rumah gw untuk dinner. R's treat. Kenalan, *gw disuruh pura-pura jadi temennya adek gw* lalu kami semua makan malam. Ternyata R ini adalah seorang yang sangat canggung. Kelihatannya ga biasa ada di sekitar cewek dan kelihatan banget ga bisa loosen up. After the dinner, stelah basa basi busuk, timbulah ide buat ngajak R ini main billiard di Hanggar Teras, Pancoran. R setuju, maka berangkatlah kami semua.

Menumpang taxi *dibayar oleh R*, sampai kami di Hanggar. Sayangnya kami kena waiting list, sehingga harus menunggu sampe ada meja yang kosong. Sang receptionist menawarkan kami meja di ruang VIP yang nota bene berharga kurang lebih 15.000 lebih mahal dari meja di tempat biasa. Gw ga keberatan nunggu, karena memang sudah tau kalau mau main pas weekend ya harus siap kena waiting list. Tapi temen gw T ini ternyata ga sabar. Langsung aja dia setuju pake ruang VIP. Di bisikin gw setelahnya, katanya, "biar aja, R ini yang bayar". Main deh kami di ruang VIP itu, pesen minuman, gw pesen Miller sebotol, gw tanya yang lain ternyata semua pilih yang sama. Miller dateng, T nyobain bir itu, ternyata dia bilang kalau dia ga suka ma minuman itu. Ga biasa minum bir katanya. Lah, kan udah dipesen, dah dicicipin lagi? Ga mau, katanya, dia pesen lagi orange juice. Gak tanggung2, 2 gelas, buat yang lain kalau ada yang mau katanya. "Biar aja, R ini yang bayar", lagi2 begitu alesannya. Wokeh, kami main. Sekitar jam 11an, R bolak balik dapet telepon dari bapaknya, R ini emang ga biasa pulang malem, jadi begitu jam 11an bokapnya udah kebat kebit nyariin dia *percaya ga sih lu kalo dia itu 31 tahun?*

Sambil main, kami banyak ngobrol dan threw some jokes, maksud gw, T, adek gw dan gw. R sendiri kelihatan banget canggungnya, walau gw udah stengah mati ngajak dia bercanda. Paling banter nyengir doang deh. Diantara percakapan kami, T bahas soal pusla hp yang emang jadi mahal banget buat dia dan gw yang masih nganggur ini. Tiba2 T punya ide gila buat minta beliin voucher pulsa sama R. gila kan? Tau deh, gw sih rasanya ga tega kalo sampe harus minta beliin voucher ma orang lain, palagi R itu bukan apa2 nya, hanya seorang co canggung yang baru dikenalnya, tapi sialnya kelihatan banget naksir abis ma T yang emang cantik ini. Berkali2 T merajuk untuk minta beliin voucher ma R ini, R yang emang naksir ma T kebingungan karena dibujuk rayu T dengan manisnya. Akhirnya dia setuju, kalau masih ada toko voucher yang masih buka, dia mau beliin voucher. Sedikit lega rasanya gw, soalnya itu kan dah malem banget, mana ada sih toko voucher yang masih buka?

Balik sekitar jam stengah dua belas soalnya ini udah yang ketiga kalinya R terima telp dari bokapnya. R bayar bill yang mencapai hampir 200ribu rupiah trus kami cari taxi pulang. di taxi, T minta supir taxinya untuk nyupir pelan2 aja, supaya bisa berenti kalau sampe liat toko voucher yang masih buka. Parah banget pikir gw ni anak, masak mo serius cari tokonya sih? Sampe deket rumah gw ternyata kami ga nemuin toko yang masih buka.
"bang, gimana nih? Ga ada toko yang buka??"
"wah, gimana yah? Next time aja deh abang beliin!"
"ga mau bang, mesti sekarang juga, aku kan dah ga punya pulsa.."
"wah, gimana yah, habis ga ada yang buka"
Sampe di sini gw yakin banget kalo R emang ga mau beliin T pulsa.
"bang, kalo sampe rumah ga ada juga, mentahnya aja ya bang?"
Gw ma adek gw: :o

Kena bujuk rayu ce kaya T, R pun ngalah. Ditanyalah berapa kira2 uang yang harus dikasih R pada T. 150ribu, katanya. Gila pikir gw, masak minta yang 150ribu? "buat Ndoey juga ya bang, jangan lupa!" gw langsung protes, bilang kalau 100ribu aja. Ga perlu sampe yang 150ribu. Sampe di rumah T yang diantar duluan, masing2 dari kami ce2 dapet 100ribu buat beli pulsa.

Sampe di rumah gw banyak merenung. Perasaan yang ada di diri gw bilang kalau itu semua salah, ga bener. Ga bener manfaatin co lugu macam dia macam gitu. Bukan Cuma co lugu, tapi manfaatin seseorang yang udah begitu baik mau ajak kami dinner. Apalagi kelihatan banget kalau co ini emang naksir bgt ma T. dari dulu gw tau kalau T ini rada matre, tapi gw ga pernah nyangka kalau sampe kaya gini. Gw juga sering banget bilang minta traktiran *korbannya salah satunya adalah sonny gembel.. hihi ditraktir nonton Bruce Almighty* kalau emang gw ga punya duit dan bilang jujur kalau gw ga punya duit, tapi kalau buat yang mahal2 gw ga berani, gila lu, gw tau banget cari duit itu susah banget gini hari. Pulang antar R adek gw marah2, dia bilang dia muak liat kelakuan T yang menurutnya bikin malu. Gw bengong, gw tau kalau R dah kluar duit banyak buat kami semua malem ini *adek gw bilang dia abis 600ribu semaleman itu aja*, gw dah banyak berusaha biar dia ga kluar duit terlalu banyak, ya dengan pasrah dgn waiting list, ngurangin harga voucher, cari taxi gamya yang emang lebih murah daripada si burung biru, ngomelin T yang minta ini itu termasuk voucher, dan ga minta beliin roko padahal gw mau banget. tapi.. gw terima aja tu duit yang dikasih R buat beli voucher. Gw jadi mikir, sepertinya gw ikutan manfaatin R juga. Awalnya gw coba berdalih, ah, gw kan ga pernah minta, tapi gw dikasih aja kok, tapi kok perasaan bersalah gw ga mau ilang juga. Gw tau banget saat itu, kalau gw malu terima duit dari dia. Malu seakan gw sendiri yang minta, malu seakan ikut bikin jelek nama adek gw di mata dia, malu karena sepertinya gw merasa diri gw sendiri juga ikutan matre. Nyesel, nyesel banget. gw bikin janji ma adek gw, kalau gw dah terima gaji, gw akan gantian traktir R buat malam ini. Yang parah, spt gw bilang tadi, R kelihatan naksir abis ma T, sedangkan T jelas2 ga naksir karena T berkali2 bilang ga suka, made some jokes about him, even made him funny faces behind his back. God!

Beneran ga sih perasaan gw? The guilt just wouldn't go away no matter how I denied it. hrr.. what was wrong with me? how could I take it? kalau T itu matre, kenapa gw kok jadi malah ikutin dia stelah gw ga bisa bilangin dia? bener ga sih kalau gw ikut jadi matre? Salah ga sih gw..? umm.. menurut gw sih, gw salah. Menurut lu gimana?

Btw, duitnya dah gw beliin pulsa sekarang! Sigh..

2003-07-22T06:29:00.000-07:00

Dear You

Am so sorry for everything. U got it right on ur letter. I should've told u face to face. I knew that, but it was like so hard to do it. Every time I looked at u I knew that I cared a lot about u, that I did love u. and it always made me so hard telling u face to face. To be honest, I was going to tell u about my decision long before that phone call I made. Remember the day I asked u to let me go coz I couldn't take about the problem we had nicely? I wanted to break up with u since. But I couldn't. Remember when I was so desperately asked u not to leave me at the end, even tho u told me that I was better off without u? I kept on thinking about that ever since. I knew that I couldn't take it, but the thought of being a part from u was really terrifying. I was so afraid that I might not survive without u. the last couple of days before I met that call I thought about everything so hard. I knew that I couldn't live with the problem we're having. It just felt so wrong to keep on living with the matter we we're having, something that against us both in a contrary way. I understood that day when u explained everything, but maybe I was being so selfish by wanting u only for myself. Am sorry, I should've told u everything honestly but I couldn't. I was so afraid that I might loose u that day. But then finally after the long nights of thinking, I knew I had to do it. I wanted so much u to be my bestfriend always. And I thought, if I continued doing what we were doing, pretending that I wasn't hurt having the basic problem we had, I was so afraid that I would hate u forever. I didn't want that to happen. I care a lot about u, and I didn't want to hate u at all.

So I did. Called u to ask u to let me go. It was so hard for me that I tried so hard not to cry and pretended like I was only playing a scene of a girl asking her boyfriend to break up with her. I thought we were going to break up sooner or latter anyway as we planned before because of the religion differences, so I had to do it. I asked u to break up with me that night coz I didn't want to have my feeling grow even bigger, along with my anger. I hate the feeling, Loving and hating at the same time. So I thought there was a reason for me to break up with u rather than having to love u more and hate u at the same time, and ending up to have another break up when my feeling grows even bigger. I might never want to let u go. So I just had to do it that night. I had to.

Am so sorry, I just don't want us to hurt and hate each other. I really wish that we could be friends. But I fully understand if u didn't want me as ur friend, I know u're hurt. But I really wish that we could be friends. Am so sorry. I hope u're can forgive me for this someday, somehow.

Send my best regards to ur whole family. They've been so nice to me. I really wish that I could meet them again. Tell them that am so sorry for letting u feel the way u feel now. But I just had to. For our own sake I guess. So, if u forgive me already, and if u want me to be ur friend again, please, u know how to contact me. I'll be more than happy to be a good friend for u, coz u truly are a good person. U take care of ur self, wish u all the best of luck from here. I'll keep asking to God what we used to ask Him before. For the success of ur live. Am so sorry for everything.

Love,
Me

2003-07-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

Have u ever?

Have u ever felt so lucky in ur life?
Have u ever had something u loved so much and felt like u never want to let it go?
Have u ever wanted something so badly but when u got it, u realized that was just nothing?
Have u ever given up something that u loved so much?
Have u ever loved something so much u had to let go?
Have u ever sacrificed for someone u loved so?

Have u ever wanted to die?
Have u ever wanted to live forever?
Have u ever been so happy and sad at the same time?

Have u ever felt how it felt to be loved unconditionally?
Have u ever had a real true best friend?
Have u ever been a best friend for someone?
Have u ever cured someone's broken heart?
Have u ever felt like u're so unworthy for someone so worthy for u?

Have u ever been hurt?
Have u ever been in a situation that u knew ur heart can break?
Have u ever felt like u belonged to nothing?
Have u ever felt like u're left behind?

Have u ever felt like u're loosing something u loved so deeply and all u could do was just to stare?
Have u ever felt like u're falling?
Have u ever felt like u're so lonely in a crowd?

Have u ever done something so bad u regretted it?
Have u ever felt like u couldn't do any better than what u did before?
Have u ever wanted to run away and never looked back?
Have u ever tried to be someone u're not? For someone else?

Have u ever had to learn to love urself?
Have u ever had to learn to love someone else?
Have u ever met ur soul mate?

Have u ever hurt someone else by mean, purposely?
Have u ever betrayed someone who loved u so deeply?
Have u ever been betrayed by someone u loved so dearly?
Have u ever lied to someone u cared about just because u didn't want to hurt him even more?
Have u ever seen a smile on someone's face when u walked into his life?

Have u ever felt like u're answering never ending questions?
Have u ever felt that u're so naïve?

...

Am I so damn Naïve?

Please let me know if u've ever been in any of these situations. Just simply let me know how many percent of these questions that u would answer with YES. Thanks.

2003-07-01T16:19:00.000-07:00

R e p o t !

Emang bener juga kalau ada yang bilang kalau ngurus apa-apa di instansi pemerintah itu repot dan banyak buntutnya. Dulunya gw sih ga mau punya pikiran gitu walau udah hal itu sepertinya sudah menjadi rahasia umum. Contohnya pengurusan KTP di kelurahan. Yah, mungkin ga di semua kelurahan punya kinerja kerja yang setengah-setengah. Tapi yang jelas, pengurusan KTP di kelurahan gw yah begitu. Terlalu rumit birokrasinya dan lama prosesnya. kalau diandaikan, mungkin seperti tubuh yang kurang vitamin kali ya, jadi kalau mau cepet dan ga rumit, harus disuply ma vitamin, yang dalam kasus ini vitaminnya nota bene adalah duit.

Kurang lebih dua minggu yang lalu gw ngurus KTP di kelurahan gw, yaitu kelurahan Rambutan, Jakarta Timur, karena sudah hampir dua tahun ini KTP gw hilang dibawa Taxi Liberty yang tega banget ga mau balikin tu KTP. Berbekal surat keterangan kehilangan dari kepolisisan setempat, gw daftar untuk buat KTP baru. Ternyata pengurusan KTP itu makan waktu 14 hari atawa 2 minggu. Sedangkan gw bener² butuh cepat karna gw harus urus dokumen gw yang lain yang butuh adanya KTP. Setelah konsultasi dengan Bapak Masud, pejabat pengurusan KTP yang berwenang, dia kasih saran. Katanya:

"Wah dek, mesti nunggu 2 minggu dulu.."

"Yah Pak, ga bisa lebih cepet lagi, seminggu gitu? Saya butuh cepet untuk buat dokumen lainnya.."

"ga bisa dek, soalnya memang ketentuannya begitu. Harus tunggu selama dua minggu, atau begini, kalau adek memang butuh cepat, mending saya kasih saran. Saya proses permohonan KTP nya lalu adek bawa sendiri ke Sudin kependudukan di Cipinang. Nih, saya kasih alamatnya, cepet kok, paling nunggu seharian langsung jadi. Nanti, di sana hubungin Pak Haji Sobirin di lt.3. bilang kamu di utus saya."

(berbinar-binar)"serius pak? Wah, kalau begitu saya mau deh. Jadi begitu aja yah pak, boleh saya minta almatnya?"

(sambil nulis alamat)"nah, setelah selesai dari sana nanti, kamu ke sini lagi, soalnya nanti KTP nya harus ditandatangani pak Lurahnya dulu."

"iya pak, nanti setelah dari sana saya ke sini lagi. Makasih ya pak."

"kembali dek. Tapi jangan lupa, nanti setelah dari sudin, kalau ke sini lagi jangan lupa bawa amplop. Amplopnya ga usah gede-gede, tapi isinya aja yah yang gede" (kalimat ini di bantu oleh seorang petugas kelurahan yang lain)

" :o ha?? Iya deh pak. *sambil misuh² dlm hati, lah, kalau gw kasih dia duit buat paan dong gw jalan sendiri ke sudin?*

Mulailah dia memproses permohonan KTP gw. Ternyata yang dia maksud dengan "proses" itu adalah menyalin data gw di formulir, lalu jepit dengan streaples, tanda tangan, lalu kembalikan ke gw. Huh.. so much for a process.

Berangkatlah gw ke sudin esok harinya diantar Tamtam. Setelah ketemu dengan bapak yang dimaksud, gw diminta nunggu proses print out KTP baru gw. Setelah nunggu hampir 3 jam *sempet juga jalan jalan ke salemba, ikut Bry ambil formulir UMPTN adeknya*, jadi juga KTP gw, belum lengkap, karena gw mesti balik lagi ke kelurahan. Ada kejadian lucu, ada seorang bapak pejabat sudin yang begitu liat gw langsung nuduh gw sebagai pemain sinetron. Keukeuh bilang begitu sambil terus²an megangin tangan gw. Sampe dia sibuk banget ambilin kursi buat gw duduk. Huh! Karena ributnya dia yang lain ikut² an nyamperin gw, ada yang Tanya alamat, ada yang Tanya Rt berapa, ada yang tanya gw maen di sinetron apa, ada yang ngotot mo antar pulang. Lah.. gw cuma bisa nyengir pasrah liat antusias mereka dasar laki² idung belang!. Usut punya usut, banyak orang yang bilang gw itu mirip ma Baby Ayu, pembawa acara Sik asik dangdut pagi hari di SCTV. *Baru inget kalau dulu banyak TKW yang gw tatar di BLK dan supir taxi burung biru yang ngotot kalau gw itu Baby Ayu, ataw minimal, adeknya. :o* males banget ga sih?*

Dua hari kemudian gw balik ke kelurahan bawa calon KTP gw itu, eh, ternyata si bapak lurahnya ga dateng. Ada meeting katanya. Terpaksa KTP itu gw tinggal di sana untuk gw ambil esok harinya setelah lengkap dengan tanda tangan plus cap kelurahan. Beberapa hari kemudian gw ke sana lagi. Eh, si bapak yang ngurus KTP gw itu ga masuk. Nah, tadi siang gw suruh adek gw sekalian ambil KTP gw karna kebetulan dia juga mo buat KTP baru. Barusan dia pulang empty handed. Katanya si bapak ga masuk lagi ni hari, dan juga dia harus balik lagi besok untuk urus KTP nya karena bapak pengurus yang lain bilang begitu. Kelihatannya dia males proses hari ini, soalnya udah jam 3 katanya. Huh, padahal kan tutupnya jam 4 sore!

Walhasil, sampe ini hari yang nota bene sudah dua minggu dari hari pertama gw mohon pembuatannya, KTP gw belom juga jadi. Bahkan pengurusan dokumen gw yang butuh KTP itu ternyata sudah selesai pake foto copy KTP gw yang lama, walau gw harus keluar duit jauh lebih gede dan lagi² harus nahan diri dirayu rayu ma bapak² petugasnya untuk diantar pulang. *darn, what's with me and those bapak²? Kalau muda belia, ganteng dan kaya pula mungkin gw ladenin.. huh!*. kalau di pikir KTP itu lebih baik gw tinggal aja di sana selama dua minggu. Buktinya gw urus sendiri malah lama dan rumit banget prosesnya. belom lagi duit yang keluar.

Yah, moga² aja pengurusan segala sesuatu di instansi pemerintah ga selalu dan selamanya begini. Kalau terus begini sih, kapan majunya negara kita? Setuju?

Btw, had blasted weekend but my weekdays bore me already. Aduh, anybody generous enough to pay me a trip to Bali?? I miss Bali so much!!! Take me there, anyone..

2003-06-25T03:01:00.000-07:00

Code Red, Help Me!!

Here I am again. Guys, I have a problem here. It's more like an "aib" actually, but I have to talk about this coz I'm desperate and I really need ur help. So, please, if anyone have any information about this, let me know straight away. But if u have any tease or "celaan" for me, well, ntar ntaran deh! Here's the story.

Ever since I was a little girl *have u ever been little, Ndoey?* I never had this problem, but when I grew up to be a teenager my body started to gain weight. I became a fatty. Well, not so fat, but fat enough for everybody to call me "Ndut". It actually never became a problem for me, I mean I knew that I was fat but it never bothered me at all. I still had my confidence and I had lots of friends. The only problem occurred was my snoring problem. Ever since I got fat I started to snore and it sounded so bad. Huhuhu.. I still have the problem till now and no matter I tried I still sound like "kerbau melenguh" hwaa.. don't trust me? Go ask Ciphie, Aee, and Bry. They all heard me snoring before. Embarrassing ha? *Seorang Ndoey yg cakep itu mendengkur?? Tetep cakep sih, tapi.. Sure it is.

I remember once in Bali, I slept with my friends in a hotel. When I woke up from sleeping I asked one of my friends, "did I snore?" and he answered me "well, I didn't know for sure but one of the guy next door just banged on our door and yelled at us to turn off our washing machine!" hwaaa.. I knew it was a joke, but it hurt. *Hey Lee, it was a joke, wasn't it? it was, wasn't it? please tell me it was..* Hiks.. hiks.. not to mention the other friend's tease when I had to sleep over or camp somewhere.

My parents took me to a doctor once and he told me there's something wrong with my breathing system that caused me to snore every time I sleep. And to stop my snore, he suggested me to have a surgery on my throat. Scary huh, not to mention that it would cost my parents a lot of money. People told me that most people only snore when they're too tired and in deep sleep, but I.. no matter how tired or not tired I am, I always snore. Then some friends told me to sleep without pillow, or some ever told me the contrary, to sleep with many pillows under my head. No use, I tried all of them but I still snore!! What am I going to do about this?

It actually was not a big problem for me, I mean so far. I know my friends accept me the way I am, no matter what. Thank Goodness I always have nice friends. Yes, I have to swallow those teases, but it's ok, I know they're just fooling around. Until now. Well, as I wrote here before, my mom has been asking me to find and get married. How am I going to sleep with my husband someday? Will he need earplugs? Huhuhu.. but then I thought again, my husband will be someone who knows me already, and accept me the way I will be. Good enough. But earplugs?? Ohh.. poor him, no matter who he will be.

Okey, getting married is still far ahead from now, I have a bigger problem caused by this now. In about two months I will live in somekind of dormitory with some people I will just meet there. It will be needed for my new job. I will live there for about three months. HOW AM I GOING TO SLEEP or maybe HOW ARE THEY GOING TO SLEEP?? These people aren't my friends. I mean, at least not yet. Will I be bugging them when they sleep? Will they need earplugs? Will they throw me off our room someday? huhu.. what am I going to do? Help me please.. give me some information about how to stop this stupid and lousy, not to mention loud, snore I have now? Anything, which doesn't include surgery, will do. Help me, please.. It's embarrassing. Okey, laugh all u want, but help me aferwards okey.. Please.. please.. Thanks!

2003-06-18T01:06:00.000-07:00

Slap bang right on the face!

The weekend was quite nice for me. Hanged out with the Blogbugs community attending Armina's birthday and wedding anniversary. Met some friends I missed for so long. One thing for sure, the food was delicious *can't u think 'bout something else but food, Ndoey?*!! And as a bonus, some friends told me that I looked slimmer. Ha! Hear that Bry, I am slimmer! Even Sasha asked me what did I do to loose weight. Didn't believe me when told her that I didn't do anything. Hihi.. just told them that I have been exercising everyday ever since am back with Bry..huheuheue.. *hayo.. Ngapain aja lu Ndoey??*

Hanged out at Score Citoz with Bry, Aee, Sasha, Renggi, and Ciphie afterward. The others went to Timezone and watching midnight show at 21. Inna, Vanya, and Kesih, u gals don't know what u're missing! Went crazy after sakau dugem for quite sometimes and sorry to disappointed u all that I finally ordered a shot of tequila that night. Told Aee 'bout that and guess what she did. She slapped me right on my check. Told that after I drank it and when I was picking Aee at Score entrance. Damned Ee, it was really hard! Sakit tau! She claimed that she didn't feel guilty when she did that. Darn u bitch *still love u tho'*! I was really shocked, didn't know it was coming. Tell u the truth, it was quite embarrassing.. Everybody was looking at us thinking that we had a fight or something. Yeehaa.. girl fight! She did that only for the sake of me actually. I gave her my permission to slap me if I ever drink again about a month ago and I completely forgot that. Yeah, my own fault. Promised myself to quit drinking but did it anyway. Sorry honey, u pissed off coz of this, sorry. Sorry Udhien, Alfa. Hihihi.. no excuse but I really wanted that night. The night went crazy. We were dancing all night long. Even on the bar table. Hehehe.. I guess I lost couple more kilos for that. Good thing out of something, rite?

Home sneaking in. my mom would kill me if she found out that I got home around 3am. Thank goodness I didn't turn into a pumpkin. Thanks Bry for taking me home, u're the best!

Earlier that afternoon Bry and I went to a photo studio. Actually I was just going to take my pictures for my id card that I've lost 'bout two years ago.. *jadi selama dua tau ini lu jadi penduduk gelap Ndoey? Buset :o*, but we ended up having our pictures taken. Hihi.. mumpung bajunya sama2 item.. foto nya dah jadi lo say.. lucu! Share them with u all!
That's about it I guess, my weekend. Did u all have a good weekend too? Sure hope so! Cheers!

Snydez: thanks for the sms, I'll get u something afterward, okey!
Nasgorkam: Buset, cewe lu cantik dan soleh sekali, awas lecet tuh.. kesian dipasangin ma cowo laknat kek lu..huehuehuehue

2003-06-12T01:57:00.000-07:00

Walah.. mo update tapi ga tau mo cerita apa.. my life has been dull for sometimes. yang pasti satu, stelah gw cerita ma nyokap gw soal banyaknya yang nyasar ke blog gw pake key words ikan, lou han, aquarium, walhasil gw disuruh naro alamat toko gw di sini biar kalo ada yang emang niat nyari aquarium murah bisa benaran mampir. Iya deh Ma.. aku ikutin tuh.. kalo emang ada yang nyari. ke rumah gw aja yah!! heuheuheuhe

BURSA AQUARIUM MURAH DAN IKAN LOU HAN
TOKO MATERIAL GENTUR
Jl. Raya Bogor No. 23 Km. 20
Rt. 009 Rw. 005 Kelurahan Rambutan Kecamatan Ciracas
Jakarta Timur
840 2546

heuheuheuheuhe... jangan ngetawain gw yah.. ini kan amanat dari nyokap gw.. huehuehuehue

2003-06-08T23:05:00.000-07:00

HUH!

Buset, gara gara postingan soal makgw, pas gw buka site meter gw banyak banget yang masuk dari google search engine ma yahoo nyari ikan lou han, mas koki, juga akuarium. Heran, dah tau gitu pake masuk lagi ke blog gw, dudul kan??

Aduh, psikotes gw ko kemaren ga pdyah? ngeri nih, keterima ga sih gw? Ko belon ada kabar? Kalo kata Ciphie, gw suruh nunggu seminggu, kalo ga ada kabar juga baru gw boleh bunuh diri. Hih, ga membantu banget ga sih tu anak. Gw sih dah punya ide, kalo emang ga ketrima gw mo bakar tu gendung. Graha MIP di kuningan. si Aee ma Dipa sih dah mau bantuin gw. Abis, waktu interpiu ketiga katanya gw dah diterima dan disuruh siapin diri buat mulai bulan agustus. Nah, rada aneh kan? masak besoknya gw di telpon katanya suruh psikotes ma medical cek up. Emang sih belom tanda tangan kontrak, tapi mestinya kalo mau begitu sebelum gw diterima dong. Huh! sebel banget gw. Jangan sampe antusias gw terbuang percuma nih, gw kan dah loncat2 kesenengan waktu itu. Aneh nya lagi, waktu gw psikotest kan bareng2, nah, banyak di antara mereka yang malah belom di interpiu ma ni perusahaan. Belom sampe ke interpiu ketiga maksud gw. Lah, aneh kan? Siapa lagi nih yang mau bantuin gw ngebakar tu gedung? Butuh sukarelawan! Yah, sementara waktu, doain gw aja deh. Amien.

Nyesel juga sih ga ikutan gath, abis mo bilang paan? Nyokap gw tercinta yang super cerewet itu ngelarang gw. Padahal gw ngiri banget. Palagi kalo liat foto2 nya. Huh, ngiri! Makanya gw mesti dapet kerja buru2, biar boleh pergi2 an lagi. Nyokap kan ga banyak ribut kalo gw mang dah kerja. Gituh.

Posting paan lagi yah? keknya ga mutu banget postingan gw. Huh! Mampet nih otak. Kelamaan ga dipake. Butuh upgrade, ada yang bisa gratisan?? Mau dong!!
Aee, Vanya, Kesih.. kangen gw ma lo semua.. kapan kita ngumpul lagi?? Dah kebanyakan bahan gosip nih di kepala gw!! Huhuhu..

Thanks to Udhien.. a lot!

2003-06-04T04:00:00.000-07:00

Thank you for brighthen up my days again
Thank you for believe in me again
Thank you for loving me again
Thank you for everything
Thank you for your forgiveness

Hwuahuahuaha.. gw ga jhomblo lagi.. heuheuheuehue

Thanks juga buat temen2 yang ga sengaja ikut terlibat. Banyak maaf buat semua, banyak makasihbuat
semua..

Btw, kali ini gw minta doa, lagi dapet panggilan kerja, moga2 aja yah keterima.. doain yah.. for this one, special thanks for Ciphie, Bry, Aee, Dipa, Alfa, Udhien, Vanya, Kesih, c4ble 6uy, Diego, Nelis, Muna, all deh!! Doain yah!! Thanks, love u all!! Mwuaahh!!

2003-05-28T07:19:00.000-07:00

How could I break an angel's heart?
Why did I waste his falling star?

Remembering
Regretting
Wishing
Longing

Dearest you,..

Sitting here, shading tears, my wandering mind caught a sight of your smile. Remembering those eyes calmed my rebellion heart. Those hands assured my safety, touched me. Those lips blurted words flattered me, kissed me. The heart beat compulsive love, just for me.

Regretting the things I've done. Hurt you.
The mask I'm wearing, burdening me. Leaving sorrow and sadness.
Too much to bear, seeing you leaving me stranded.

Wishing that time was returnable. That I wouldn't do things so stupid, selves and fake like those I've done to you. Hurt you. Wishing that I could take those words back. Hurt you. Wishing that I could wipe away the pain that I've caused. Hurt us both.
Wishing that I could make you see how much you mean for me. How much I miss you. Wishing that I could make you see how sorry I really am.

Swallowing my pride, longing for just a slight of forgiveness.

Remembering
Regretting
Wishing
Longing

With love

Jakarta, 26 of January - 26 of May 2003

2003-05-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

Unbelievable!!

Sorry Nya, kalo gw sampe nyontek lo, tapi nyokap gw emang bener2 Ubelievable!!

Gw heran ma nyokap gw, ada aja yang beliau kerjain. Apalagi kalau urusannya duit. Sumpah, jago banget. Kalo ampe ada yang perlu nawar bajaj, ojek, atawa bahkan sayur di pasar, ajak nyokap gw deh. Percaya ma gw kalo duit yang lo bawa pulang bakal lebih dari biasanya. Gw aja kadang2 heran, ko nyokap gw tega banget yah nawar sampe kayak gitu, dapet untung ga sih pedagangnya? Tapi ya berhasil juga, berarti kan masih ada untung. Gw emang mesti belajar deh, soalnya soal nawar gw itu payah banget. Ga tegaan ma pedagang, palagi kalo pedagangnya kumel dikit, ga tega!

Belakangan ini nyokap gw sibuk sendiri di toko Bokap gw. Selama hidup gw yang gw tau kan bokap gw punya usaha Toko Material, Toko Bangunan. Yah, biasalah, kutukan orang Cina, dari atas ampe bawah dagang. Berasa deh, gw tau banget bokap gw udah ngerasain asem garemnya kehidupan. Dari mulai yang jaya banget (toko bokap gw dulu termasuk yang paling gede di Pondok Gede) sampe yang abis2 an pertahanin diri dari kebangkrutan pas krisis moneter dulu. Setelah krismon keadaan beda banget ma dulu, maklum wiraswasta, paling cepet kena imbas lemahnya perkembangan ekonomi kita. Palagi barang material, logikanya aja deh, orang kan mendingan beli beras dari pada benerin rumahnya. Nah, belakangan toko bokap gw kembang kempis lagi. Berat banget, belom ditambah satu anaknya yang sekarang nganggur *ehm..* Satu ketika nyokap gw pengen banget punya aquarium, pengen piara ikan mas koki katanya. Beli lah nyokap gw satu akuarium gede berikut 6 ekor mas kokinya. Di pasang lah tu akuarium di ruang keluarga deket tivi. Loh ko kalo ada tamu banyak yang muji.. katanya bagus. Entah dari mana tiba2 nyokap gw punya ide. Mo ikut2an bisnis ikan Lou Han yang emang lagi ngetrend itu. Walhasil setelah abis2 an ngeyakinin bokap gw, nyokap kerja sama ma bokap usaha ikan. Bokap yang usaha akuarium berikut perangkat dan aksesorisnya, nyokap yang urus ikannya. Hasilnya, toko bokap gw rame banget sekarang. Bahkan bokap bilang, udah lama banget toko ga ngerasain penghasilan sehari2 kaya gini lagi. Ada aja orang dateng, dari mulai yang cuma liat2 sampe yang tawar2. Tapi yang jelas, toko bokap rame lagi dan penghasilan pun tambah. Bokap pun tersenyum lagi.

Gw sendiri ga ngerti kenapa nyokap bisa dapet ide kaya gitu, tapi emang kalo urusan soal duit beliau itu cepet banget. Kemaren gw di ajak nyokap ke Pasar jati Negara buat beli kura2, soalnya katanya di toko udah ada beberapa orang yang mulai tanya soal kura2. Nah loh.. Tadi malem gw liat nyokap lagi asyik liat sebuah box kardus, pas gw liat pa isinya.. Hamster.. nyokap gw bilang mo di biakin, trus nanti mo dijual di toko.. Hwaaa.. kebayang ga sih kalo toko material bokap gw berubah jadi Pet Shop??

Nah ini cuma ide, ada pesan moral yang bisa diambil dari tulisan gw di atas, mungkin yang ga kepengen kerja dulu atawa belom dapet *lirik Alfa* bisa sambil iseng-iseng ikutan bisnis ini. Soalnya modalnya ga terlalu gede tapi hasilnya lumayan kalo lo bisa ngerawatnya. Lumayan lah, namanya juga bisnis musiman, mumpung lagi bagus ya apa salahnya. Liat kan hasil yang didapet nyokap gw?
Setelah gw pikir2, kek nya ni blog gw ganti aja yah tittle nya. Perasaan gw belakangan ini gw posting soal nyokap gw mulu yang emang ada ada aja kelakuannya. Mulai dari yang nyebelin pe yang ngegemesin *ih, ada gituh?*. Umm, gimana kalo gw ganti jadi umm.. http://makgwtercinta.blogspot.com, ataw.. http://ceritasangnyokap.blogspot.com. Lucu juga kali ya?

Eh, ada yang mo tau nasib akuarium pertama gw yang mengilhami nyokap gw itu? Tu akuarium akhirnya di jual bokap gw dan udah laku, trus ikan2 mas koki yg pernah jadi kebanggaan nyokap itu satu persatu mati, sekarang tinggal 2 ekor dan harus share akuarium kecil ma ikan cupang adek gw. Airnya butek karna jarang dibersihin dan tugas kasih makan yang dulu sering dikerjain nyokap krn hobi skg dihibahin ma si Tati. Berasa anak tiri banget ga sih.. oh mas koki, oh mas koki!

2003-05-16T05:50:00.000-07:00

WAKS!!

My mom talked to me and said, "Hey Ndoey, u're almost 25, it's already ur time, go find someone and get married.. (more or less).." hiyyy.. serem banget ga sih.. masak umur gw yang baru segini muda belia disuru kawin.. walah.. bisa ilang masa muda gw.. padahal kan gw masih mo senang senang.. kenapa hayo.. pake acara ngomong, "Mana mama udah mulai sakit sakitan lagi.. kan mama pengen punya cucu.. " mampus gw.. gimana dong? masak gw mesti kawin sekarang.. sialnya gw ga boleh kawin ma Bry *emang dia mau ngawinin lo Ndoey.. hiyy.. gr aja lo!*. tau deh, alesannya panjang banget.. maap Bry.. maap.. *cupz*

Btw, Za, gw ko ketemu lo mulu yah??

2003-05-13T03:43:00.000-07:00

WHAT? THEY WON AGAIN?? DARN!

My worst enemy won again! Huh! Juventus won again. My brother was like jumping with widest smile in the world. He said he was trying to cheer me up but he ended up burning my heart.. and my friend a Juventini from Italy sent me sms right away cheering for Juve, how could he? Didn't they have any sympathy for me at all? How could I have Juventini brother and friends any way? huwaaa.. When will AC Milan scudetto again..?? At first I thought that my dearest Milan was so busy with the games beside the Seri A league. They played also in Coppa Italy and Champion Cup. But last week, they only played draw without any goal at all against Inter Milan in Champion cup semi final match. *ngamuk style starts now* It's semi final already and how dare they played only draw????? Impossible! Unbelievable! In their own stadium too?? Anyway they still have one more game in semi final, I hope that they will win. They better win or I'll call Berlusconi myself to get that sissy Anceloti fired! And for MU, fight somebody ur own size okey, ga ada lawan lagi tuh! Tapi kalah juga kan di Champion? Hhwhauhauhauahua… hu hu hu.. hiks.. hiks.. :((

The week has been lame for me. Tired of doing nothing. Well, not really nothing actually, been trying to do my final assignment and sending those application letters. Lo pada belom berdoa yah?? Ko belum ada kabar berita juga.. huhuhu.. Thanks for Ciphie who gave me valuable information. Already sent it phie, we'll see about that. Anything else? I'll be glad to have them. Yang lain dong, kalo ada informasi lagi! Kirim ke imel gw yah! It's ndoeyc@yahoo.com Thanks! Btw, Nasgorkam.. mana janji info IM3 lo??? Gw tunggu2 terus neeh!!! huh.. laki laki penipuw!!

My mom has been unbelievable these couple of weeks. God, she keeps on interfering my personal life. What cloths I have to wear, where should I go, who I want to hang out with, even guys I want to date. Come on, it's not like am 16 years or something. I am almost 25 years old; it's time for her to stop this. It's enough already. Especially now that am jobless and stay home almost everyday, she gets worse and worse. She always has bad image about my friends. She thinks that I hang out with the wrong kind of friends, weird isn't it? Well, not all of them, but some. She said that I've changed. Well, I am still the same person, same Ndoey, never change a bit. If now I have many kinds of friends I think it's not a bad thing. I know who my friends are. Okey, if she thinks that my friends are not exactly the "nice" people, does she think that am going to be the same person as they are? Not really. I am still the same person, only have more friends and happier. I like having many kinds of friends, getting to know them, their characters. Then I get to learn so many things from them. And they are so nice to me, at least most of them. Sometimes I can even get to know a lot of things without experiencing them at all. Isn't it a good thing? I get even safer, rite? I know what's right and wrong. If I did a mistake that doesn't mean that it's because of my friends, if I did a mistake it means that that's my own mistake. Cause am old enough to make my own decisions. God, I am almost 25!
I know that she's just trying to be a mother. She doesn't want to have me making the same mistakes she did maybe, or she just wants the best for me, and I appreciate that, a lot, but don't u think that I should be the one who makes the decisions? Okey, I did what she asked me to. I stay in Jakarta and not leaving to Bali. Doesn't she think that's enough? Why should she complain about my friends now? About the guy am dating now? What's their mistake? What's Bry's mistake? Hrrr.. I really want to open her eyes; she shouldn't judge someone without even bother to get to know them. At least try to talk or whatever, not like this. I can't always have angel friends. That would be so boring, wouldn't it? Am even far from angel my self. I really have to get a job soon and leave from home. I should have my own life and prepare to fight for it. Am I being overreacting? I guess I am. But I just feel like writing about this, lighthening my burden at least. She really should know about all this. Sigh.. I wish that she would listen not just talk, wish I could tell all this to her, heart to heart. But then, I would hurt her feeling.. I love her and don't want to see her hurt. What should I do? Am really tired of this. Maybe I should just work harder, yes, indeed. Work harder to get her to trust me.. don't u think so?

2003-05-07T05:25:00.000-07:00

No Title

Am back! Gee, I miss blogging and netting. Hihihi.. miskin banget sampe mesti itung2 an walau cuma mo ke warnet. Sial!

Had nice weekend, well, just Saturday night tho', Friday and Sunday.. hrr.. boring as usual. But on Saturday night got a chance to get to know new friends from Blogbugs community, nice people. Nice to meet you guys! Well, the night wasn't that nice actually, beside for the extremely hot weather, gw juga kena dicuekin. Sial, gw kena dicuekin pacar sendiri malem itu. Padahal udah disindir sindir, "ya ampun, dari tadi sama skali ga di colek colek pacar mu ini.." tapi hasilnya cuma nyengir dan tetep aja dicuekin. Hayo, kenapa coba? Walhasil Bang Erly yang kasihan liat gw segitu nelangsanya ngerelain diri buat nyolek gw.. "gw bantuin deh Ndoey, gw yang nyolek!" aduh, makasih deh bang, dari pada ga sama sekali.. *tersenyum dengan lemahnya*
Quite fun, but then again, I had to go home earlier than my friends who continued the night until 7 in the morning since I had to go back before my parent's curse turn me into a pumpkin for going home late after midnight. You know.. the Cinderella thing.. But amazingly when I got home, my parents didn't say anything, even though it was already pass my bedtime limit. Tumben..

I made a promise that night; I made a promise to my self and ask my dearest friends to help me accomplished the promise. I promised my self.. to.. stop.. drinking.. hooray, that's something ha? Well, except for draft beer, light and won't get me drunk, of course, come on, step by step okey. Maybe if I succeed, I might quit smoking too, who knows right? Would like to try to do good things in my life, step by step. Asked for Aee's and Vanya's help that night cause there was somebody who was nice enough to donate her whiskey to us. I said, "ee, if u look at me drooling and try to take a zip, stop me, okey!". And as I predicted before, I did. Thank goodness Aee saw that and she shouted at me in the scariest way. Good Lord, u are so strict ee, u could be my mom, trust me! But thanks honey, it helped me a lot! So, would everybody help me on that, and hope that I can really quit drinking, please.. thanks, well at least gw tau siapa2 aja yang bakal seneng denger ini, minimal ada Tamtam, Om Udhien, dan Alfa. Hihi.. doain yah abang abang ganteng.. thank you..

Been busy sending my application letters and cv's to so many companies lately. Trying to get a new job, better than the previous one I hope. Well, actually, anything, just hate doing nothing like this. Killing me. Just sent 10 letters earlier this week, and hope to get any response. Never thought I could be this desperate before, well, I didn't get too much trouble getting the previous job, only had to send 1 letter and after those hard tests and interviews, I got the job. Really hope on these ones. Told Dipa, "masa sih udah segitu banyak ngirim ga ada satupun yang dipanggil? Masa sih dip?" Lalu dijawabnya dengan singkat.. "Lo kira kenapa ada sarjana yang bisa nganggur sampe 2-3 tahun?" Ha..*beneran melongo*?? iya yah.. *ngangguk ngangguk sambil monyongin bibir* mereka kan juga kirim banyak lamaran.. Waduh.. wish me luck deh guys, I just have to get a job anyhow! Then again, wish me luck will u, at least wish me get thru this miserable moment of emptiness in my life now.. sigh..

2003-05-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

SIAL!!

Emang rada sial weekend gw kemaren.. emang sih, ada yang nyenengin ada yang bikin sebel stengah mati. Ceritanya gini.. tgl 24 kmaren kan bokap gw *barengan juga ma kesih* ulang taun. akhirnya sepakat punya sepakat Aee, Vanya ma gw rencanaan mo nginep di rumah kesih.. sekedar untuk ngucapin selamat ulang taun.. slumber party deh ceritanya.. sory ga ngajak2, abis ga ada apa2.. hihi.. mo makan aja nunggu nyokapnya kesih dateng tengah malem bersama semangkuk nasi soto yang akhirnya kita share bertiga.. numpang istilah temen gw.. "mengenaskan!" Tapi ternyata, belom sempet hari sabtu tiba, nyokap gw ngajak gw.. yang ternyata gw sadarin ga bisa ditolak.. kalo sbtu gw ga boleh ke mana2. ternyata bokap gw dengan centilnya tumben2 an ngajak kami sekeluarga beserta adek2nya makan malem di resto deket rumah. Tempatnya sih cozy deh, lesehan, makanan sunda.. cuman yang gw ga tahan.. live musiknya itu loh.. aduh..seorang penyanyi dengan suarasuperpas2 an diiringi seorang pemain keyboard tunggal. Malem itu juga hadir salah satu sahabat gw yang diundang ma nyokap gw.. untung ada dia, kalo ga stress banget gw di sana. Walhasil Si Prozac, temen gw ini dan gw mainan handphone, bengong sambil sesekali ngetawain penyanyi yang suaranya fals dan terkadang salah syair itu. Eh, telpon gw bunyi..

Aee: Ndoey, jadi ke sini ga..??
Gw: Wah ee, susah deh, gw ga bole nginep, kalo gw jalan sekarang balik nya susah dong.. (waktu menunjukkan tepat pukul 9.30 malam)
Aee: Ah, elo ndoey, gimana sih.. cepet ke sini..!! nginep deh!
Gw: Ga bisa ee, gw ga boleh nginep, mau banget sih.. tapi.. eh.. buka botol ga???
Aee: Ada!
Gw: *dengan mata yang mulai berbinar2* Bener ee, apan tuh??
Aee: udah ah, ga bisa ngomong banyak, pusla uda mo abis, cepet aja lo ke sini!!!
--tuut --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut-- --tuut--

Stelah bikin rencana, gw ajak si sahabat gw ini ke rumah kesih, alesannya mo nonton midnight di tim. sekedar FYI, kalo temen gw ini dipercaya bgt ma nyokap bokap gw, jadi ga bekal ada masalah kalo pulang pagi sekalipun!! ya udah, stelah diijinin dan pamit pulang jam 3an *midnight di tim kan ampe jam segitu yah?* kami cabut naek motor ke rumah kesih. karna gw belom pernah ke sana sendiri gw bingung. gw telp deh si kesih..

Gw: Kes.. ke rumah lo jalan nya gimana??
Kes: Gampang.. lo tau rumahnya Megawati kan? lurus aja! trus belok kiri!
*lah.. kenapa gw harus tau di mana rumahnya megawati? kalo gw ga tau ya tetep aja gw ga tau*
walhasil gw kasih tu telp ma temen gw yang lebih ngerti jalan.

Nyampe di rumah kesih, mata gw jelalatan nyari yang bentuknya seperti botol.. "mana Nya.. katanya buka botol..??"
"Nih!" kata vanya sambil nyodorin botol San Miguel yang udah tinggal dikiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttttt banget isinya...
"Lah.. ko cuman ini? tinggal segini lagi..!!"
"Udah, jangan cerewet, dari tadi kita irit2 minumnya sambil nungguin elo.. "

walah.. ternyata cuman bir yang dua kali teguk abis. tapi gpp, yang penting ngumpulnya yah kes.. gw seneng banget ko malem itu walaw semaleman sms orang2 yang kita kenal doyan jalan buat minta diajak akibat sakaw dugem. Ga ada yang punya duit sih.. gw ampe niatan gadaikan cicin emas gw 200 ribu buat dugem ma temen gw itu, sialnya dengan mentahnya dia tolak. tapi stelah liat kadar sakaw kita semua yang mulai keliatan parah dia kasih penawaran gadai tu cincin 50 ribu perak.. gila lo.. masak dia ga percaya kalo itu emas.. huhuhu.. emang ga di redho in Tuhan malem itu kami semua.. walhasil yah cuma nongkrong di warnet dudul trus pulang nyerbu nasi soto yang dibawa nyokapnya kesih! umm... enak!!! lagi dong Tante!

Jam stengah 3 gw ma temen gw pulang. Sampe rumah baru gw sadarin.. WAKS.. HANDPHONE GW ANTENANYA ILANG!!! Hwaaaa..... dicari ke mana2 tetep aja ga ketemu.. aduh, udah lagi ga punya duit gini.. gw mesti kluar duit lagi buat benerin hp gw.. ga dapet signal lah.. ada antenanya aja tu hp udah dudul palagi ga ada.. sial beneran deh gw.. ini kali akibat boongin orang tua kali yah?? kapok juga deh gw.. hhuhuhu.. ayoh.. siapa yang mau bantu benerin hp gw.. kalo ce gw anggep ce kalo laki gw anggep laki!! Ayo dong.. bantuin gw!!! Huhuhuhuhuhuhu.......... Ini bener2 sial!!

Thanks Buat Ko Rudy dari DotNet, warnet langganan gw yang udah baik hati nawarin gw ngutang kalo mo onlen tapi ga punya duit.. hwuhauhauhau... ga usah repot nyolek2 deh gw.. thanks yah Ko, thanks!! Skalian iklan deh.. *bales budi ni yeh!!* DotNet di deket Pasar keramat Jati Jakarta Timur, koneksi cepet, kompie banyak.. pegawai ganteng2 dan cakep2.. ber AC tapi bole ngeroko.. murah ko.. sejam nya cukup murah ko buat daerah Kramat Jati! Tapi inget, ga bole ngutang.. kecuali gw karna gw cakep!! ewhahuahuahuahuahu!!!!!!!

Satu lagi.. biar dapet duwit gw disaranin ma Aee jual lemak gw di tukang soto.. selain dapet duwit, side effect nya gw jadi langsing.. umm.. menarik sih ide nya.. bisa ga yah kira2..?? kalo ada yang punya informasi soal tukang soto yang mau mo beli lemak gw.. kabarin gw yah!! Thanks!!

2003-04-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

WHAT WOULD U DO IF U WERE INUL??

Sorry c4ble 6uy, no english this time! ;p

Baru2 ini di hampir stiap infotainment tv swasta isinya pasti soal Inul yang brenti "ngebor" di smua stasiun tv gara2 disabot ma orang2 yang katanya senior2 di dunia perdangdutan.. yah.. disabot.. dinasihati.. dihimbau.. dicela.. whatever u name it, yang jelas, buat gw ini tetep aja pembunuhan atas yang namanya kreativitas seni seorang artis. Wah.. padahal gw ga demen2 banget Inul, soalnya suaranya biasa aja dan kadang "bor" nya itu ga sinkron ma iramanya.. tapi tetep aja dia itu punya kreasi, yang lain dari yang lain, inovatif. Rese aja orang lain kalo ribut sendiri, palagi ampe akhirnya matiin kreasi original si artis. Ada bener nya juga kalau Inul itu rada ajaib, tapi kalau sampe merusak moral bangsa, wah.. nuduh banget tuh!!

Sekarang si Inul udah buat keputusan, dia mo narik diri dari percaturan artis dangdut pertelevisian kita. Entah itu hasil desakan atawa hasil pertimbangannya sendiri. Yang jelas, kaya gw kemaren, The decision has been made. Gw doain deh buat Inul, moga2 tetep bisa exist apapun bentuk keseniannya. Yang pengen gw tau.. kalo elo semua jadi Inul.. If U were Inul, apa yang bakal lo kerjain...?? Keputusan apa yang bakal lo buat? Tindak lanjut apa yang akan lo buat?? kasih komen yah!!

btw thanks yah buat yang kasih komen kemaren!! Love u all!!

IF U WERE INUL U WOULD.....

2003-04-28T04:12:00.000-07:00

The Decision Has Been Made

Concidering all the things.. including about parents and pride, I have come to a big decision to stay in Jakarta temporarily at least for couple of months. Am going to finish my last thesis and find a job here, then when am finished with my school, then I will move to Bali no matter what my parent's say. Hope that they bless me by that time. How about that Paul of UK? c4ble 6uy?

Akhirnya gw bisa bikin keputusan. Setelah mempertimbangkan baik buruknya.. komen temen2 smua, menilai, menilik, dsb, akhirnya saya memutuskan tetap di Jakarta sementara waktu sampe saya selesaikan skripsi saya yang kabarnya ga kelar kelar itu. Setelah itu gw akan nyoba lagi minta pengertian mereka untuk melepas gw pergi. Masalahnya kalau gw tetep tinggal di Jakarta orang tua gw akan terus maksain ini itu.. sekarang aja mereka lagi berusaha maksain gw untuk macarin seorang co yg baik... tapi lah.. that should be my decision right? my personal life should be out of their bussiness. Tapi kalau pada saatnya nanti beliau2 itu tetep ga kasih ijin, barulah gw ambil tindakan ekstrim, cabut ngejar mimpi gw. Kecuali ada perusahaan di Jakarta yg bisa ngasih gw gaji rp. 6.000.000, stay gw tanpa gw harus mecun. Boleh dong.. Nah sekarang ini gw akan berusaha nunjukin ke beliau beliau itu kalau gw bisa dipercaya.. bisa ngemban tanggung jawab besar terhadap diri gw sendiri.. makanya gw mesti dapet kerja secepet mungkin.. nah gw butuh bantuan kalian semua lagi nih.. kalau ada informasi kerjaan tolong kasih tau gw yah.. please.. *wide smile..wink..wink..* Butuh duit buat bayar bills ma kuliah gw, waks.. slamat tinggal dugem dan sejenisnya.. ini saatnya gw ngirit.. hihihi.. atau ada yang ngasih donasi..??

Btw, thanks a lot for all the comments.. seneng banget punya temen2 yang bermutu, bisa ngasih gw banyak bahan pikiran. Bagus deh.. paling ga stress gw sekarang berkurang, tinggal stress mikirin cari kerjaan baru. Gituh... Lucu juga baca comment nya.. ada yang ngedukung, ada yang ngelarang, ada yang stengah stengah.. Malah ada yg koment pe dua kali demi gw ga berangkat *lirik Udhien* Thanks to Bang Erly, A_prix, Ciphie, Tyas, Udhien, Gembel, Nita, Sundoro, Lisa, Mpeb, Nunique, c4ble 6uy, Ijal. Not to mention the others yg kasih comment offline kayak Aee, Kesih, Tamtam, Lee, Vanya, Nelis, Ipin, Dipa *with valium solutions*, Wia.. aduh.. banyak deh.. sorry deh kalo ga kesebut.. banyak banget sih.. Makasih.. makasih.. I love u all!! Mwuaacchhhh...!!! *maap panda.. nyontek dikit..*

Terpaksa deh Bali nunggu kehadiran gw yang akan memaniskan suasana di sana.. paling ga bule bule ganteng itu harus nunggu gw dulu.. gw juga kan doyan bule.. *lirik Nunique ma Tamtam* Wait for me yah guys..!!

Waduh.. billingnya ampir rp. 15.000, gw ga bawa duit.. ntar deh gw edit lagi yg belom kebagian gw bold namanya atau gw link.. ntar yah.. sabar.. saya mengais2 recehan dulu di kamar adek gw.. huhuhuhu..

2003-04-25T05:58:00.000-07:00

happy Birthday Kesih.. happy birthday papah.. sorry, telat!!

2003-04-18T08:37:00.000-07:00

I'VE GOT TO BREAK FREE!!

I've got to break free from this misery. I've got to get my life. My own life. It suck now, I have to make it better, I have to put it back in the right order, my order. Don't u think so? My parents suddenly asked me not to go to Bali, forbide me is the excact word. They said I've been irresponsible about my life and they don't trust me to go there and live by my own. I've tried, God knows I've tried hard to talk to them and made them understand. But then again, my folks are some kind of parents, one of the kind. They don't really listen, they talk and make decisions. Ones that I have to obey.

I have 2 choices. Here's the situation:

1. I'm staying in Jakarta. keep living with my parents, keep obeying them, jobless for a while *Heaven knows how long is a "while" u know how hard it is to get a job in Jakarta!*, and I have bills to pay every month, forgeting my plans and dreams, being ignored by my parents like now, invisible and so. Keep dreaming that I will have my own independent life someday.

2. Keep on going according to the plan. Try to persuade my dreams, *at least I already have a job waiting there*, prepare my self to live by my own, to be Kere and ga punya duit, but at least, I won't regret someday for not doing something I really want to do. My parents might banned me from tha family, but I will have my pride.

Now, I really need help, so tell me guys, what do u think about my situation?? Let me know okey, Thanks!

2003-04-05T04:05:00.000-08:00

I HATE MY LIFE..!! FEEL LIKE SHIT NOW!! ARGGHHH.....

2003-04-02T01:49:00.000-08:00

Weekend kemaren...

Mabok lagi.. ah.. Mabok lagi.. Ku tak mau.. terus begini..

*eh.. beneran lo Ndoey?*

Thanks and sorry buat Nunique and Mbul temennya, Udhien, Aee, Cassie, Vanya dan dua buntutnya, Cipi, and Za serta adeknya, Diana. I had a good time. Sorry ga bisa ntraktir.. ga punya duit siyh.. whuahuehuehueh...

Special thanks buat Junkierawkstar *with her horor period*, Nurse vanya *with her treatments for all of us*, and Cassie *Momma.. I want my momma!!*. U girls really showed me what true friends are.. Thanks girls!! Luv u all!! U GALS RAWK!!

2003-04-02T00:52:00.000-08:00

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED

Sumpah, ini bukan slogan iklan roko..

I just had a big shock in my life.. something unexpected just happened, blew up my plans.. now, i have to delay some of my plans. One of them is the plan of moving out from home. Now I have to wait for at least a couple of weeks untill i really take off from home. Shoot! I hate this.. Now I have to reschedule everything again. But there's always a good thing out of everything. One of my good friends just told me that she's considering of moving in with me in Bali. She's interested in working there cause it's been really desperate for her living in Jakarta lately. Well, I just hope that she's comming. It's going to be really fun if she came along! keep working on it, sistah!

Things.. sometimes it feels like they have their own mind.. change just like that way far from what we have planned before. The unexpected just happen and the expected seems to be gone just like that. That is just why we always have to prepare everything well, and always be ready for the unexpected so we won't get really shock if things don't turn up well as we have planned. Am I correct??

Hmm.. Now, I really have reschedule everything again. Try to put my life back in the right order again. I realized that lately my life has been messed up and need some cleaning up.. tiddy up.. and that's a must, so I can start a new fine life in Bali later on *Still, expect the unexpected there*. So please guys.. put all ur hands together and wish me luck!! Thanks!!

2003-03-23T18:37:00.000-08:00

"GOOD BYE JIS"

Akhirnya! Ini hari terakhir gw kerja di PIE JIS. Finally! Selesai juga. Ga sangka akhirnya hari ini dateng juga. I have to start a new life from now on! Glad? Tell me about it. I had about enough with my boss. A very selves woman I may say. thanks for the appreciations all these time, mam, really touching! Glad to leave u!! so long, have a nice life!! Bubbayyyy!!

Sad? Sure. I had great times there. Banyak dapet pengalaman, temen2 baru yg baik2, anak2 murid yg walaupun annoying tapi tetep manis2, special kids like Min-Ki, Ross, Will, and Lance, and so many other things. God, I have to leave them all behind from now on. I’ll keep u all in mind forever! Moga2 gw bakal dapet hal yg ga kalah hebatnya nanti setelah gw sampe dan kerja di Bali. Doa’in gw yah guys!
Special friends I’d like to thank for all the wonderful and crazyfriendship there: Bang Abdul dan Bang Hendra, Dr. Nelis, Budi and Thony *despite of everything that happened between u two, I really wish that u two will forgive me.. hehe.. gw yg ngutang lo bedua yg bingung.. sorry yah bo!!!*, Ining, Anto, Munaya *salam bitchy bitchy!*, Ketua KONI pusat Ferdi and Sisca nya *sorry to miss ur wedding guys!*, Bapak Supervisor Yudhi, Didiek *thanks for the html lesson diek!*, Ari McDowell *damn, ur wedding too*, Sapi Cilla, Niti Tohir ku yg tercinta *thanks for the Y!M man, u saved my days!* Crazy Nurse Dewi, Bitchy Michelle, krisna, Mba’ Tika *salam buat sang suami!*, juga buat Adek, pengganti gw yg udah bantuin gw 2 hari ini *ucapan gw buat elo cuma.. SLAMAT BERJUANG SIS, PLEASE SURVIVE!!*dan semua dari milis Temenpie. U all rawks guys! Gonna miss u all like crazy! And one more thing that I will surely miss.. Internet gratis.. hwaa.. starting from now on I have to pay some money just to check my mails and blogging.. hwaaa…
Well, moga2 deh apa yg gw dapet dari JIS jadi pengalaman dan berguna buat hidup gw. Amien!

Apa lagi yah? Soal invasi Amerika ke Iraq? Wah, no comment deh, yg jelas comment gw udah disuarakan ma semua demonstran di seluruh dunia. One thing for sure, let’s do it for the humanity, not just for politics or even bringing the religion issue up! Just humanity!

A little something for:
Aee: I miss u sis, lo jadi ke Bali kan?
Cipi: Turut berduka atas berpulangnya kakek mu, tabah yah nduk, salam buat keluarga!
Udhien: minggu depan giliran saiyah yah ditraktir ke Jams..
Sonny: thanks for helping me out with my links plus akhirnya minggu ini gw bangun pas jam 12 siang.. whauhauha.. nonton juga gw Gilmore girls minggu ini!
Vanya: Girls gotta teach guys some lesson right? Kill ‘em all!!
Alfa: I’m serious, cerewet lo itu emang mesti dikurangin fa!
Ibu EO: kemana aja sih bu? Ko ga pernah nongol? Kapan next gathering?
Vee: gw kuliah di Sahid ambil Humas *walaw ga kelar2, Panda, tungguin gw yah!*
Inna: jadi nonton weekend ini kita?
Ijal: sincere thanks for Saturday, u’ve been a wonderful friend all these time and u still are. Thanks my man!
Finia: the decision has been made! Btw, kapan pulang bu? Pengen dugeman bareng nih!
Iqbal and Za: kapan kita billiard an lagi? Uda lama nih!
Wia: I miss ur long emails!
Apri: dah sembuh belom, ayoks ke Bali bareng!!
Erwin: mana pertanggung jawaban lo atas layout gw yg baru? Ayoh dong! Thanks!

2003-03-23T18:18:00.000-08:00

"THANKS GUYS, LUV U ALL!!"

Finally, the decision has been made. We are trying again one more time. We both are hopping that this will work out and we all can be happy. However, two different people who were completely strangers at first finally met and made a rush decision to be together after only two days of meeting, off course, we need more time to get to know each other. What does he like and doesn't, what I like and I don't. What can we do and what can't. So now, after the endless fights and heavy days, we're giving us another try. We'll see what will happen from this point. And I have u all to thank for all the supports and even provocations *lirik Alfa, Udhien, and Cipi*. Thanks guys for everything. Special thanks to Finia, Dipa, Aee, and Vanya, and Thony. U guys were there when I needed u, thank u for listening to our silly problem! Let's hope that we both can and will survive through any other rains ahead us.. *ciyeee.. gw ngomong apaan sih??*
And for Bry.. Luv u babe!! Muwaacchh..!!

2003-03-17T23:35:00.000-08:00

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I LoVe hiM.. I Love hiM NoT.. I LoVe hiM.. I Love hiM NoT.. He LoVes mE.. He LoVes mE nOt.. He LoVes mE.. He LoVes mE nOt.. PutUs.. TeRuS.. PutUs.. TeRuS.. PutUs.. TeRuS.. PutUs.. TeRuS.. .. ...

Life is all about Choices isn't it?? Which is the best.. which is the right one.. which is...

2003-03-14T01:33:00.000-08:00

CONGRATS BUAT AEE.. SARJANA YAH BU!!!!

Gw kapan nyusul yah?? Hwaa... doain dong....

2003-03-12T22:03:00.000-08:00

No Tittle

I have been sick for three days. Running nose, spinning head, sneezing the entire time, coughing, feel like being beaten up. Maybe I’ve been working and gone out too much. Maybe I should have taken more rest. Maybe... But I have fun so far. Umm, what can I write here now?

Weekend. I had a great weekend. Saturday, went to Pasar Festifal for the Blogbugs gathering. Met Udhien, Erly, Ibu EO kita, Banto, Tamtam, Dipa, Adith, Erwin, Iqbal, Cassie, Doddy the Nasgorkam *yg blakangan baru ketauan ngerjain gw ma Vanya, btw, dod, roko ma korek lo ketinggalan tuh, di embat Panda!*, Za, Panda Ceria, Ita the new girl, Nita, and some other girls I don’t know their names *sorry girls!*. It was fun and the band played good music. Then went to TIM to meet Tyas there. Met Ulan and Ismail, two of my high school friends *are u two finally together? What’s taking u guys so long?*. Cause the band in front of the 21 TIM played good music, Ibu EO, Dipa, Panda, Cassie, Bry and I decided to stay longer. Hanged out, dance a bit, made pictures and a video Clip and watched Cassie with full guts forgetting her embarrassment and sang a song. Cheers to Cassie, way to go sis! Then I met my Drama Club friends and I finally literary dragged Koko Kris to call my mom and asked for her permission to stay longer and watched the midnight show. “Maid in Manhattan” *Romehe banget kalo kata Panda*. There I was, finally not being a Cinderella anymore. Home by 3am. Yipeeeee!!!

Sunday? Boring! Only went to warnet to surf and chat a while. Alfa, u could be so annoying sometimes!

Monday? Work.. work..arrgghh.. Why did I keep on sneezing?

Tuesday? Sick.. didn’t go to work.. would say Yipeee.. if only my head wasn’t spinning. Hey, I have an SMS BOX here now at my blog *Thanks Bry.. again..*, give it a try guys, send me something.. nice please.. ;p

Wednesday? Stayed home, went to a doctor, read “The Princess Diaries, Take Two” *I know I’m not a teenager anymore, but I’m bored and ill, give me a break will u!!* I borrowed from Aee the other day. And spending the rest of the night cursing on someone who promised to come and see me but never showed up, and guess why?? Sleeping as always! *I wish I had his voodoo doll here with me* hrrrr….. Anyone can make a wild guess?? Ha!

Ok, work is waiting for me. I still have loads of work to be done. Thanks to my lovely boss who seems doesn’t feel like wanting to waste my energy at all. Hrrrr.. will anybody do me a favor? Kill her at once please.. or at least send her back to New Zealand so she won’t put anybody else in trouble anymore. Poor her new aide who’s going to replace me, tabahkan hatimu nak!! Less then two more weeks to go Ndoey, calm down, u’ll be away from her very soon! Very soon! So take a deep breath and beat them all!!

2003-03-06T23:33:00.000-08:00

Have A Nice Weekend Everybody

Ini hari yg paling gw tunggu tunggu.. minimal, gw bakalan istirahat trus majang tampang gw di rumah biar nyokap bokap seneng gw ada di rumah. Weekend kemaren gw abisin di Bogor. ceritanya temen2 kantor gw ngadain farewell party buat gw.. eh.. maen kartu semaleman rame rame.. minum deh sedikit.. sialnya gw cepet bgt nge drop nya.. padahal vodka ma pilsener doang.. gw rasa sih karna gw ga ngapa2in, cuman duduk sambil main kartu, jadinya yah begituh.. mana gw campur2 gitu minumnya.. semuanya masuk.. sebel bgt, jam 1/2 2 an gw udah ngantuk abis gituh. untung bangun lagi jam 5an. Terusin main kartu sambil poto2 deh. Pagi sarapan mi dibikinin ma yg kalah main truf, trus siap2 pulang. Sialnya ujan dan gw juga males pulang gituh. Walhasil gw stay di sana betiga ma Tamtam dan Nelis yg punya rumah ampe hari senin gituh. Enak bgt sih, cuman laying down, ngeroko, gosip, trus ga ngapa-ngapain. mandi aja gw males bgt tuh *lirik Tamtam..* Pulang baru sadar.. hwaaa.. besoknya mesti kerja lagi.

Ini hari sih sepi bgt, ga ada kerjaan gw. Ada sih, cuman ga pengen dikerjain karna suasananya weekend kali yah *nyari kambing item aja lo ndoey*. Kebetulan ga ada murid soalnya ni hari ada Parent Conference, pertemuan orang tua murid ma guru, jadi sepi. Tapi tadi pagi ada kabar buruk gituh, salah satu kolega kerja gw yg emang udah lama sakit akhirnya meninggal dunia stelah dirawat kurang lebih 3 bulan di RS. Kena kanker tulang dan baru ketauan bulan Desember kemaren udah stadium 4. Kasihan bgt deh. Yah, for the best deh, abis kayaknya idupnya setelah ketauan sakit menderita bgt. Ditinggal suami tapi ga bisa cerai karena Katolik. Suami tinggal di Manado trus 15 taunan dia ngebesarin anak2 nya sendirian. Salut gw, kelihatan capek banget sih hidupnya. Gw inget, waktu beliau masih ada, seneng banget deh dia cerita soal 2 anaknya. Selalu cerita pandainya, ganteng dan cantiknya, prestasinya, kegiatan gerejanya.. semua deh. Gw jadi sadar, kalo hidup itu emang bener2 unpredictable. Abis, sebelum beliau ketauan sakit kanker, hobinya olah raga. Tiap pagi hobinya shoot basket, lari pagi, padahal umurnya udah 53 tahun. Trus seneng numpang toilet ruang module gw sampe salah satu guru di sini mo mintain duwit gopek setiap kali dia pake toilet di sini. Orangnya enerjik banget. Ga ada yg tau deh kalo beliau itu sakit, taunya sakitnya parah banget. Hidup itu bener2 mesti dinikmatin selagi masih ada. Terutama kesehatan. Baru kerasa banget how precious it is kalo kita udah sakit. Gw bener2 mesti brenti ngeroko ma minum yah? Kapan yah?
Skalian juga gw sadar liat perjuangan dia sebagai Ibu. Gw inget nyokap gw. Gimana gw sering banget berantem ma beliau. Belakangan ini juga, padahal kan gw bakal tinggal jauh dari keluarga.. hwaa.. ini mesti berhenti! Memang, banyak bgt Ibu yg punya penderitaan jauh lebih berat dari Ibu Rita ini, tapi gw bener2 salut. Moga2 aja deh, beliau ada di tempat yg jauh lebih baik sekarang ini.. wherever that is. And.. Ma.. I love u!!

Besok sih rencananya mo ikutan gatheringan nya Blogbugs yang katanya di Pas Fest ituh. Ibu EO kita yg kasih tau kabarnya. Moga2 aja rame acaranya, biar seru ah. Tinggal 3 minggu lagi gw di jakarta, mesti dimanfaatin abis2 deh hari2 gw.. minimal buat liat2 semua tempat. Biar gw nanti ga homesick. Ah, bawa Digicam ah besok.. mumpung gw belom kluar dari JIS, puas2 in make Digicam.. hmm..

Udah ah, temen2 kantor gw nunggu gw buat main galasin ma tak gebok, ini kan jatahnya Sport Friday! Ngeroko dulu kali yah? *Loh..??*

Btw, kalo banyak yg protes soal tag board, ke Tamtam deh, gw ga ngerti, dia tuh yg tanggung jawab, gw juga skalian mo protes sih, masak tampang nya Cassie yg monopoli di situ.. ini kan blog gw.. waiyah.. ;)

2003-02-27T23:36:00.000-08:00

Just adding a little something. U might have seen this at Aee's blog, but since I got my cute pictures in it, why don't I just link it? Take a look!! Cute ha? The Magnificient Four Strikes In!

2003-02-27T18:59:00.000-08:00

Ini dia entry yang sebenernya daku mo posting 2 hari yang lalu!

WE LOST OUR CELULLAR PHONES??

I had an appointment with Aee at Bry’s place last Monday. She was going to handle me some papers which needed for the application letter to replace me at work. The three of us had fun, rujakan, laughed, and talked from bullshit to numerology. Then I just realized that it was late already. Not too late, only 8pm, but u know me being a Cinderella and it was work day. So we got hurry and went home. Waiting for Aee’s bus, I realized something missing. Wakss.. I left my celphone back at Bry’s place!! And it was too late to go back and get it. So I was so worry, cause at least I needed the alarm of the phone to wake me up the next morning *daku kan lagi boke’ jadi ga lucu kalo telat trus harus bayar taxi sendiri*. Panic because it was late enough to go home, thinking about my celphone, and Aee’s bus, which took so long to show up, I had a brilliant idea. Told myself “why don’t I make something up to tell my parents so I can get away for being late (again)? Got it!”. Then I went to a public phone and called home. With the actress talent that I have, I called home and said “Ma.. I lost my celphone, hwaa..!!!” then told her that I was back at the office again to try to find my celphone but still couldn’t find it. They bought it and believed me. There u go, I had an excuse to get home late. Clever ha! Wait till u hear what happened the next day!

Afterwards, we went back to Bry’s place to get the phone. But hey, since I had an excuse already, why didn’t we spend a little more time there? And so we did. Went home later at around 10pm, showed my parents my sad face *with my celphone in my purse in silent mode*, listened to my parent’s lecture about how important being careful about my stuff and about me had to stop being clumsy, I went to bed. I got away from this, but yes, I had to live with the guilty feeling for lying to them.

The next day, I called home and told my mom that one of the cleaning service found my celphone and nicely returned it to me in one piece and without any harm. My parents were glad. After work I went to Bry’s place *ga bosen-bosen lo Ndoey?* again. He took me home at around 7:45pm by Blue Bird taxi. Right in front of my gate, he realized something. He couldn’t find HIS celphone! It turned out that it slipped accidentally from his pocket when we were in the taxi. The taxi was already gone; worse, we didn’t even remember the taxi’s number, and the worst that the phone was off at that time, so we couldn’t call the phone to let the driver realized that we left it in the cab. Hwaa.. was it God’s punishment?? For lying about loosing mine the night before? Hwaa.. whatever it was, he still lost his celphone. U know how expensive celphones these days. Hwaa.. it was hard enough to contact him when he still had it *because it was almost always off and he was always sleeping* but now.. how can I contact him?? Hwaa.. :((

Was it really God’s punishement? It was a too coincidence. Still can’t believe it. I got away with something but someone else got the punishment. Taught me a lesson rite? I learnt! We already called the costumer care, but since we couldn’t remember the taxi number, we didn’t have much hope. Let’s just hope that they can find it however, cross ur fingers please, guys! Hu hu hu..

Eh, Senin, nomat yuks, di TIM. Kayaknya bakal ada Bry, Inna, Cipi, Dipa, dan daku tentunya sebagai bintang tamu.. hi hi hi.. ada yang mau ikutan?? mumpung libur kan? *ko jadi OOT ginih?*

2003-02-26T23:52:00.000-08:00

Disketnya ngaco!!

Daku tau dari kemaren kalian smua udah ga sabar nunggu cerita baru dari daku, nunggu update-an baru. Mohon maap, daku sibuk tiada terkira. Pekerjaan benar-benar menyita waktuku *tsahh..*. Maunya dari kemaren, abis pulang kerja daku juga dibajak oleh pacar daku, jadi jarang punya kesempatan online. :D. Maklum ngejar waktu, bulan depan kan kami berdua mesti berpisah.. hu hu hu.. (kemaren kami baru sebulanan dunk!)

Akhirnya sempet juga pulang malem dua hari yang lalu ngetik postingan baru, ngetik di rumah sambil terkantuk kantuk sekaligus semangat karena baru aja terjadi sesuatu yg lumayan penting buat kami berdua. Selesai ngetik, di save lah di disket, mo di post di kantor, soalnya kan masih ga bisa online di rumah.. *Inna, mana kabelnya, katanya mo beliin daku kabel panjang baru??*. Sampe kantor besok paginya, daku sempet2 in deh kabur ke Social Studies Room buat posting doang, eh, dengan manisnya muncul tulisan "The disk isn't formated yet, would you like to format it now? Yes? No?" Hwaaaa... sebel banget, soalnya daku ga save di hardisk, percaya diri banget cuma nge save di disket. padahal malam itu daku coba 2 kali loh buat liat bisa apa ga. Sebel banget kan. Daku ga tega juga baca postingan client client daku di tag board yang baru, yang minta blognya di update. Gituh! Walhasil belom sempet deh daku posting baru. Ntar malem deh daku coba inget2 lagi apa isi mantan calon postingan waktu itu, kali2 aja masih inget, abis isinya lumayan gituh..

Btw, tag board daku emang udah ganti, tepat di hari ketika Dekap udah jalan lagi. And for your information only, yang buatin tag board barunya bukan daku, inisiatip pacar daku ituh. Makanya Doneeh kalo mo protes ma dia ajah, otreh!!

Ah.. pulang ah, udah sore, pacar saiyah kan udah nunggu.. huahuahauaua.. Inna, jangan sirik yah!! Whauhauahuah...

2003-02-16T20:35:00.000-08:00

PENCULIKAN!!

Gw sebel tadi malem karena dengan suksesnya diculik Mayasari Bakti jurusan Kampung Rambutan-Grogol. Di UKI dengan sopan dan manis gw buka percakapan dengan keneknya,
Gw :“Bang, tau gedung Satria Mandala?”
K :”Tau neng.”
Gw :”Lewat sana gak bang?”
K :”Lewat, ayoh naik!”

Maka naiklah gw dengan sempurna. Duduk di salah satu kursi bareng bapak2 tua sambil nahan pedihnya mata karena banyaknya mas-mas yang asyik ngeroko tanpa peduli sekitarnya. Gw tahan sih asap roko, tapi ga di dalem bis yg panas dan cukup penuh sesak begitu dong! Pasrah, mau apalagi, duit di dompet tinggal selembar lembarnya, ya maksain diri deh naik bis itu. Bukannya kesombongan, tapi sejak gw kerja di JIS gw terbiasa naik taxi, ya karena emang disediain taxi gratis pulang pergi dari dan ke kantor. Makanya gw jarang naik bis. Ya kalo ga disediain, mana kuat kantong gw nahan mahalnya arus argo taxi-taxi itu.

Inget anak2 yang katanya udah nungguin gw di halte satria mandala, gw sempet bahagia liat bis nya meluncur masuk jalan tol. Clingak-clinguk selewat tugu pancoran, takut kelewat. Feeling gw mulai jelek. Akan dibawa ke manakah gw? Ko kayaknya bisnya ga punya niat gitu buat keluar jalan tol. Waks, beneran aja, Gedung Satria Mandala nya dilewatin begitu aja di bawah jalan tol. Gw sempet mikir, ini emang gw dikerjain kenek bis ataw gedungnya udah pindah ya? Perasaan gw sih gak jauh sebelum seberangnya Planet Hollywood. Nah lo, ini ko malah terus aja lewat tol? Gak lama lewatlah komdak, ko belum keluar juga pikir gw? Waduh, apa gw cakep banget yah sampe mo diculik ma kenek bis? Waduh..

Ga lama setelah komdak, masih di atas tol, keneknya manggil gw,
K :”Mbak, katanya gedung mandala, siap2 mba’!”
Gw :*sambil misuh2* “Iya Bang, turun sini deh!”

Maka turunlah gw, walah, ko ini di depan Gedung MPR? Paniklah gw, sambil nyumpah2 ternyata gw masih harus loncat pager tol dan nyebrang lagi. Ada bapak2, sok2 perhatian gitu ma gw, megangin tangan gw pas loncat. Iya sih, gw trima kasih banget, tapi ko makin ngelunjak. Megangin tangan gw pas nyebrang dan masih mo megangin lagi waktu gw turun tangga sewaktu gw mo nyebrang lewat kolong tol. Wask, bapak, kesempatan banget nih. Langsung aja gw bilang makasih seraya bilang kalo gw masih bisa jalan sendiri. Begitu sampe di seberang gw langsung naik bis jurusan rambutan. Setelah nanya dengan tegasnya sama keneknya apa bis ini lewat planet Hollywood dan bisa turun di situ, naiklah gw. Kali ini bener2 deg degan. Kayaknya cukup skali aja gw diculik mayasari. Planet Hollywood kelihatan gw langsung bediri. Turun buru2 sampe ampir ketabrak mercy yg mau ke masuk ke planet Hollywood *sayang ada ce nya, kalo ga gw udah pura2 ketabrak tuh!*. Terus nyebrang deh gw di jembatan penyebrangan *yg sumpah gw benci banget*. Ternyata penderitaan gw belum berakhir begitu aja. Gw masih harus jalan lagi, ketika tau kalo ternyata itu satria mandala masih jauh dan gw masih bisa turun di jembatan selanjutnya. Sial. Malem2, sendirian, ga jelas bakal ketemuan ma anak2 pa ga (gw takut bgt ditinggal, soalnya mreka udah nunggu lama). Untung aja anak2 masih nunggu gw sambil duduk di depan satria mandala. Ada Udhien, Aee, Cassie, Nunik *kelaparan yah mba’?*, dan Apri. Semangat 45 lah gw cerita ma mreka tentang penderitaan gw. Lanjut ke Gultik. Makan di sana sambil ngobrol macem2. Sampe klihatannya abang gultiknya *yg bukan agus atau adiknya itu* mulai misuh2 karena kami kelamaan duduk di sana. Untung aja di sana gw bisa ketawa2 setelah seharian gw bt banget. Ga jadi ke Bogor untuk ke undangannya temen sma gw yg nikah, ga bisa ikutan main billiard karena ketinggalan anak2, ga bisa hubungin satu orang yg kayaknya ilang ditelen bumi, ga bisa makan enak karena seperti biasa nyokap gw ga masak, sampe ke peristiwa penculikan oleh mayasari bakti dan gerak jalan ke satria mandala. Pulangnya naik blue bird dengan perjanjian patungan rame2 dan disupirin ma driver yg kocak *plus jayuzz* abis. Tambah ketawa2 deh gw di taxi. Sampe lah gw di rumah dengan selamat walaw diikuti oleh pandangan mata nyokap gw yg penuh selidik *gw ngakunya kondangan.. he.. ;p* gw berhasil mulus masuk kamar. Sorry mam, mesti boong lagi, abis ga bakal di kasih kalo bilang mo main billiard! ;p

Eh, ngomong2 soal peristiwa penculikan mayasari bakti, itu sebenernya gw diculik ataw gw yg dudul sih karena ga tau jalan?

2003-02-16T17:38:00.000-08:00

Promises?

What is it with human and promises?? Should everybody keep his or her own promises? Especially the ones the person made himself? To tell u the truth, it’s a bit confusing to me. I’ve been thought all my life to keep my promises, but all I see around me, so many people don’t keep theirs. Promises, especially the ones really important and concern other people is really important to me. Should be important too for everybody. Even the simple ones, like appointment with a friend or something. I find it’s just so easy for some people to ignore that. Is it okey?

I always try to keep my promises. But I wonder why is it so hard to keep promises that I made to myself. Just example, long time ago I feel in love with the wrong kind of guy, and then I started to feel bad cause this guy didn’t seem to care at all (hrrrr…). Then I made a promise to my self that I had to forget him as soon as possible, but then I didn’t keep it by keep falling for him and felt devastated afterwards. Thank God it was over. High school romance.
Made a promise to my self to save my money and save them for better things, I used them all instead. For partying and hang out all the time. Now, not only that I’m broke, I made my parents angry for going out too often and always got home late at night.
Made a promise not to use the net at home more than half of hour a day, I used it more than 3 hours a day. Now, the phone bill is ready to strangle me and chock me to die.. *help..help..*
This is the worst, I promised myself not to hurt anybody's feeling, look what I've done. I just hurt a girl's feeling couple days ago. Then I've been feeling so bad until now. I don't know how to clean this mess up, all I know that she's hurt, real hurt. I can't clean the mess up cause the things are so complicated. I don't know what should I do about this. This is a real mess. I was so selves to let my ego did the talking to her. I didn't care about her feelin until it was all too late. Finia, when will u have free time, I need some of ur advice, please..

Some promises are hard to keep. Sometimes I wonder, if somebody doesn’t keep their promises, does it mean that they don’t care or does it mean that they’re just some liars? Some people just easily make promises they don’t even realize that they made them. Hmm.. Weird ha? Promises are more like a responsibility I guess. Ones who make them should always try their best to keep them. And the ones who oftenly don’t keep their promises, is it wrong if I call them liars? Are they liars or just being irresponsible? Or even just forgetful? Should I trust them again? Isn’t it normal if I choose not to trust them again? Some people do this. Some people I even care a lot. Should I trust them again?

The easiest answer for those questions above is “life is complicated”. A clise term I guess, but it’s true. There are so many kinds of people around us. We don’t always get what we want. We don’t always get what we’ve been promised. Now it’s just up to us to choose who to trust and who not to. Who are the people we can rely on, we can count on. Try the best to keep your responsibilities. And especially for me, try the best to keep the promises I made to myself. Or maybe, in my case, I just do what’s the best, don’t even have to bother myself by making promises, just do it. Am I right? What do u think?

2003-02-14T03:57:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES GUYS!!!!

Share it with anyone u love, friends, family, lovers, or even cyber life.. anyone, anything!! Enjoy the day, lots of hugs and kisses from me!! Kayak Panda Ceria bilang.. “MUWACCCHHHHHHHHH……!!!!!!!”

Two Kisses I had Yesterday...

Just got home but I feel so much like posting, so here I am. There are things that happened today. Stressed up with loads of works like usual, and other things. One of the things that made me feel so weird was the act of my students. I don’t know why, but somehow those kids I told u about couple weeks ago turned to be so nice to me. Well, still annoyed but at least they’re nicer now. Lately Ross, Lance, Wil, and Min-Ki have been acting so weirdly. Like I told u before, they used to hug me and they said that they did that cause they wanted to tease me and they loved that, they never admitted that they love or even just like me, just because I’m just their aide and they love to tease me. But this time is a bit different. They all said that they love me so much for being the best friend and being the best aide they ever have. All the time and whenever they have the chance, they hug me and tell me how much they love me. (easy Bry, they're just kiddos!!) It’s weird. Guess what, Lance and Wil even gave me a kiss on my cheek on lunchtime today. At first they looked so shy and gave me a gross look, but then they gave me a quick kiss. It never happened in the past years. Fourth graders tended to be shy, they usually embarrassed when I asked them to hug me, like goodbye hug or even a birthday hug. But this years students.. gee.. never thought so. They’ve been so nice lately, still annoyed as I told u before, but when I ask them not to do something rude and impolite they stop. It’s nice. The boys seem to be closer to me than the girls now. And it happens now when I’m about to leave the school. Only one more month to go. I feel so sad leaving them, they don’t know yet, but sometimes I ask them, “will u guys be missing me if I leave this school?” and their answer is “I sure will be missing miss Eka, cause u’re my best friend”, or even, “I won’t be missing u cause u will never leave this school.” I don’t even know how to tell them that I’ll be leaving less than two months. I’m sure goin’ to miss them so much.

Those things happened to Wil, Lance, and Ross. Not to Min-Ki. He’s okey, a lot sweeter than before, he doesn’t seem to have that high temper again like he had before. But, something is defiantly weird with him. He likes to hug me too, but there’s something different about the hug. He always plays with his genital. It’s weird for a 10 year-old boy. He keeps asking me to see him holding his “willyboy” (supposed to be called Mr. Willy Hose, but since he’s still 10 years old, let’s call it “willyboy”), still under his pants off course. But still weird and gross to me. Then sometimes, actually most of the times, while holding his “willyboy” he says something like “please squeeze my little sausage miss Eka!” with weird face then laughs real hard. Or, “Miss Eka touch my butt please..!!” Or when he accidentally touched my boobs, he said “I touched that, I touched the thingy " (with mupeng gituh). The other boys usually laugh too, but they often say that what he does is rude and impolite then ask him to stop that. But he only laughs. Weird ha? I always ask him to stop, telling him that it’s rude and impolite, but he never stops. I don’t know what he means with all that, but it spoke me most of the times. I don’t want to be a 10 year-old sexual fantasy object or whatever. I really need to talk about this to my boss, his teacher. She needs to know, or maybe, he might turn out to be a maniac someday. Yuccksss..!! I really don’t feel comfortable about all these. Shit, his parents might as well blame me for letting him do that or even hug me. Hwaa… no way!! I’ll tell my boss tomorrow morning, I just hope that it will stop soon. It’s really bad for the development of his personality and to the other kids. Geezzz.. it really has to stop!! What do u guys think the best way to stop him beside telling this to my boss? Cause I’m a bit afraid that he might not trust me anymore since I tell about his act. But it needs to stop! Give me a comment!

Went to Tika’s wedding this afternoon. She’s one of my co-workers and this is her second marriage. I just hope that she’ll be happy with him and finally can settle down. On the way going from and coming back from the school, Budi, Thony and I sat on the same row in our buss. We had a real day. We teased everybody and made jokes all the way. It was really fun. I’m sure goin’ to miss them a lot someday. Sigh..

FOR:
Flavia: I know that u’re so devastated and confused now, come on. Don’t worry! Just give him and urself a while! Ease things up, enjoy life. At least u’re there surrounded by people who love u, ur friend, and u’ll always have Flavio and me to be with u! Wait, and u’ll see how ur feeling really is. Who are u goin’ to give ur heart. Love is always worth to fight for, but sometimes, it’s worth to wait for too. So, hang in there girl! J
Diego: Thanks for ur wishes. I know that my parents only want the best for me. I believe that. I’ll just hold my head up high and do the best for them and for myself! I will survive no matter what. And I know that I’ll survive with their love by my side J Thanks my man! Hope u'll be better soon from the flu!
Wia: Hehehehe… gimana Sapinnya?? Jadi jatuh hati gak?? Kasihan lo, uda desperate gituw ko! Stop being a heartbreaker girl! Poor those guys, have some pitty a bit okey, and please, don’t u ever fool ur self no matter what. Be honest at least to ur self! And Sapin deservers to hear the truth, tell him honestly that there’s only a guy in ur heart and he is Brad and Brad only. He’ll see the big picture! Anyway, how’s the love birds? The Funky Mba’s? How’s everybody? Congrats on that Café Warisan thing! And remember, don’t just jump to a guy’s shower room easily okey! Heeuheiheieh…
Bry: MANA POSTINGANNYA???? INGET MA ULTIMATUM??? EHUAUHAUHAUHA..eh, ko kapital smua..?? Eh, punggungnya yg ketarik gimana?? udah sembuh..?? makanya pelan pelan dunk..
Lee: Hey, now that I already mention ur name here over than 4 times, u still have no comment?? Well at least , u’re not hurt anymore by having ur name here!
Cipi: Kumaha? Naon atuh..?? Udah dapet lelakian buat rayain valentinenya?? Kalo enteu aya di diye aya Min-Ki, murid abdi yg ajaib ituw, kali aja bisa buat mainan iseng2 lo.. yah.. lo apain kek, lo tatar biar ga ajaib lagih!! Euehuehue…
Ijal: Thanks Jal, gw bukannya ilang, tapi miskin abis and ga punya pulsa. Di kantor kerjaan kayak setan trus lo tau sendiri gw ga bisa ol di rumah lagi.. Mau gimana lagi?? Yg pasti minta oleh2 dari Papua.. asal jangan koteka.. heueihiuiehiehei… One thing for sure Jal, u’re always special to me too, always! Thanks for being such a best friend!
Nelis: Jangan kau tangisi handphone adek mu yg hilang itu nduk.. sing sabar yah!
Aee: Chin up girl! Don’t waste ur life and thought by thinking about those guys, find somebody else, kayak ga laku ajah! Relax! As I told u, Masih banyak ikan di lautan sana, jangan dipancing, dijala aja biar skali dapet banyak and punya pilihan..otreh!!
Nunique: Glad to have u back.. to tell u the truth, I don’t care with everything’s goin’ on with u and anybody, being antagonist player or the heroin, I don’t care, all I know is that we’re all just trying to have fun. So, lighten up, chill up all of u, don’t let anything not really important bugs our way and friendship, we’re better than that! Just chill out and have fun! We’re all young, what else should we do?
Yudha: Met ya Dha, smoga kebahagiaan slalu bersama lo, sering dengan lahirnya harapan baru untuk masa depan.. tsahh.. bener tuh gw yg ngomong?? Euehieh slamat yah Yudh, salam buat Istri ma anak!
Gembel: Mo sampe kapan lo mobile? Settle dunk, benerin to sambungan internet di kantor lo.. ga lucu kalo ginih!! Kalo ga bakar aja kantor lo.. *loh, ko jadi kriminal gini??*
Cassie: Kapan gituh ke maduma nya?? J btw, sorry yah pidatonya, taun depan lo yg nguasain dewh!!
Vanya: Udah kelar bu UAS nya? Tugasnya? Daku doakan dari sini..
Inna: Valentine nya gimanah? Kado buat gw kabel telpon yg panjang itu kan?? Ya uda, gpp ko, yang penting bentuk perhatian..heuiieh… eh, mana gituh layout warna itemnya..?? lupa sampeyan!!
Dipa: Thanks Dip for being there for me. I owe u a lot, thanks for being my trash can! Btw, jadi banjir ga??
Alfa: hey, got any solution for the Min-Ki case dunk..

2003-02-12T00:07:00.000-08:00

All Day At JC

2003-02-09T22:49:00.000-08:00

Tag board gw ke mana... Dekap.... TANGGUNG JAWAB!!!! Hwaaa........... :((

2003-02-09T21:44:00.000-08:00

Take me away please..

I am in deep shit right now. I don’t even know when will this be over. I hate being here right now, how I wish that I were far away from here being with only myself. This thing is only irritating me and taking really big energy and mind. Wish I were in different situation.

Tell you what happened. I was so happy during weekend. Well, part of the weekend. Friday, the weekend started. After work I went to Bryan’s place, he had a little problem with someone at that time. With someone who used to be really close to him, let’s say his ex girlfriend. And he needed to solve things out with her cause (from what he said) that this girl really wanted him back, to have another relationship cause she loved him so much (hmm, rentetan perempuannya). So I went there, waited for him, met this girl. She was a really sweet girl. Nice and good looking too. But he told me that he didn’t have any feeling for her anymore than just being a friend. I felt sorry for this girl. I mean if he doesn’t love her anymore, why should she cried and begged for him. She deserves better. Better someone for her. Better relationship rather with someone who doesn’t love her anymore. Am I right? Too bad, I wish I could talk to her and open her eyes, let her know that there are so many things the world can give her if she wants to. So many people out there she can be with if she just be her self and feel good about her self. Yes, I know, she’s in love, but she sure deserves better person rather than someone who doesn’t love her anymore. True, that love is worth to fight for, but she tried already, and that’s enough. Don’t embarrassed ur self even more girl, u deserves better!! And for sure Bry deserves to be with someone else too.
I left both of them to finish their business (which wasn’t mine); afterwards, Bry and I talked a bit about this. I hope things are better for her now, I was so worry about this girl that I asked him to call her again just to know if she’s home already and alright. I wish the best for her. We had dinner at Pondok Ayam Kabita, and then I went straight home.

Saturday, Cipi came to pick me up to go to Melawai. Some of the Blogbuggers had a plan to play billiard at JC Melawai. We were the first arrived. Played a bit then they came. Nunique, Gembel, Za, Udhien, Iqbal and two of his co workers, Novian and Imam (damned Mam, u’re good! Teach me please!). We had fun there, at least I had. Had dinner at Gultik (it’s Agus’s brother now), took some pictures, really had fun. Lee, one of my friends from Melbourne called, talked to Cipi for a while too. Then Bry came. Bry and I went to Bulungan to wait for Aan SBJ and left to TIM to see “Shanghai Knights” (quite funny mesti maksa, not bad at all). Had roti bakar keju before heading home, and finally got home around 3am. And this was where all the fun ended.

My parents freaked out. Geezz, they were screaming out loud, shouted at me, cause I got home so late. I think it’s usual to go home late, hey, it’s weekend. I busted my butt hard enough everyday at work; I deserve a little fun on weekend please! They thought, cause they saw me went home with Bry I got wild or something. Actually they still think that way. Godamit, they even called me names. I know that they’re just being parents, they care about me and they’re angry, but I just wish that they could ask me, just ask me and listen to me, not judged me easily like that. They don’t know what have I done at that night. If only trusted me. What got me really upset was to think that I’m a grown up. I’m 24 now, and soon will be 25 this year. I have a job and I take care of my self. Shouldn’t I have the privilege to make my own decisions? I have so many friends like that and they’re even younger than me! What should I do now? All I wish now that if only it was march already, so I would be living by my self and make my own decisions. God, I didn’t even do anything wrong that night. I didn’t even drink or anything! And why should they bring Bry in this prob? Cause they saw him took me home? He’s just being nice and responsible by dropping me home that night. Why did they say that since I met him I’m getting wild? I am the same person as before I met him. Nothing has change, I’m only happier. I wish my parents would be willing to know him, not just judge him without even wish to know who he really is. I’m really sorry about this Bry, if only they knew u! I tried so hard to explain what happened but they wouldn’t listen, so I finally just sit silently and went to my room. Was it the end? Guess again! They took a scissor and cut the phone line to my room. Now, not only I can’t make and received any phone calls, the worst, I can’t even get connected to the net. Hwaaaa… I hate that so much!! Now I have to go to some warnet to get online, and I can’t do it very often cause my parents will be angry again cause I spend a lot of time outside again. And the history will keep on repeating. Hwaaa….. I hate this. Thank God, I have Bry, Dipa, and Lee (I never thought that u could be wise too sometimes ;p) who are nicely to call me and talk to me. Thanks guys for being there for me. This isn’t even ur problem, but thanks for listening to me. I really appreciated that.

Wow, that’s a long posting! I guess that’s just cause I really need to talk. That’s just about it I guess. I know one thing, that my parents only want the best for me, and they just care about me. Too bad that this is the way they choose. I hope that things will get better and better. Yes, I’ll be grounded for a while (hope not too long, I can’t just use the net at the office, I’ll be too busy working) but I’ll get back on my feet. I just hope that time flies faster, so I can just go to Bali and start my new life there. I know that I will miss my parent’s and family’s attention or even their anger too once I live by my own far away from home like what u feel now Lee, so I guess, I’ll just enjoy their affections for me now like u told me. I’ll sure be missing it but I’ll go anyway, so, be ready for me Wia!! Wish me luck and the best guys! Thanks!

2003-02-04T18:20:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT ULANG TAUN FINIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-02-02T16:10:00.000-08:00

h e a r t b r o k e n g i r l p a r t y

f o u r i n o n e ( m i n u s A e e )

2003-02-02T10:37:00.000-08:00

Monday, here i come!!

Another day passed by. Darn, I wish it were still weekend now. One of my plans for today is to tell my boss that I’m goin’ to resign soon. I bet this will get her. She’s a nice lady actually, but I just have to say this and I need to have new experiences in my life, so whatever she says, I’ll still be leaving. I’m not going to say that I’m moving to Bali, I’m just goin’ to say that I need to concentrate to my thesis and I have to finish my school as soon as possible (it’s true, even though I still can’t manage it). If I tell her that I’m resigning cause I want to move to Bali and find a job there, she’ll be devastated, she asked me to fill the manager position for her hotel in Bali three times already. But I just don’t feel like working there. Not to mention she already lost 3 managers now for another job. Poor her actually, but what can I say now, I have to catch my dreams, right?

What happened yesterday. Umm, stayed at home during the day, just laying down and did nothing. Talked with ibu nunique and ai over the phone, gossiping as usual. Only went out for dinner and hanged out at Dotnet warnet with Tamtam. Fun enough. Chatted with vanya the princess and her dreamlover kaka, also with ai (again, why did I end up with this girl over again? Can u answer this ai?? Kekekkekekekk..). Sent me those pics of handsome guys (for her, only one of them was cute and he’s taken already, darn! *wink to tamtam* Went home around 11pm with my dad ngomel2 cause I went out at night again, thanks God mom’s not home, and me just gave him a big smile and went to my room. Sorry dad!

Hope no more problems to go out next weekend, planning to go out with the guys. Pool or whatever, I don’t care, I just want to have good time. Ai already shouted at my ears over and over again about this, iya Ai, I’ll work this out, next week okey!! Ibu nunique, cipi, za, cassie, panda and itha, dhien say, bhotax, iqbal, and anyone else, wanna join us?

Another plan is to go nomat this afternoon, will there be a nice movie to watch? Hope there will. Then I’m planning to take some pictures, maybe at photobox, let see what will happen tomorrow. But I sure hope to have s good time. Hope won’t be too late to go home, I have to save my time and stay home oftenly so I won’t have any problems goin’ out next weekend. I know nique, that I’m 24 already, but they’re just being parents now.. sigh..

And the last but not least, would like to say..congrats bu nique for the real good time u had from 3 to 3 the other night. Had a real great time ha? Congrats bu!! Glad that everything went up well, hope that it will last okey! Once again congrats ya bu!!

2003-02-02T02:15:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU UDHIEN!!

Udhien, thank u very much yah Say.. Ga sangka kalo lo ikut bantuin.. ternyata Udien memang bukan sekedar janji palsu..heuhuehu.. thanks yah babe..
For everybody to know, this Tag board and the link for the comments were brought by DhienSay and Tamtam.. Thanks yah guys, love u both!! Mwacchhhh..!!!

2003-02-01T01:35:00.000-08:00

HWAAAA.....

Ga nyangka jadi gini blog gw.. thanks so much to Bryan who made this all come true!! And also thanks to Udhien who made at least just promises. However I still need so much help to make my blog even more nicer, more me..!! Still love u babe!! :p.

Last night..?? Hmm.. too bad we didn't make it. Blame it on the rain (and my mom of course!). Sorry to Nunique, Ai, Cassie, Panda, Cipi, Dipa (untung lo blom brangkat), Vanya, and Bryan. Let's do it next week, i don't care where we're goin' let's just go!! Iqbal's idea sounds good, let's play pool, it's been so long and i still have to improve my ability to play good (ighh, kaya yg bisa aja slama ini, *ngedipin cipi*). But at least I had a good time last night. Thanks to Panda and Dipa who were so nicely to call me. Thanks to Tamtam who made my night speciall (salam buat Ms. Juwita... Asereje nya ditarik mang...).

Tonight I'm goin' to sattle everything with my ex, I'm just too tired to face his jealousy and request to be back together over and over again. Hey, life must go on! I'm moving on now, get a life mas, everything will be okey, but please.. let me have my own life back!! I need it!! Cross ur fingers guys!!!

2003-01-31T14:18:00.000-08:00

Gong Xi Fa Choi!!!

2003-01-31T03:00:00.000-08:00

Arrgghhh…

That’s all I want to say about my job!! Hehe maybe since my plan to move to Bali already settled, I kind of feel like I hate my boring job right now. But the kids, they seem so adorable sometimes, I’m going to miss those brats, but I will have my freedom from them soon. Lately I’ve been thinking, and realizing how much I’m going to be missing all my friends here. Things have been pretty excited about my leaving then I just realized that. I’ll be really missing them. Budi, Nelis, Munaya, Thony, Chairul, Didiek, Ferdi, Leli, Crazy Nurse Dewi, Ferdi, Ining, Ari, Sila, Wiwi, Sugi, Bang Abdul and Bang Hendra who always have been there for me. Not to mention the others who were really nice to me. I will be missing them so deeply. Also the Theatre Club, Aan, Cipi, Sweet Dodi, Murni, Icha, Atfal, Tompel, Eva, Agus, Cherys, Hendro, and so on and so on (God, I can’t mention all of their names, hundreds of them!). Beside them, the Blogbugers! My new and nice friends. Too bad it’s pretty late to know them, most of them are really nice and welcomed me a lot. It’s true, that even in cyber world we can find true friendship. I’ll be missing so much those bugs. Hardcore Ai, Underage Pecun Cassie, Princess Vanya, Nut girl Nunique, Compie professor Udhien, Skeptics Mr. P Dipa, Panda (yg terlalu) Ceria (sekali), Hiddenhate Iqbal, Bitchy Za, Kiayi Alfa, Chubby Novie, Itha, Mr. C (for Cerewet with the capital C!!) and many more. Even though I haven’t met all of the members, I know so far I always have fun and I will defiantly miss all of them. Will they all be missing me someday?? Better be, or else I’ll just simply put a spell on their voodoo dolls that I will collect as soon as I got there!! Better watch out guys!!
And most of all, off course, my family. Mom, Dad, Iyo, Herdi, and other relatives. I’ve never really away for so long from them. A bit terrifying, thinking that I will live away from them but hey, it’s a chance for me to grow up!! In the other hand, I’ll be living and having fun with those nice friends of mine in Bali. Wia, Mba’ Mila, Mba’ Sandra, Boim, Dewa, Kade & Yunan, Ida, Bebeh, Suhuan, and many more. Not to mention those benings I might meet there.. Tuink.. tuink.. !! ;D
Bottom line is it’s exciting!!! However I will miss, learn, earn, find, or even maybe loose many things there. Just wish me luck guys!!

This week has been so busy for me. Loads of works ready to bury me, went out with some friends, getting something (or may I say, someone) new (another) Tuink..Tuink.., ;D. Have been tiring but so much fun.

Tuesday, Jan 28

Went out to see a movie at Taman Ismail Marzuki with Bryan, Ai, Cassie and Novie. It was fun, I already watched the movie, it’s My Big Fat Greek Wedding on midnight show couple weeks before with Aan, Tompel, Agus, and Ijal, but since everybody wanted to see that, okey! Afterwards, we got so hungry then went to Bubur Ayam Cikini (again). Looking at poor Ai and Cassie who have been complaining about not having money to go back home, I generously offer to give them some amount of money if they would sing to some guests there. And guess what, they did! (and it’s true, Ai has no shame at all, she’s a living legend for me!! huehuehuehueh) wanna see the whole story with some writing style, check out Bryan’s blog! One thing for sure that I couldn’t stop laughing at that moment. Please girls, do it again!! This time bring your “krecekan” okey!!

Wednesday, Jan 29

Skipped work. I didn’t have my mobile phone which I always use as my alarm in the morning cause I accidentally left my purse in a taxi after the movie. Thank Goodness Bryan realized that I left it and kept it. Asked him to call me at 4.45 in the morning, he woke me up around 5.55am. So my pick up taxi left me already. Then suddenly I felt so lazy that I didn’t wanna go to JIS, so I stayed home and slept again. Ended up hang out with Bry in a kios bakso and warnet.

Tuesday, Jan 30

Field trip to CIFOR Bogor. Got lost in the rainforest with the kids in my group. Arrgghh.. they blamed me about that, keep teasing me about getting them lost, hey kiddos, there were 3 adults with us in our group, why blame only me?? Went to Town Square after work with Bry, hanged around at Starbuck and guess what? Met one of Bry’s long lost girlfriend from Jogja, (one of ur victims, Bry?). Then we went to Blok M after the hard rain, nge warnet sebentar (alfa, u really got me curious about what u told me written in cipi’s blog) then had creambath. Dinner at Ganthari, stopped by to see the Bulungan communities for a while, happy birthday to little chery, then went home. Got home my mom was like dragon. She was pissed by me cause I went home late again. Actually we’re planning to go again on the next day with the guys to well, we can say, making confirmations of their gossips. U know, celebrity like me never really away from gossips no matter what I do!! Hehuehuehueh.. Be ready guys!!!

2003-01-27T05:28:00.000-08:00

Sad or Happy?

Males pake Bold ah...

I am so tired today. Well, tired but happy. Happy maybe cause I feel happy about something else on the same time. Had so many things to be done today at the office, and when I finally had the chance to talk privately with Thony, one of my closest friends at the office during yard duty (u don’t really want to know what yard duty is.. trust me!) at kid’s lunch hour, munaya, another friend of mine just showed up and told me that there were 3 boys wandering around looking for me (not to mention asking people too, can u believe how humiliating is that??). They told her that they wanted to talk to me. I knew exactly who they were. They must be Ross, Min-ki, and Lance. Those boys together with Vincent and Will have been the pain to my neck almost everyday. Bugged me all the time saying that they don’t want be away from me, Lance even called me Mom once. God!!! So I said, who cares! I didn’t want to hang around with them now, all I wanted to do was to sit quietly and had a nice conversation with Thony. But then…hwaaa…. Ross found me..and he was like screaming out loud about how relived his felt to have found me. he told me that Min-ki had a fight with another kid from the other class which was Dong Hi (another Korean boy just like him). Real fight like tried to choke and kick each other. And I just couldn’t believe that!! I mean, there were other teacher’s aides who were having duty near the crime scheme, why did they have to find me who was so far away from where it happened..?? And why always me..?? God, I just hate being too close to kids so much!!! And Ross told me that I was the only one that could help and he asked for my help. And not just Min-ki who already waited for me there, but also Lance, Will, and the new boy, Adam.. my God, they will chance Adam to be one of them..no, Adam is a nice boy..oww God, no more whining boy for me!! so.. I did come to Min-ki finally and asked Dong Hi to have a conversation together the three of us. And they kept on lying about who started first. They both finally cried (even though tried so hard not to, no use boys, u’re still a boy anyway, the tears already flown!!). Guess what, after that, Don Hi started to ask me to do the same thing and talk to another boy who treated him really at school. Luke..oww, the son of the headmaster of 3 JIS campus. What was I going to tell him?? But I called him anyway and asked him never to throw hats again. God, killing me, such problems!!! Ndoey, rush and go to Bali as soon as possible will ya!!

Alright, enough for the sad thing, now the good thing! I went home this afternoon, trying to contact somebody but couldn’t get thru till now, and it’s already evening now. Wonder what happened to that guy? Anyway, a good thing as I promised. I found out..that my mom cooked some food. I had food when I got home, can u believe me?? food and my mom aren’t really good combinations! Her cooks are delicious and she’s a good cook, but she just hate cooking. That’s just all. So I found food and could manage my self to eat in the afternoon. That’s something, even though she only cooked chicken nuggets ( :D ) and sayur oyong, but I just loved it. This things will never happen again in this week I guess.. hehehehe..

Another sad story (God, I though I was happy today?) I read Nunique’s blog just now, and read that she’s having a prob with her import Lifeboy. Can’t believe it! I mean they look so good together. And the sadest thing is that this problem didn’t come from both of them, they love each other and a something just forced to build a hugh, hig and very thick wall between them. So we talked this afternoon (remember this nunique, that was our first session, so, I’m counting okey..hehehe..) and gave her some thought of mine about this all things. I hope that they both will manage the problem and solve it, I mean it’s a pitty to know about all this. I guess they better work hard on this, cause if she let him go I will defiantly sharpen my claws and grab him..God, nique, he’s so goodlooking and nice too!! Better be careful nique, I could be a friend and an evil too..^_^

Hwaa.. I still have things that I have to finish from work. I better finish them, my boss will feel like I’m spoiling her, but guess again, she’ll get shocked when I gave her my resignation letter next month!! :D

2003-01-26T13:54:00.000-08:00

Farewell party for Hanzky

Got an invitation from Blogbugs Milis to join a farewell party for Hanzky & husband who’re leaving to the state this Sunday. With the wish to get to know everybody, I decided to come. Went to Udhien’s office at around 5.30 by taxi then continue with an ojek (it’s a long story why I started with a taxi and ended up with an ojek). Got there, made some phone calls (it’s more like making confirmations and seductions to get ppl to come). Left with Udhien by taxi and finally got to PS. We got there early then met nunique and her bf Troy at the food court. Moved along to café oh la la and met Arie there. Then Dipa showed up. Waiting for some friends, Dipa and I decided to go to 21 to have some cigarettes cause Udhien minded us to smoke there. Smoked there and had a chat with Dipa about couples of things then a man showed up. Dipa introduced us; it’s Bryan known as Tamtam. Langsung nuduh si cerewet padahal belum juga 3 kalimat gw ucapin sama dia. Sial! He left us there to go to the café. When we went to the café turned out that almost everybody had arrived. Met new friends there and ate some pastries then we get to know each others. I met Banto, Vanya, Sari, Ana, Inna, Cassie, Hanzky and husband Rizky, Itta, Iqbal, Cipi, and the others (sorry I didn’t get to know each others so well). It was fun, even though PS had to get rid of us cause they’re closing. Wondering where we’re going, walked here and there and finally decide to go home. Got another invitation to go to T and T warnet for the next day. Went home.

Tried to get online around midnight but darn, couldn’t get in cause suddenly no power in my house. Fell a sleep. Woke up at around 5am then I thought, why not online? So I got online. Thanks God, I had no problem getting in. too bad no one there. I only had a notice from yahoo messenger that some id named myranselbaleno had add me to his buddy list. Wondering who was this guy, I browsed to find out. Hey, it’s Bryan. But too bad, no one’s there. Gladly Karel showed up. We chated a bit then Dipa got online. Then Bryan did. Then Alfa and Aprix too.Wanted to be online only for an hour, I ended up online for 6 hours instead (I’m going to get killed by the bill, save me please!!). Going to sleep but then my mom asked me to make some cakes. Hwaaa… I was so sleepy but I had to do it.

T and T warnet

Tamtam showed up at around 4pm and I wasn’t even ready yet. So he had to wait for about an hour. We left by taxi (banyak duit lo Ndoey tgl begini taksian mulu! Ga juga, Udhien yg bayar ko! Wekk!!) and arrived at Kelapa Gading T and T warnet half of hour later. Arrived already Cassie, Itta, Novie, Tri, and hardcore Sari. Online for a while (nungguin Vanya yg telat buanget!) with Dipa for a while then Nunique and Panda Ceria arrived. We went to the mall to have some dinner. Panda Ceria stayed there. Got a sms from Manatak Subengkek Belahan Jiwa to join him and the others to the midnight movie at TIM. Releasing ourselves from Sari’s evil wish to keep them companied at T and T, Tamtam and I left to TIM by taxi (again??). got there, met the guys and they wished me good luck about my leaving to Bali next march. Watched the comedy movie (that I can’t even remember the title) then decided to go back to T and T. Had a bubur ayam in cikini then got a real hard time getting a nice blue bird taxi (again..????), got there finding out that Panda and Itta arrived already. Online for couple of hour (dengan paha dan pantat sakit pegel2, ada yg nyadar ga sih kenapa?). Online paling garing karna cuma chat ma vanya & sari (yg nota bene online di bilik sebelah) dan Aprix di bandung. Buang buang duwit banget ga sih?? Stayed there until about 5am, went to Pulo Mas to have some bubur ayam breakfast by taxi (what??) cause no more room in panda’s car. Afterward I went home with Tamtam by (another) taxi. The day finished yet? Not really, I went to Pondok Indah to do something. Something really important happened on the way there, another rush decision (I keep doing that lately, wondering why). Went home around 2pm by taxi (not again..) after my mom called my mobile to ngomel2 karna blom pulang juga. Got home at around 2.30, ate some cakes and gado2 (lagi2 sambil diomlein mama karna baru nyampe). Took a bath and straight to bed. God, I was so sleepy. I was so tired but it was really fun. Thanks to Blogbugs who accept me really nicely, those nice and crazy new friends I met and Tamtam who companied me here and there. Too bad I have to go and stay in Bali next march. Guys, can we go out again more often cause I only have 2 more months to go before Bali? And guess what, after counting how many times I took taxi from home to home that whole trip, I found out 7 times. God, untung aja share kalo ga..hwaaa….!!

2003-01-22T02:33:00.000-08:00

Time for myself!!

Another story of mine…thank God, now I have time to update my Blog. Gee, things have been a bit hard for me now. Now that I’m not busy anymore with my drama rehearsals, I don’t exactly know what to do. Well, not so tiring anymore that I only work now, yeah, work has been busy as always, but the good thing is my boss hasn’t been in for two days. God, really gave me time to breath. But the things with my ex boyfriend has been hard (as always).. Really hard. He’s been begging for me to take him back (again). We’ve been fighting again and again. He gave me promises. I wanted to tell him so much that it’s too late. I still care for him, really, but I just don’t feel like having relationship right now, at least not that kind of relationship. Yeah, sometimes I miss the feeling of having somebody by my side, but I want to concentrate with my life now. All focus with my life. I want to do things I want to as much as I want. Not just with him, but I don’t want with anybody at all. My I repeat myself again, not now! I guess this is just the time for me to be selves. I have the right to do that, don’t I?

I’m concentrating for my PKL report and my thesis now, cause I have a plan of moving to Bali and work there. It’s a big plan it is, and I want to make it happen. Actually, my friend Wia already told me that I have a job waiting for me in Bali right now, but I just can’t resign from my job in such short notice can I? My boss would be really crazy if I did that. She would think that the whole world conspirated against her. Well, Wia, Herbie, and Casper (her employees in Bali) already resigned in short notice just when she needed them so badly. So if I resign now, she would feel like hell. So all I have to do is to finish all the unfinished business I have here in Jakarta, then as soon as possible move to Bali and start my new life there. Wish me luck guys!

Umm.. what else..? My phone bill is killing me!! maybe I should start using net service at the warnet again, I can’t believe it, it’s more than a million Rupiahs. My father doesn’t even want to know about all that, he asked me to pay it myself. God, now I really need to save my money, or else.. hwaaa….. help me!!!

2003-01-14T17:47:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2003!!! am i too late..?? huehuehue who cares!!!

I Love Bali!!!

Went to Bali this holids, Gosh..It was great!!! Who said something about Bali isn’t a beautiful place anymore?? Who said something about Bali isn’t a safe place anymore?? Who said something about Balinese isn’t friendly anymore?? That place is still gorgeous. Enormously beautiful. Very safe cause the security is very strict right now. Yeah.. The club life isn’t so great anymore, that’s true. Not so many people around, specially the youngsters. Most of the tourists there are old people now, mostly from Europe and Asia. But still it’s a great place to spend the holids. It’s been raining; cause the rainy season, but somehow that was better for me cause I hate too much sun. So, the weather was just perfect for me.

Met almost all my friends there, especially one of my best friends, Wia. She had been a very wonderful host there. We spent a lot of time together, at our Istana (meaning palace, that’s how we call our rented house), at the club (even the club sucked, we had a great time laughing at people), the pubs, at the beaches, making tattoos (fake ones or my mom would kill me instantly L), shopping, sharing stories and catching up, and specially the trip to Lembongan private beach with the Bali Hai Cruise. Anyone’s going to Bali, I highly recommend Bali Hai Cruise for one great day of holiday. All the crews were so friendly, the service was satisfying, everyone was like having great fun, great activities, clean and beautiful beach, beautiful coral reef, so on and so on. Bottom line it was great! I’m sorry, why do I sound like a marketing manager for Bali Hai?? No, I simply said all these cause I had a real great time there even though I ended up having my bag (the one Tim sent me from Denver for Christmas present) lost.

Too bad I could only stay for 4 days.. I wish I could have more. It was all caused of my tight drama rehearsal schedule. God, sometimes I think I spent too much time there. We had to have another rehearsal for the National Tv show.
Guess what?? When I was leaving to airport to go back to Jakarta, I missed the plane. I was too late to check in and wasn’t allowed to go at that time. So I ended up wandering around and around by my self at Kuta Beach, did a little shopping and spending all afternoon enjoying the wind and the wave of Kuta Bali (even though I really had to be tough and patience with those vendors).

And about the play on Jan 3rd.. the Jakarta Drama Festival, we won the first place. It was a great surprise, now we are professional, I just hope and really hope that all of us can act and work professionally now. As a hobby but still acting professional, however.

Wia asked me to spend the 1 week break during April and March in Bali again. She’s going to have her birthday party and a farewell party for her leaving to study for 6 months in Australia (Doddamit, she’s a lucky bitch..!! *jealous mode sets on*) J. So I really expect my self to go there. God, I miss Bali already!! Hwaaaaaaa……. I want more!!! L

I think that’s all my posting for now, would like to write more but my body feels like just got beaten by hundreds of people. So I guess, I’m going to have my shower now and prepare my self to sleep so I can be fresh (less sleep lately) tomorrow for work..work.. God, I hate my job now, can anybody offer me a job, especially in Bali..somewhere in one of the hotels!!

By the way, if u people would like to see our pics in Bali, just click the link to go to my yahoo album. Or maybe, the easiest way is just log in to http://photos.yahoo.com. And find the Bali folder, u’ll see us there in the beauty of Bali

Okey..sleep now Ndoey!!

2002-12-29T12:17:00.000-08:00

I HATE TELKOMNET INSTANT!!!!!!

Can't believe it!! Last night, for the the whole night I couldn't get good connections from telkomnet instant at all!! And now, it's happenening again!!!!!! I can't believe it!! I can't open my yahoo and hotmail account at all, not to mention my icq, msn and yahoo messanger!!! How I miss my chat friends so much..so friends..if u couldn't see me at all, please..I never mean to avoid u guys, just blame everything to the fuckin' telkomnet instant!! And I miss u all too!! ;))

Anyway, I went to see the Final of Asian Tiger soccer Cup at Senayan today. Went with my drama club friends; Aan, Agus, Atphal, Ijal, Cherry, Sokle, Kedung, Om Bob, plus Bang Abdi, Atphal's brother who successesfully got us in the stadion with the pers card!! Well, as u guys might have seen on Tv, our team lost (again..sigh..) from Thai team by penalty shootouts. Too bad, if only they won, we would be home happily. Anyway, it was fun anyway..at least at the stadion, I could shout out loud and no ones cared. I was so worried, well, still am actually. This afternoon, before I went to see the game with Aan, my father cought me smoking. He threated me to tell my mom, but I asked him not to, my mom would be ANGRY like hell!! I just hope he didn't and will never do that. I don't know yet, cause I haven't met them at all tonight after the game. I just hope so, just wish me luck people!!

Hmm..our performance is only few days away.. I just hope all of our tiring and boring rehearsals will do something good to the performance. It's about time I guess, sometimes rehearsals can be so boring if u always do that almost everyday for the past 2 months. I just hope that I wouldn't get crazy again like the last performance we had. Last time, we had performance at Shangrila Hotel, Jakarta. It was prety good and succcess too. But then the Event Organizers invited us to Embassy Club. There were 4 of us from our Drama Club. And we got drunk (except for Pipit, she didn't drink at all cause she didn't like to) from Tequilas. I admited, we drank quite too much. And I ended up waking up in a hotel room in the morning couldn't really remember what happened last night. It was embarrasing, never drank that much actually. So I just hope after this performance we will go straight home, not clubbing (cause if somebody ask me, I will just say YES!!) or at least shooting some pools will be great. So, embarrasing things like that night will never happen again!

I'm tired now, I guess I will just jump to my bed, hold my soft pillow and imagine about nice things! Uuhmmm..what will I imagine tonight..?? anybody want to make a guess?? ;)) So long!!

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This is Eka..
People call me Ndoey, well, understandable cause I'm fat. Fat that's true, but who cares anyway? I enjoy my life so much and as long as I'm happy, I don't give a damn. My real name is Eka. I'm the first child in my family with two brothers. That's why my parents named me Eka, Eka means one. Working in an International School here in Jakarta, Teacher's Aide of 4th graders. Tell u what, kids are nice, but when u get to see them way tooooooooo often..they start to pissed u off.. they are nice alright, but sometimes there are times when I'm just tired of them. Well, basically it's okey. Well, working there now is the chance for me to learn so many new things and also to practice my English. Giving me the experiences to have bigger and more interesting job that I want someday.
Beside working I'm also a student of a University in Jakarta majoring in Public Relation. Well, that's if they still admit me as their student. I'm still finishing it, but it seems so hard for me setting up time to have my thesis done. Will anybody help me please..

I like reading so much. Nothing hard though, novels, comics, social books, books about human and psychology. Have u read a book titled "Sibyl"? That is just a great book. Telling a true story about a girl with 16 personalities. Her life was so hard and frustrated till her mind began to try to survive by dividing her personality to 16. Can u believe that? Read the book and find out! Trust me, it's a great book. My favorite author are John Grisham, James Patterson, Phillip Margolin, but my very best is the one and only, Agatha Christie! So, can u guess what kind of novels I read now?

Music..umm.. I think I kind of like most kind of music. Rock, pop, jazz, easy listening, R & B, Rap, and so on. But when it gets to the favorite ones, they are 80's Rock, Nat King Cole's, Lois Armstrong's, Kylie Minoque's, Linkin Park's, Robbie Williams's, and the kind of songs that makes ur body moves. How about u?

Beside those this above, I like the usual things. Like movies. I like drama, comedy, and the kind of movie that makes u think when watching it. Fave actors and actress? Mel Gibson, Tom Hanks, Dustin Hoffman, Meg Ryan, Julia Roberts, Al Pacino. I like theatre performances too. Actually, I'm a player my self. Been with this drama club since high school and still continuing till now. Between the member of our club, we're more like family than just friends now. I love them so much. They are my second family beside my parents and my brothers. Anyway, our next performance will be on January 3rd, will anybody care enough to watch us? Please, do come and enjoy the show!

What else..?? I like rock climbing, shoot some pool, not really good though, still need to learn a lot! Umm..TRAVEL! I love traveling so much. Too bad, traveling costs a lot of money. So I have to work hard, save some money to have it. Spent my last holids in Bali. It was great. Thanks to my Boss for that, they invited me there for my holiday. I made a lot of nice friends, had great time, learned new things, had new and crazy experiences. Bottom line is that I love it so much and looking forward to go back and have fun. Hope to be there soon!! Traveling all around the world is one of my dreams. It seems so interesting to see the world. Meeting new people, making new friends, learning other country's culture, habits, languages, and so many other things. Hope someday I can make it come true. Cross your fingers for me guys!!

This is it from me now. Should be enough for u to get to know me. Cheers!!

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